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“The older I grow, the more I distrust the familiar doctrine that age brings wisdom.”

September 15, 2018

My TV is stuck on a booting screen. It has been that way since ten this morning. I tried everything first then called Comcast. Since then, I have been having a lovely conversation with a technician from the Philippines. While my TV was booting a few times, we discussed the typhoon which hit Luzon, local languages and travel, but after all that time, nothing worked even though he tried everything. He said a technician would be here on Tuesday. Tuesday? I said angrily as I went ballistic. He apologized profusely but that did little to assuage my anger. Even worse was the confirmation e-mail which said, “KATHLEEN, your service appointment is right around the corner.” I am now in the dark ages, the pre-TV dark ages.

Today is a perfectly lovely day. It is sunny and hot, summer hot, but a breeze from the north is keeping the day bearable. It is a deck day. I’m in the middle of a couple of books, and reading is a perfect activity to complement the day.

When I was a kid, we never had homework on the weekends. The big night was Thursday when I had to learn to spell the twenty words on that week’s list. I was a good speller and even got a spelling ribbon when I was in the second grade. I also got a couple of other ribbons: religion was one but I forget the other. It was the only year of ribbons so I was glad for mine.

I have to go out a bit later and have decided to wear my old purple Converse high tops. I am at an age when eccentricity is accepted. I might even mix my plaids.

I used to wonder how it felt to be old. Now I know it feels no different than when I was twenty. The external changes, but the internal stays the same. I do have memory lapses when I can’t find just the right word. When I’m doing crossword puzzles, I doodle on the side of the page until the answer comes to me. Sometimes the doodles get intricate.

I did all my errands yesterday and even added a few stops. I got an ice coffee at Dunkin’ Donuts and treated myself to a Boston cream donut. I deserved the treat.

“I never follow the clock: hours were made for man, not man for hours.”

September 14, 2018

The sun is actually shining. I can even see some blue sky through the trees. It’s a good day to be out and about doing my errands.

Henry woke me up this morning. I could hear him chewing on something. I thought it might be the wooden foot of my bed. It wasn’t. It was my spread. It’s folded so one chewed hole is four chewed holes when you open the spread. The holes, though, are sort of creative. They remind me of Polish paper cutting art.

When I was a kid, I loved fairy tales and myths and folk stories. I wanted them to be real. I figured a world where the little folk would live must be a good one. Then came a time when I didn’t read any of the stories. I grew up past them. But when I was in Africa, The Hobbit was one of the books in my Peace Corps book locker. I devoured the story and wanted to meet a hobbit. I didn’t figure I’d care to know a dragon but a Hobbit sounded fun. I’ve changed my mind about dragons. I’ve read all of Anne McCaffrey and want to fly in-between. The love of myths and fairy tales never disappeared, just got buried for a time. My imagination is alive and well, but it took some nuturing to bring it back to form. I feel lucky for finding it again!

I love the simple pleasures of every day: freshly brewed morning coffee, funny movies and buttered popcorn with just a touch of salt, warm slippers on a winter’s day, an afternoon nap on the couch, a hot shower after a tiring day and brownies, any kind of brownies, as long as they’re chocolate. It doesn’t take much to make me content.

My life moves slowly, and I’m just fine with that. Mostly I get to pick and choose how to spend my time. I tend to save up my errands so I can finish them all in one day. That leaves six more days, a wealth of time.

 

“Give me a laundry list and I’ll set it to music.”

September 13, 2018

The clouds have finally done more than just hang in the sky. The rain started last night. I was reading in bed when I heard the first drops. I stopped reading to listen. When I woke up, the rain was heavier than it had been. I stayed in bed until Henry drove me to get up with his usual exuberant morning greeting. He runs up and down the bed wagging his tail and pushing at me until I pat him. He leaps into the air and spins as he’s leaping. Henry is a morning dog. I am not a morning person.

When I was a kid, we didn’t have a dishwasher or a dryer. My mother washed all the dishes. She hung out the clothes to dry. In winter, when the sheets froze straight out, my mother would lug them into the house and hang them in the cellar to dry. The rest of the year the sheets would dry on the lines. My mother would drape them across the line in the middle. Each side of the sheets almost touched the ground. I remember watching them being blown by the wind. I loved those sheets fresh from outside.

