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“How sweet I roamed from field to field, and tasted all the summer’s pride.”

June 20, 2011

The day is warm at  71°. My birds have been busy at the feeders all morning. The chickadees, my stalwarts, have been replaced by a catbird, goldfinches, cardinals, titmice, Baltimore orioles and nuthatches. A blue jay drops by and scares away the smaller birds so I shoo him off once he’s had his fill. Sometimes I think I must be watching a Disney cartoon. Yesterday I saw a nuthatch fill up on seed then he flew to a nearby branch and fed another nuthatch, just as large so probably not a baby. The cardinal pair are the same. He feeds her the seed. I keep expecting music and ribbons and the sounds of tweeting birds and fluttering wings.

IGNORE THIS (EXCEPT FOR THE NEW PICTURE PART)! Coffee has a new look because the other theme was too difficult to work with when saving pages. The old posts didn’t appear in their entirety. This header space is too short for the other picture so I used a another one, also sent to me by Morphy. He was kind enough to do three or four different pictures for Coffee when I moved to WordPress. All that’s new is the picture, but I’m still looking for a theme which allows me to copy the posts without spending hours.

This morning has already been far too busy for me. Usually I loll around with coffee and the papers then I switch to coffee and a book. This morning I have already changed my bed, done a wash, put the trash in the car and swept the kitchen floor. I’m exhausted.

School is finished here for the summer on Wednesday, and I don’t have to imagine how those kids will feel as I still remember celebrating my last days of school. They always filled me with a sense of freedom, with an I can do anything I want feeling. The whole summer was mine, at least it was until the summer after I graduated from high school when I got my first job, and I would have one every summer after that until I graduated from college.

I spent those kid summers sweaty and dirty and loved every minute of them. I rode my bike everywhere. I was gone from early morning until near dinner time. The uniform of the day was always shorts, a sleeveless blouse and sneakers. Gas stations were pit stops and so were the woods. The town had lots of woods back then, and we’d ride on the pine needle covered paths with trees shading us on each side. I remember a spring in the woods where people brought bottles to fill. We’d put our sweaty heads under the running water to cool down then we’d jump back on our bikes. We still had much more world left to discover.

“I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection.”

June 19, 2011

This is from 2010: All I can add is how much I miss him still, each and every day. I cried a bit today filled as I am with memories of my Dad.

Father’s Day gives me the chance to use my whole posting to talk about my Dad. He was the funniest guy, mostly on purpose but lots of times by happenstance. We used to have Dad stories, all those times when we roared and he had no idea why. He used to laugh along with us and ask, “What did I say? What did I say?” We were usually laughing too hard to tell him.

I know you’ve heard this before, but it is one of my favorite Dad stories. He, my mom and I were in Portugal. I was driving. My dad was beside me. On the road, we had passed many piggyback tandem trucks, some several trucks long. On the back of the last truck was always the sign Vehiculo Longo. We came out of a gas station behind one of those. My father nonchalantly noted, “That guy Longo owns a lot of trucks.” I was laughing so hard I could barely drive and my mother was roaring.

My father wasn’t at all handy around the house. Putting up outside lights, he gave himself a shock which knocked him off his step ladder. He once sawed himself out of a tree by sitting on the wrong end of the limb. The bookcase he built in the cellar had two shelves, one on the floor and the other too high to use. He said it was lack of wood. When painting the house once, the ladder started to slide, but he stayed on his rung anyway with brush in hand. The stroke of the paint on the house followed the path of his fall. Lots of times he set his shoe or pant leg on fire when he was barbecuing. He was a big believer in lots of charcoal lighter fluid.

My father loved games, mostly cards. We played cribbage all the time, and I loved making fun of  his loses, especially if I skunked him. When he won, it was superb playing. When I won, it was luck. I remember so many nights of all of us crowded the kitchen table playing cards, especially hi-lo jack. He loved to win and we loved lording it over him when he lost.

My father was a most successful businessman. He was hired to turn a company around and he did. He was personable and funny and remembered everyone’s names. Nobody turned him down.

My father always went out Sunday mornings for the paper and for donuts. He never remembered what kind of donut I like. His favorite was plain. He’d make Sunday breakfast when I visited: bacon, eggs and toast. I can still see him standing over the stove with a dish towel over his shoulders. He always put me in charge of the toast.

If I ever needed anything, I knew I could call my father. He was generous. When we went out to eat, he always wanted to pay and was indignant when we one upped him by setting it up ahead of time that one of us would pay. One Christmas he gave us all $500.oo, not as a gift but to buy gifts.

