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“Let us read, and let us dance; these two amusements will never do any harm to the world.”

September 6, 2018

When I was getting my papers this morning, it was hot out and my back hurt. Down the street was noisy from trucks moving and carpenters working on an addition to my neighbor’s house. That noise had been loud enough to wake me up a bit earlier, but somehow none of that mattered. There I was, standing with my back leaning on the car as I checked the garden, the same thing I do every morning, but this morning was different. All of a sudden I realized I was content. It was odd the way that feeling sort of crept into my consciousness.

Henry has taken a huge step forward. He let me cut his nails yesterday. Granted, I had cut off all his escape routes, but he could have made the whole process difficult, but he didn’t. He just sat there quietly resigned to his fate.

I have been eating Tropical Necco Wafers lately. I suppose I should put them under glass as they are no longer being made, but I really do enjoy the flavors though I do have one complaint. Strawberries are not a tropical fruit. The coconut and banana are my favorite flavors but that’s no surprise.

We may have thunderstorms today. We will have heat and humidity with a high of 85˚. Right now it is sunny but that comes and goes. Given my druthers, I’d go for the thunderstorms.

When I was a kid, I lost interest in dolls early on. The only exception was the doll with the elastics on her feet I got for Christmas one year. She was tall for a doll and had floppy arms and legs. She wore a skirt and blouse. One round elastic was on each foot. When I slipped my shoes into the elastics, we could dance. I held her arms as we danced. I always led.

The first few days of school each year were exciting. I usually knew which teacher I’d have as we alternated year to year between non-nun and nun. On the first day of school what I looked forward to was seeing my friends and classmates. Each grade had two classes, and there were always over 40 of us in each class. I always hoped my friends would be in the classroom with me. Some of them usually were given the large number of us.

My dance card is empty today.

“Be persistent like a mosquito, at the end you will get your bite”

September 4, 2018

I am already behind closed doors and shut windows as the heat and humidity are still here. It was cool enough last night that the AC was off, but it is back on now and blowing its little heart out.

I had a surprise this morning. My mouse trap had an occupant. Even before my coffee, I took the trap, left the house and drove about a mile before I freed the wee creature. It was small and brown. When I swept the kitchen floor the other day, yup I do occasionally sweep, I saw mouse poop so I set the trap. Later, I’ll reset the trap by adding more peanut butter.

When I was a kid, my father hunted bugs in the house, especially mosquitos. He’d arm himself with a rolled up newspaper and go from room to room. I remember being awakened by my father walking on my bed while he swatted mosquitos on the ceiling. The rooms in our house had blots of dead bugs on all the ceilings. My father was a mighty hunter.

I remember mosquitos buzzing my ear. I’d brush them away with my hand but the mosquitos always came back. In Ghana, my language instructor Lawal told us why the mosquito buzzes ears. It seems mosquito fell in love with ear and proposed. Ear thought the proposal quite funny and said no. Mosquito, undaunted by ear’s refusal, buzzes ear every night to say he is still around, waiting for a yes.

Today is dump day. Henry doesn’t yet know the joy of riding in a car so no dump for him. Poor Henry has no idea what he’s missing. All my girls loved the dump.

I have a few chores for today. I need to change my bed and do a wash even though I swear I just did a wash the other day. I remember the filled pillow case lying against the cellar door for a few days before I got tired of seeing it and finally took it downstairs. This load,though, is still upstairs, the first stop on its way to the washing machine.

Today the school buses rolled. One even went down my street. That’s about as close I ever again want to get to a school bus again.

“Without labor nothing prospers.”

September 3, 2018

The sun is just breaking out. There is a breeze which ruffles the leaves, but it is already hot and humid. It will be an ugly day.

Maddie and Henry are asleep. I’d like to join them as I’m tired. For some reason of late my sleep is filled with dreams which I tell myself to remember, but mostly I don’t. A couple are offshoots of what I’ve watched on TV except I’m part of the action. Last night I was in the Middle East.

Acorns keep falling off the trees and bouncing on the deck. One end of the deck is filled with them though the deck was cleared on Friday. Wearing something on my feet is a necessity.

When I was a kid, most of the stores were closed. The only ones open were the small corner stores like the Red Store and the White Store ( I never knew them by name, only by color) near my house. I don’t remember any particular celebrations. I don’t even remember if we had barbecues. What I do remember is taking my night before school starts bath and laying out my clothes. The opening day was one of the two days I didn’t have to wear a uniform so we always had new clothes for the day. I readied my new school bag, and I put my new pencil box inside it. My mother made lunch and packed it in my new lunch box. When I was young, the lunch box had characters on it like Annie Oakley. When I got older, it had colors and patterns. I remember one in a black and red tartan scheme.