When I have guests, I pile my dishes in the dishwasher. When I am alone, I wash my dishes. Mostly I have just a cup, a glass, one plate and maybe a pan. All my clothes go in the dryer. I do have clotheslines up in the cellar but they date from pre-dryer days. My sheets smell like Bounce.

I have errands which I have decided not to do. Each can wait one more day. I’m tired. I was up early this morning, just before nine. I went upstairs to bed at 10:30 but didn’t turn off the light until after one thirty. I finished one book and got involved in another. I kept doing that one more chapter thing. I did it for an hour.

“What in the world would we do without our libraries?”

September 11, 2018

I am a character in a science fiction novel having to adjust to a wet, sunless world, and I am not adjusting well. It is a cloudy, hot and humid day already in the 70’s. It rained this morning.

A library, any library, is a favorite place. When I was a kid, I walked uptown to the library once a week in the summer and every couple of weeks in the winter. The library always felt cool in the summer even without air conditioning. The chairs and tables were wooden. They were captain’s chairs, the ones with spindles in the back and wooden arm rests. The shelves were up high and down low. The mysteries and science fiction books were on high shelves. It took a while until I was tall enough to reach the top shelves.

The library at my college was new. It had smoking rooms on each floor. Serious students stayed on the bottom floor where it was quiet. My friends and I went to the top most floor and took over tables in the corner. We weren’t quiet. During exam times, I sat at an individual carrel. I spent many afternoons and evenings at that library but seldom for reading, almost always for studying.

In Bolgatanga, the library was also brand new. The architect was J Max Bond Jr who lived in Ghana for a while in the 60’s. The library was designed with an umbrella shaped roof to keep the building well ventilated and cool, a necessity in Bolga. I was a frequent visitor to the library. Books were essential to me. I had so much down time I needed something to fill the void. I coached volley ball and taught adult ed in town, but it wasn’t enough. I had a Peace Corps book locker, but I went through that in a short time. The library was a godsend.

My local library was an old captain’s house. It’s tiny, but I never have difficulty finding books to read. I go every couple of weeks to browse the shelves. I used to buy new books as soon as a favorite author published one, but now I borrow though I haven’t completely given up buying. I sometimes read all day. At night I’ll read until 2 or 3 in the morning. The time passes so quickly I am aways surprised at how late it is.

Right now I am still reading the Patterson/Clinton book and have two more in the wings. Today is a perfect day to read.

In case you were wondering, I did my laundry yesterday.

“If it can’t be reduced, reused, repaired, rebuilt, refurbished, refinished, resold, recycled, or composted, then it should be restricted, designed or removed from production.”

September 10, 2018

Oh no, it’s cloudy. It’s so dark you need the light to read. Rain is predicted. Every now and then the wind blows so strongly even the big branches are tossed.

The windows are closed. The back door is open for Henry, and I can feel a chill when the wind blows through it.

My dance card has been empty for a while. I have a meeting tomorrow at the library but that’s it for the week. I am still hoping for another movie night. The Lady in White, not to be confused with the Collins’ novel The Woman in White, will be the last movie. It’s a good one.

I have a list of projects, a list which has been around a while. I want to catalog the Christmas gifts I’ve bought, organize the cabinet under the sink upstairs, clean the tile grout in the kitchen and go through the big cabinet to check dates on the jars and cans. I suspect after reading the list you can totally understand why it has been around so long.

I don’t collect shoes, but I do seem to have a large number of them. The reason for the large number is partly because I don’t throw any away until they are beyond repair. I used to have several pairs of heels, short heels, which I donated to the Salvation Army when I retired. Most of my shoes are built for comfort. My favorites for winter are the wool clogs which I have in four different colors. In summer, it’s always sandals. I have a new pair of red sneakers, the first shoes I’ve bought in years. I love the bright red.

In Ghana, nothing gets thrown away. It all gets repurposed. My sandals were resoled with pieces of tire. My rice from the market was wrapped in the Sunday New York Times, my meat in banana leaves. Old bottles held palm or groundnut oil. Old cans were good for storing stuff and for scooping water. Paper helped start cooking fires. I learned so much in Ghana about the country, its wonderful people and about myself. Peace Corps volunteers always say we get more than we give. Even learning to repurpose was part of the getting.

“I never knew of a morning in Africa when I woke up that I was not happy.”