My father left us when he was far too young. It was sudden. He had a heart attack. I had spoken with him just the day before. It was pouring that day, and I told him how my dog Shauna was soaked. He loved that dog and told me to wipe his baby off. I still remember that whole conversation.

“Be grateful for luck. Pay the thunder no mind – listen to the birds. And don’t hate nobody.”

June 18, 2011

I wish you all could have joined me on the deck this morning for coffee. The catbird dropped by, lots of nuthatches and a giant crow who preened. First he rubbed his bill against the rough pine bark then he spread one wing and cleaned a pinion at a time. I came in, got my camera and went back outside. He posed.

The day is wonderful; I might even say perfect with the sun and a slight breeze; it’s probably the same sort of morning Adam and Eve woke up to before the serpent intervened. I always wonder about Adam and Eve. How the heck did the story of their fall make it all the way to us? When I was a kid, we’d play gossip, the game of whispering a phrase from one person to another until the last person repeated what he or she heard. The end result never resembled in any way the starting phrase. I’m supposed to believe oral tradition carried the story of Adam and Eve through the ages. I’m guessing his real name might have been Chuck and she was Louise. I’m still thinking it was an apple, red being such a provocative color. Did all the animals speak or just the serpent?

My world is really noisy on Saturday. It is mow the lawn day everywhere. Kids are outside playing and dogs bark and bark, at what I have no idea. Gracie once in a while joins them, but she is far more content lying asleep in the shade of the trees overhanging the deck.

I have my book, In the Woods, coffee waiting to be iced and a comfy chair. If you want me for anything, I’ll be on the deck.

“You can tell a lot about a person from his underwear.”

June 17, 2011

Yesterday was summer. It started on the deck in the morning with coffee and the papers and ended at the bottom of the ninth, another Sox win. My friends invited me to dinner on the deck. We drank frosty Creamsicles, played Phase 10 and ate hamburgers and deviled eggs. We laughed as we always do together. Candles were lit and the smell of lemon filled with air. It was quiet everywhere else in the neighborhood but not on that deck.

Today is cloudy and chilly. I went out with my coffee and papers and came back inside two pages later. It may rain, and by the looks of the sky and the feel of dampness in the air, this afternoon will get wet.

An editorial in the Globe gave me a laugh this morning. A state senator has proposed a bill prohibiting homeowner associations and the like from restricting solar-clothes drying devices; however, the bill is not without controversy. Some associations demand the bill restrict these devices to back yards. Last year the city of Concord passed a right to dry measure, but it is in conflict with the current state law. The Laundry List, a national right-to-dry advocacy based in New Hampshire, has an on-line petition urging the First Family to put up a clothesline on the White House lawn. I have a vision of unmentionables blowing in the breeze near the West Wing.

I went hunting and found The History Bluff and an article about Presidential underwear. It came as no surprise that Harry Truman often liked to go commando or that Richard Nixon preferred whitey- Tighties. The only underwear conversion came when Calvin Coolidge, who wore whitie-tighties for the first two years of his presidency, switched over to boxers after being ridiculed by Vice President Charles Dawes. Although Coolidge admitted it felt strange for the first few weeks, he was glad for the change and was grateful to Dawes.

It seems that a President is required to write down his underwear preference for his staff so that they may purchase underwear for him when necessary. I’m thinking that’s going too far. Some things should just be kept private. My advice to the President is pack more than enough in case you have to stay longer. I always do.

“Great American sport. Horseshoes is a very great game. I love it.”

June 16, 2011

Today is perfectly lovely with a bright, warm sun and a breeze to keep the heat at bay. It will be in the 70’s today and during the rest of the week. The inside back of the house, though, is still rather chilly. The cool nights hold sway until the sun hits the windows in the afternoon. It was coffee and papers on the deck today. Gracie slept in the shade while I enjoyed the morning. The birds sang and the leaves rustled when the breeze blew. My fountain is a quiet one which gives me a feeling of contentment. I sat, closed my eyes and let my ears hear the morning.

I slept in today and was surprised at the lateness of the hour when I woke up.  It was after 9, but I didn’t really care. I cleaned off the deck table and chairs, made coffee, grabbed the papers and got myself comfy outside. A bird would catch my eye, and I’d stop and watch. I heard the spawns of Satan running across from tree limb to tree limb, and I even gave them a quick look. It is a morning for dawdling.