This is from a previous post, “The real meaning of Labor Day has been blurred. It was first celebrated in the early 1880’s as a day to honor laborers, “who from rude nature have delved and carved all the grandeur we behold.” The first states to recognize the day were Massachusetts, Oregon, New York, Colorado and New Jersey. It became a holiday in 1884 and was a day for parades and speeches, all meant to honor workers and the contributions of the American labor movement.”  Perhaps it’s time to bring back the real meaning of Labor Day!

“All dwarfs have beards and wear up to twelve layers of clothing. Gender is more or less optional.”

September 2, 2018

Today is another beautiful day. It will be the last for a bit as the heat and humidity are  returning tomorrow. We’re talking 90’s again and air conditioning. Mother Nature did it. She lulled me into a false sense of fall by the last couple of days.

I have a few errands today. One is to the farm stand, and that one is my favorite. I get to buy all those wonderful fresh vegetables and more salsa chips. I know that last one sounds strange, but the stand does sell the best tasting chips.

Today is sunny and bearably warm. The Sox are playing a day game. I’ll be watching.

I prefer swimming in fresh water more than salt which is a bit ironic given where I live. I like the beach, the sandy part, and I like watching the waves. I chuckle at the seagulls.

My mother made the best brownies. She made them from ingredients, not a box. She always iced them in chocolate frosting and use jimmies for an added touch. I never ate just one of those brownies.

Yesterday I planted the flowers in the deck pots. Now I just need to plant the two remaining flowers in my front garden. A couple of them have bloomed. The flowers are purple and puffy looking.

Charlie Baker, the governor, is running for re-election. He is quite popular here even though he is a republican. I like that people in Massachusetts vote the person not the party, but I am already sick of Charlie Baker. His ads are all over the place. I can’t watch a youTube video without him popping up first. The same ad is on TV over and over. He does have an opponent in the primary, but I have no idea who it is. I doubt anyone knows so pull back those ads, Charlie.

I haven’t baked in a while. I use my oven as an extra cabinet for storing mostly crackers and cereal so when I use the oven it has to be cleared first. Once I missed something in the back, and it turned all black from the preheating. Now I always double check.

I read an article which discussed which was correct: dwarfs or dwarves. I would figure dwarfs was and there is no reason for the change in form to dwarves. It seems “dwarves” was coined by Tolkien about 80 years ago to give his dwarves a dignity that dwarfs could hardly attain. So successful have his stories been that “dwarves” seems to be superseding “dwarfs” as the regular plural of “dwarf”,  but don’t worry: Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs will stay the same.

 

“What dreadful hot weather we have! It keeps one in a continual state of inelegance.”

September 1, 2018

Today is again glorious, cool and dry. The sun is strong. The sky is blue and unmarred by clouds. I’m going to sit on the deck and take it all in because by Sunday the ugly humidity will be back.

Today is the meteorological end of summer, and Labor Day is the unofficial end but none of that matters to Mother Nature. She will continue to blast us with heat and humidity until fall can finally work its way past her. I’m hoping it will be soon. Fall is my favorite season.

In Ghana we had the dry season and the rainy season. I lived where the dry season was hotter than any other place in Ghana, but now it is the rainy season there so the temperature in Bolga, my other home town, is the lowest it will be all year. It has been in the high 70’s and the mid 80’s there, and rain has fallen just about every day. It is odd to see it cooler in West Africa than it is here.

During my early Peace Corps days, I missed fall, the snow at Christmas and the freshness of spring. I missed flowers. But the longer I lived there, the more I came to love the changes in Ghana’s weather. The rains came intermittently in September. The fields and grasses began to turn brown. Every day seemed hotter than the previous one. By the end of September, it was the high 80’s. In October it was the high 90’s. The worst months, February through April, usually reached 100˚ or more. My favorite month was December. The days were hot, but the nights were cold in comparison. I needed a blanket. It was Bolga’s snow at Christmas. In May the rains started. The grasses turned green. The fields were filled with the young shoots of millet, maize and sorghum. The trees were green with leaves. It was spring, Ghanaian style. The market was overloaded with fresh fruits and vegetables. The tomatoes were luscious.

It has been a long, long while since I lived in Ghana so I have forgotten the horrific heat, those days over 100˚.  Back then I seldom complained. I took my cold shower late, jumped into bed and fell asleep. Now I complain and moan and turn on the air conditioner.

That’s the way it was there, and now that’s the way it is here.

“If you saw a heat wave, would you wave back?”

August 30, 2018

The heat is still horrific. This is the worst it’s been in my memory. My friend Bill wondered if it is hotter here than in Bolgatanga, Ghana where we both lived. Some days I believe it is.