September 9, 2018

I slept late, until close to ten. I swear it is because subconsciously I knew the weather was the same as it has been. That I had to snuggle under the warm comforter last night was reason enough to stay in bed, but I dragged myself downstairs, let Henry out, started my coffee, went to get the papers and fed Maddie and Henry. The morning ritual changes little from day to day. The grey clouds change little from day to day. The dampness changes little from day to day. This is my world right now. The only bright spot, figuratively as we haven’t seen the sun in eons, is I have more books to read, more books to take me away from the daily chores and the weather.

Every Sunday I chat with my sister in Colorado. Today she asked me if I had done my laundry yet. I haven’t.

When I lived in Ghana, I never had sloth days. I was always up early and dressed early. Coffee was first then breakfast then teaching. It was a daily pattern just as my days now have a pattern, but every day in Ghana and the pattern of every day was amazing. Roosters often woke me up. I could hear my students sweeping the school compound then I could hear water flowing from the taps into their metal buckets as my students stood in line for their morning bucket baths. I often had my second mug (giant mug) of coffee sitting on the steps in the front of my house. Small children walking to school stopped and greeted me. “Good Morning, Sir.” English was new to them, and they were learning greetings first, the same as I did in French and Spanish. Their teacher was a man. If it was market day, I went into town. I loved market day. It was like a country fair and even more but without the rides. I loved wandering among the tables, among the rows selling everything: fruit, cloth, chickens, eggs, vegetables, juju beads, pots and pans and bruni wa wu (used clothing translated as dead white man’s clothes). Sometimes I found a treasure. Once it was a small watermelon.

“Dogs have important jobs, like barking when the doorbell rings, but cats have no function in a house whatsoever.”

September 8, 2018

Today is yesterday only it’s Saturday. The translation: it is cloudy, damp and chilly just as it was yesterday. It’s supposed to be partly cloudy, but there’s no partly about it. Sun, where are you?

This morning I noticed a vine was taking over a part of my clematis. I changed into my Superwoman outfit, threw the papers on the grass and started pulling. The bees were not happy. They hummed and flew around me. The bees love the clematis, and there are always several on the flowers. I didn’t stop to think about that. I piled the vines on the grass then threw them way. I didn’t get stung but I did get a couple of cuts on my knuckles. My coming away unscathed would have been so contrary to the usual results.

I’m not doing a thing today. I’ll just read and eat bon bons. Okay, I have no bon bons, but I still have some of those Tropical Necco Wafers with the strawberry flavor. I’ll be trying to emulate a Victorian woman on a chaise lounge.

Did I mention the laundry? It is no longer in the hall. It is now at the foot of the cellar stairs the I threw it. That is a new step (sorry about the inadvertent pun) in the laundry process.

My dog and cat are driving me crazy. The dog is jumping on and off the couch. Usually that means he is hungry or needs to go out and wants my encouragement, but not this time. He has already eaten and he went out just a short while ago. The cat is meowing for attention. I kept patting her, but she wanted more so I scratched around her ears. She purred then meowed. I am being held hostage by my dog and cat.

Usually I have two cups of coffee. I’m on my third.

“My childhood smells like a box of Crayola crayons.”

September 7, 2018

We had a thunderstorm yesterday and some heavy rain. Today is cooler than it has been, and it is damp and cloudy. The high today will be only 75˚. Right now it is 73˚ and showers are predicted. Today is a perfect stay at home and read while curled up on the couch day.

When I was a kid, I loved rainstorms. I loved when the drops pelted the windows in my room so heavily I couldn’t see any of the neighbor’s houses. I’d watch the drops slide down the window until they disappeared into the bottom pane. When it thundered, I always thought of Rip Van Winkle and the men in the mountains playing nine-pins which I guessed from the sound of thunder was a sort of bowling, but I used to imagine candlepins instead. Lightning was always awesome to me. I always hoped I’d see the jagged flash of lightning brighten the sky.

I used to like to color. Every year I’d get a new box of Crayola crayons at the beginning of school and in my Christmas stocking. My mother and I would sit at the kitchen table and color together. She was amazing. Her colors were nuanced. Mine, in comparison, were  straight from the crayon, and I wasn’t all that imaginative. The sky was always blue, the grass always green. Flowers were mostly red and yellow. Hair was brown. I did mix up house colors, but shutters were always black, the chimney brick red. The only thing my mother and I shared was we both colored inside the lines.