I used to play horseshoes, and I was pretty good. At the end of our street was a playground, Pomeworth Park, where we spend our summer days. We were still kids then, still in elementary school. Two college students ran each playground in town, and we’d compete in softball or baseball games and at a huge game day which ended the summer. We did crafts, and I’d sit at the picnic table in the shade painting and using beads or gimp to create my artistic treasures. We played checkers, horseshoes and softball. In the early morning, before the rest of the playground opened, I took tennis lessons. I always grabbed the same racket from the box. It was red. We were never bored at our playground, and I always hated to leave, but the playground closed for an hour, and we’d go home for lunch. That was about the only time of the day my mother saw us. I think she liked the playground even more than we did.

“Man cannot live by bread alone; he must have peanut butter.”

June 14, 2011

I’m really late I know, but I dragged myself out of bed for an early morning meeting, and when I got home, I read the papers then snuggled under an afghan and shared the couch with Gracie for a nap. She’s still asleep. The day is raw. My hands are cold, and I need socks to keep my feet warm. It’s the dampness more than the temperature which makes 57° so uncomfortable. Today is a stay at home and read day. I might just have some cocoa, and, of course, it will need a dollop of Marshmallow Fluff floating on the top.

I love fluffernutters. When I was little, I only had creamy peanut butter, but then I tasted and got addicted to the chunky. My favorite now is Roasted Honey Nut, either plain or chunky. Groundnut (peanut) paste was a staple in Ghana. It was thick and sold in jars to be used for soups, but I bought it for sandwiches. I’d have to mix in a little groundnut oil to make the paste easy to spread or it tore up the bread. I always thought of those sandwiches as a bit of home.

My mother never packed fluffernutters in our lunch boxes. They were always snacks to us. Sometimes I’d use Saltines and make a little snack of miniature fluffernutters. They always needed milk. They were best eaten in the living room in front of the TV. We always left crumbs on the rug no matter how careful we were.

I also like PB&J sandwiches with grape jelly, strawberry jam or hot pepper jelly. I like them for lunch or even dinner if I’m really feeling too lazy to cook anything. I don’t do glasses of milk anymore. I do coffee.

“I’m wearing a garbage bag. I was put on my own worst-dressed list.”

June 13, 2011

Today is much like the last few days: cloudy, chilly and damp. It will stay in the 50’s, but I’m okay with that. Hot days will come soon enough. I have a list of errands today, none of them fun or exciting. Gracie would disagree. The dump is on the list.

My father loved his town dump. He went every Sunday and always tried to get one of us to go with him. Any weekend guests, including friends of mine from school, were generally coerced to take what we used to call the tour. The dump in those days was filled with tall piles of trash and had lots of seagulls flying overhead making all sorts of noise. My father would wend his way around the piles then add his contribution. The dump was easily visible from the highway. The birds gave it away. But now, the dump has changed, and my father would be keenly disappointed. The piles of trash have given way to recycle bins and trash bins and it has no seagulls. From the highway, all you can see is giant grass hills where the piles of trash used to be.

The house next door is a summer rental. It has never had anyone living there full time. The owners come up from New York before the start of the season to get the house ready. They mow the weeds in the front and back and put out the plastic deck furniture. That’s it for outside maintenance. At the end of the summer they’ll be back to mow again and to put the furniture away for the winter. The house is pretty simple with shingles (or shakes as some of you call them) on all four sides, no painting necessary. The front yard has pine chips instead of a lawn, no mowing necessary. Every Saturday the renters haul out the trashcans to the road and the trash truck comes. A couple of times I added a stinky trash bag to the pile. The alternative was to put it in my trunk until the next day, but even that one day is too long for stinky trash to sit enclosed in a hot trunk. I don’t ever meet the renters. I just hope they’re quiet and too tired to stay out on their deck too late. I almost called the police once because of noise. Our town has an ordinance about noise after 10. I held off, but I’m getting older and crankier and less tolerant. I just hope this summer’s crop is a quiet one.

“How dreary – to be – somebody! How public – like a frog – to tell your name – the livelong June – to an admiring bog!”

June 12, 2011

The day is a mean one-the rain has left a damp chill. It’s a stay in, read all the papers and watch the ballgame sort of day. I may even sneak in a nap.

Everything is still. No wind blows the leaves. The pouring rain of yesterday has cleared the pollen. The yellow is finally gone. Now only a few drips from the roof disturb the silence.

Ants are in my kitchen. I found a couple in the sink. I figured they were advance scouts for the rest of the army. The traps have been set. The ants’ days are numbered.