This is the rainy season in Ghana, but it isn’t the rainy season here. We haven’t seen rain in a while, especially that drenching rain I remember in Ghana. Luckily my irrigation system has kept the lawn and garden green. The plants in the deck pots have to be watered almost every day or they wilt. I understand wilting. I wilt every time I go outside. It is not a pretty sight.

When I was younger, I could tolerate the heat here in the house far better. I didn’t even have a fan. I used to sleep downstairs on the couch, and I kept the back door open all night. That was enough. Now, it would never be enough.

When I was a kid, I slept through the hottest nights because I was exhausted, because the swelter of every summer day didn’t matter, didn’t slow me down, didn’t stop me from having fun. I rode my bike, played softball, walked to the pool and hung around outside with friends. I was a kid so being sweaty and dirty was no never mind. The sprinkler was my summer shower. That it was cold water was the best part.

My mother always had a pitcher of ZaRex in the fridge. It was cheaper than making lemonade and tasted better than Kool-Aid. The pitcher she used the most was blue aluminum. The glasses were also aluminum but were a variety of colors. She had a couple of glass pitchers, one smaller than the other. I found their duplicates in an antique store and bought them both. I’m heavy into nostalgia.

My mother didn’t use her stove or oven a whole lot in the summer because the small kitchen held the heat. Sandwiches were acceptable supper food. My dad barbecued on weekends but my mother never did during the week. Everyone knew barbecuing was a man’s job. That my father sometimes set himself on fire was just an acceptable risk.

I have a doctor’s appointment in Hyannis today. I’m not happy with going outside. That my car has AC doesn’t matter. It’s just the idea of it.

“God, it was hot! Forget about frying an egg on the sidewalk; this kind of heat would fry an egg inside the chicken.”

August 28, 2018

The air conditioner is a must. The heat is stifling. The little breeze has no effect. Getting my morning papers took a bit of effort. The one good thing was I noticed some buds of the clematis covering my fence have started to bloom. Soon enough the fence will be covered in a crown of white. Also, the white anemones in the garden next to the house are blooming. I started with one plant and now the flowers have spread across that whole side of the front garden. The other side doesn’t grow as quickly. Even the bushes on that side are shorter than the bushes on the other side. It’s all the sun’s fault.

Yesterday I bought some plants to replace the dead ones in some of the deck pots. The plants were on sale. I bought mostly lavender for the deck, and I bought some perennials  for a bare spot in the big garden. Those flowers will remain nameless because I can’t remember their name. By the time I got home, sweat was dripping down the sides of my face. I. was not a pleasant sight.

The heat has gotten to me. I am watching a really bad movie, even bad for me: Piranha 3DD. Gary Busey, David Hasselhoff and Ving Rhames are in it which might give you an idea of how really bad it is. The owner of a water park saved money by filling his pools with water from a deep lake in the ocean, a deep lake filled with piranha. They are eating their fill.

I finished my laundry, a huge accomplishment; however, it still sits in a basket in the living room. Getting it upstairs is a two step process. I’m still working on step two.

When small things go wrong, I am driven crazy. Right now it is the back screen door handle. It doesn’t shut tightly. That started yesterday. I have to take off the handle then go to the aluminum door store to get the right part. Henry goes out the dog door but wants me to let him in. That now stops. It took a while, but I got the screen door to shut. Henry will just after to understand.

My to do list is empty today. I have a good book, some leftover salsa and chips and a few catalogues to look through with an eye to Christmas. My most trying efforts today will be turning the pages and dipping the chips into salsa. I may need a nap.

“You’re only here for a short visit. Don’t hurry, don’t worry. And be sure to smell the flowers along the way.”

August 27, 2018

Today is already horribly different than yesterday. The house was 76˚ by ten this morning. When I went to get the papers, I was assaulted by the heat. I didn’t even stop to admire my garden. The air conditioner is working its little heart out to cool the house. Today will be a run from the air conditioned house to the air conditioned car as I have a couple of errands. I have finally started the laundry. It stayed in the hall for days, and I couldn’t stand looking at it any more.

Yesterday was a wonderful day. I sat on the deck all afternoon reading and munching on fresh nacho chips from the farm stand and mango-pineapple salsa. As it got dark, I started a fire in my chiminea. It wasn’t really cold out, but there was a breeze. I loaded the chiminea with piñon wood. The aroma was wonderful. I figured the neighborhood could probably smell it as the breeze took the smoke northward. I stayed outside until the wood was mere embers.