My mother and I used to read outloud in a contest to see who could read the furthest without making a mistake. We used to read from the books she got each week at the grocery store. They were hard cover books and each book had three abridged classics. I didn’t realize at the time they were shortened versions, but that didn’t matter much. I was thrilled by them, and those books introduced me to stories like A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur’s Court and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, books I probably would never have found on my own at the library. I remember my mother and I would lie on the living room rug and take turns reading. Hoping I’d catch a mistake, my eyes would follow along with the words as my mother read them. She seldom made a mistake, and she would read for the longest time, but eventually she’d make a mistake, and it would be my turn. Much later, I realized my mother made those mistakes on purpose or I’d never get a turn.

“Let us read, and let us dance; these two amusements will never do any harm to the world.”

September 6, 2018

When I was getting my papers this morning, it was hot out and my back hurt. Down the street was noisy from trucks moving and carpenters working on an addition to my neighbor’s house. That noise had been loud enough to wake me up a bit earlier, but somehow none of that mattered. There I was, standing with my back leaning on the car as I checked the garden, the same thing I do every morning, but this morning was different. All of a sudden I realized I was content. It was odd the way that feeling sort of crept into my consciousness.

Henry has taken a huge step forward. He let me cut his nails yesterday. Granted, I had cut off all his escape routes, but he could have made the whole process difficult, but he didn’t. He just sat there quietly resigned to his fate.

I have been eating Tropical Necco Wafers lately. I suppose I should put them under glass as they are no longer being made, but I really do enjoy the flavors though I do have one complaint. Strawberries are not a tropical fruit. The coconut and banana are my favorite flavors but that’s no surprise.

We may have thunderstorms today. We will have heat and humidity with a high of 85˚. Right now it is sunny but that comes and goes. Given my druthers, I’d go for the thunderstorms.

When I was a kid, I lost interest in dolls early on. The only exception was the doll with the elastics on her feet I got for Christmas one year. She was tall for a doll and had floppy arms and legs. She wore a skirt and blouse. One round elastic was on each foot. When I slipped my shoes into the elastics, we could dance. I held her arms as we danced. I always led.

The first few days of school each year were exciting. I usually knew which teacher I’d have as we alternated year to year between non-nun and nun. On the first day of school what I looked forward to was seeing my friends and classmates. Each grade had two classes, and there were always over 40 of us in each class. I always hoped my friends would be in the classroom with me. Some of them usually were given the large number of us.

My dance card is empty today.

“Be persistent like a mosquito, at the end you will get your bite”

September 4, 2018

I am already behind closed doors and shut windows as the heat and humidity are still here. It was cool enough last night that the AC was off, but it is back on now and blowing its little heart out.

I had a surprise this morning. My mouse trap had an occupant. Even before my coffee, I took the trap, left the house and drove about a mile before I freed the wee creature. It was small and brown. When I swept the kitchen floor the other day, yup I do occasionally sweep, I saw mouse poop so I set the trap. Later, I’ll reset the trap by adding more peanut butter.

When I was a kid, my father hunted bugs in the house, especially mosquitos. He’d arm himself with a rolled up newspaper and go from room to room. I remember being awakened by my father walking on my bed while he swatted mosquitos on the ceiling. The rooms in our house had blots of dead bugs on all the ceilings. My father was a mighty hunter.

I remember mosquitos buzzing my ear. I’d brush them away with my hand but the mosquitos always came back. In Ghana, my language instructor Lawal told us why the mosquito buzzes ears. It seems mosquito fell in love with ear and proposed. Ear thought the proposal quite funny and said no. Mosquito, undaunted by ear’s refusal, buzzes ear every night to say he is still around, waiting for a yes.

Today is dump day. Henry doesn’t yet know the joy of riding in a car so no dump for him. Poor Henry has no idea what he’s missing. All my girls loved the dump.

I have a few chores for today. I need to change my bed and do a wash even though I swear I just did a wash the other day. I remember the filled pillow case lying against the cellar door for a few days before I got tired of seeing it and finally took it downstairs. This load,though, is still upstairs, the first stop on its way to the washing machine.

Today the school buses rolled. One even went down my street. That’s about as close I ever again want to get to a school bus again.