The last couple of days have been uneventful. I’m probably jinxing myself by saying that, but I’ll take the chance.

My very favorite vacation when I was a kid was in Vermont. We were so far up state my parents went to a town in Canada for dinner. I love the beach, but I don’t love salt water. It makes my skin dry and itchy. In Vermont we were on a lake. It was filled with fish, and I could see them just off shore where the bottom dropped and the water got really deep. I don’t open in my eyes in the salt water, but I do in a lake. I could see all the fish darting out of my way as I swam underwater. My hand seemed to move in slow motion when I reached toward the fish. Some were really small and some were middle sized. I have no idea what kind they were. I knew catfish from the pond near our house where my brother often fished, but I didn’t know the names of any others. All I knew was they were really fast.

We traipsed through the dense pine woods, went frog hunting in the stream which ran parallel to the house and swam every day. I loved that vacation, and I’d do most of it again. I think I’d just eliminated the frog hunting. They’re too slimy for me now.

“I’m someone who believes the only way to see a movie is in a big theater, on a big screen, with a big bag of popcorn.”

June 11, 2011

Today is sweatshirt weather. It’s cold and damp with rain expected. Two days ago it was in the 80’s; today is 61°. I’m thinking of staying close to home. The Science Fiction channel has cold and ice movies, perfect choices for the day. Yeti is now attacking. Keep in mind he doesn’t like pepper spray. It infuriates him, and the last thing any of us need is an infuriated Yeti.

No plumbers, electricians, EMT’s or the like have darkened my doorstep in a couple of days. I think the proverbially black cloud has passed. I pity the person above whom it looms.

Today is a perfect movie matinee day. I’ll buy my ticket for a quarter and use my nickel for vanilla Turkish Taffy or a Sugar Daddy. They always last a good part of the movie. I wonder what cartoon they’ll show first. Bugs Bunny is always a good guess. I, however, am more of a Daffy Duck fan. The paper said the movie today is It Conquered the World. There better not be any ugly monsters or scary aliens as they’ll be screaming girls all over the theater. I, however, am never one of them. I love being scared. I know the back seats will be filled early. That’s where the teenagers go to make out. I always sneak a look at them on my way to the bathroom. Too bad they’re missing such a good movie.

It never occurred to me back then that my mother spend under a dollar to get rid of us all afternoon. I figure she thought it a wise investment. We had to walk up town, wait to buy a ticket, stand in line to buy candy, pick a seat, watch the movie then walk back home. She had the whole afternoon to herself or with my two little sisters. It must have seemed like heaven.

It’s sort of funny, but I’m back to matinees. They’re cheaper and far less crowded on a weekday. I buy popcorn and a drink. The theater is always filled with people my age, just like back then.

“Grin like a dog and wander aimlessly.”

June 10, 2011

The thunder and lightning were tremendous last night. It was an amazing storm. My room lit up several times from the lightning, and the house was shaken by the thunder overhead. I loved every minute of it. Yesterday was ugly and hot. Today is cool and dry, a gift from the storm. The sunlight seems muted. It lacks the glare the heat brings. The next few days will be in the 70’s and the nights in the 50’s. I think that is perfect weather.

My passport came back yesterday with its Ghanaian visa. I’ve looked at that visa at least three times. The handwriting is typically Ghanaian: beautifully written with a flourish. I am now official!

When I was a kid, I dreamed of faraway places. My geography book was a wish book filled with pictures of where I dreamed I could be. I saw myself on Corcovado Mountain in Rio standing below the giant statue of Christ the Redeemer. I went up the Amazon, I wandered coffee plantations, and I saw the sphinx in Egypt, all in my imagination. No one I knew traveled just for the sake of traveling. Marty Barrett went to England to visit his grandmother, but that was the only place he went. Riding on an airplane was a part of my dream.

I once sneaked to Logan Airport with my uncle from my grandmother’s house. It was quite a long walk, miles, but I didn’t care. I stood on the observation deck of one of the old wooden Logan hangers and watched the planes coming and going. From displays I took brochures describing airlines and hotels. I wandered the airport watching people with their suitcases getting in lines to board planes. I was both wistful and jealous.

When I got back to my grandmother’s, my parents were livid, but I thought that a small price to pay for a great adventure. A few days later, I started reading the brochures, cut out pictures and began an album of my trip. I described the plane ride and flying in the clouds. Pictures of my hotel rooms had arrows pointing to my bed. All the wonderful sights we saw in the different cities were pasted on the pages and described by me in a first person account.

I filled the whole album with wishes and a dreams.