I have favorite smells. One of my favorites is the smell of wood charcoal burning. That is the smell I remember the most from Ghana. The Ghanaians cooked outside over small fires of wood charcoal. It was the first smell of the morning and the last of the evening. Before I bought my gas grill, I had a charcoal grill. I always used wood charcoal instead of the briquets just for the aroma. The Christmas tree is my next favorite. During the Christmas season I love getting down the stairs to the living room in the morning because I get to smell the wonderful pine of the tree which permeates the whole downstairs. My long ago favorite smell was the leaves during the fall. On Saturdays, the lawns were raked and the leaves piled in the road next to the sidewalks. There were piles up and down the street each guarded by a rake wielding father from the neighborhood. The smoke from those piles wafted in the air all blown in the same direction by the wind.

Fresh bread, coffee brewing and turkey baking are some of the best kitchen smells. I remember Gracie and the cat used to sit in front of the oven when the turkey was baking. They had high hopes because they knew I’d give each of them pieces of turkey every time I had some myself.

My den now has a bit of a dog smell from Henry. That never happened with any of my other dogs. I’ve bought a cleaner for the couch, but I haven’t yet gotten enough energy to clean the couch cushions. Remember, my laundry sat in the hall for days.

“Elections belong to the people. It’s their decision. If they decide to turn their back on the fire and burn their behinds, then they will just have to sit on their blisters.”

August 26, 2018

I love these mornings. My den, my favorite place in the house and the room where I spend a good portion of my time, is still chilly from the night air. The sun hasn’t worked its way around to this side of the house yet. Today’s high temperature will in the 70’s and the low will be tonight in the high 50’s. That sounds like an ideal day to me.

Today is Women’s Equality Day celebrating the 1920 passage of the Nineteenth Amendment. When I was growing up, I never knew women had once been denied the right to vote. My mother alway had the right to vote but not my grandmothers. I was so impatient waiting for the first time I could vote, and twenty-one just seemed so away. When it finally came, I remember going to the town hall on my birthday to register. My first vote went to Hubert Humphrey for president in 1968. I am proud of having chosen Humphrey. I always vote, even in the smallest town elections. It is a gift, the right to vote, and one I never take lightly.

August is the month of birthdays in my family. My favorite uncle, my niece, my sister and I share the month. It is also the month my mother was born. Every August 13th I wish her a happy birthday and let her know how much she is missed by all of us. This year she would have been 91. My memory drawers are filled with pictures and memories of my mother and me.

Life is really a quilt of moments sewn together without any thought to design, color or shape. The whiff of a familiar smell or the shape of a hand or the color of a shirt brings back a moment and connects us with an experience, never forgotten but seldom recalled. We hear a few notes from a long ago song, and, with a whoosh, the rest of the experience comes roaring into our memories and floods us with all the people and places forever connected to that song, memories we had shelved. The smell of a pie transports me to a small kitchen at 16 Washington Ave and the baking mitt on my mother’s hand. All of a sudden I’m remembering Thanksgiving and Christmas and cinnamon and sugar cookies, all triggered by the memory of my mother wearing that mitt and pulling a shelf from the oven.

“The rhythm of the weekend, with its birth, its planned gaieties, and its announced end, followed the rhythm of life and was a substitute for it.”

August 25, 2018

The morning is again lovely. A breeze is keeping the predicted heat at bay for a while although I can already feel it in the air. The sky has a few clouds so the sun hides for a bit but it always returns.

Saturday has always been the best day. When I was a kid, it meant no school and a day to do whatever I wanted. Any homework was pushed off until Sunday. Even when I was a teacher it was the same. Saturday was my day for me. Sunday was prepare lessons, do chores and go to the dump day. On Saturday I could stay up as late as I wanted. On Sunday it was early to bed to get ready for Monday. It is no wonder Sunday and Monday were not on my list of favorite days.

Ghana was a little bit different. I did use Sunday to prepare lessons for Monday, but that was all I did. My students had a service of sorts on Sunday morning and Sunday afternoon was visiting day. Any student expecting a visitor was dressed in her finest cloth in a three piece outfit which included not only a top and bottom but also a wrap around the waist. This is the same wrap mothers used to carry babies on their backs. Photographers were hired and pictures were taken, always in black and white. Many students gifted me with a picture. They seldom smiled. I always wrote their names on the back. Mostly I stayed home on Sunday unless it was market day. Students without company came to visit. They stayed for only a while. By late afternoon, visiting was over.

Peapod arrived so I had to take a break, but I have just finished putting my groceries away. I indulge myself with no guilt. Thursday the house was cleaned. Yesterday the lawn was mowed. I’d pay for the trash man to come, but I’d have to haul barrels from the back to the front going and coming so I’ll save the effort and the money and keep going to the dump. It was always a fun ride for Miss Gracie and maybe it will be the same some day for Henry.