Archive for the ‘Musings’ category

“This man used to go to school with his dog. Then they were separated. His dog graduated!”

February 28, 2011

Wow, another day of rain and another wind advisory. Luckily it is fairly warm at 44° or I’d be moaning about snow. I took a leisurely morning. The laundry got as far as down here by the cellar door but hasn’t yet made it to the washer. I’ll put it on the list. Something about not liking Mondays has stayed in my psyche even though I no longer work.

All of my animals are sleeping. They seem to be afflicted with the same lack of ambition I have. A succession of rainy days has sapped my energy. I miss the sun. It isn’t warm this time of year, but it is bright. It lightens my mood. The gray skies, the waving branches and the rain are fine for a day or two but I’ve had enough. Poor Noah must have needed anti-depressants.

After my daily weather report, I found myself glumly staring out the window hoping for an inspiration. Nary a one popped into my head until I remembered being in the fourth grade staring out the window at the rain which then led me to remember being in the eighth grade where I also had a seat by the window. My eighth grade nun was so old she nodded off once in a while and noticed little that was going on in the class. My classmates and I took full advantage. What kids wouldn’t? Beside my desk was a bookcase below the window casing. I used to hide my transistor radio there, plug in the ear piece and listen to music. Once I got called on and had no idea what I was being asked. The nun caught me taking out the earpiece, decided I was deaf and spoke loudly when she repeated the question. That shelf was also where I kept snacks for eating during the day. Some days I’d leave for lunch with a friend and come back an hour or two late and tell her I was at the library or the rectory and she’d smile and tell me to be seated. She never noticed I always brought my lunch. Other days I’d leave early telling her I had an appointment or had to do school work at the town library. She’d let me go. She used to eat candy bars she’d hidden in her drawer. Her hand would cover her mouth for a bit, and after she’d removed it, the chewing started. Once she spit nuts on a paper I was showing her. She taught every subject to us, but the best class was music. She had a round metal pitch pipe and would blow it to give us the key then she’d start off singing. She had the worst voice which trembled when she sang. We all joined right with an exuberance bordering on laughter, but we were careful not to laugh right at her or have her see us. She knew anyway and used to say, “When you graduate, I’m going to write on the board in the largest letters, Thank God they are gone.” She said we were the devil’s spawn. Some days I think she was right.

“Miles and miles of nothing but miles and miles”

February 27, 2011

Today is ditto the weather of the last few days: cold and damp with a dusting of snow.  February is just not a pleasant month, and I’ll be glad to see it leave tomorrow. March gives me a little hope. It makes me think warmer weather is on its way. I’m probably delusional.

I do think the cold is easier to deal with than the heat. I can put on heavier socks, matching or not, a sweatshirt, turn the thermostat up just a bit and snuggle in a afghan. In the heat of the summer, I curse while trying to find the slightest breeze on the deck. I do turn on my bedroom air conditioner and make that room summer central, but I miss the TV, access to the fridge, cold drinks and a comfy chair. A couple of times I went to the movies to sit in air-conditioned comfort to eat my Sno-caps. Last summer was so brutally hot I finally took the step of adding central air. It must be an age thing. The heat seldom bothered me as much as it does now. I think it made me crotchety.

When I was in Morocco, the weather was perfect for walking around: in the 50’s most days. The Moroccans wore heavy sweaters and even winter coats. In Ghana, during the harmattan, the nights were chilly but only in comparison to the heat of every day. My students wore sweaters and hats. I think it was in the 70’s. Everything is relative.

I have become addicted to An Idiot Abroad on the Science Channel. Karl Pilkington gets sent around the world to see the seven wonders. The gimmick is it’s Ricky Gervaise doing the sending, and he sends Karl on the most circuitous routes to each wonder and each route is meant to make Karl uncomfortable in some way. Karl gives us his observations, and I laugh right out loud. He does not want to travel the world, and he is generally miserable. He sits on his camel and complains about squashed testicles. In China he says it’s not a Great Wall but an all right wall and he rides miles and miles across the desert to get to Petra all the while complaining about the sand and the camel. On the way he stays with Bedouins and has sheep’s head for dinner. I can’t tell you what’s so funny. You just have to watch. Karl is miserable, and I never tire of hearing his observations which are actually pretty honest. He is no ugly Brit abroad. Last night he went to Brazil, and I have yet to watch it. I can hardly wait.

“Both of your socks should always be the same color, Or they should at least both be fairly dark”

February 26, 2011

After the rain stopped last night, the temperature dropped just enough to give us a dusting of snow which is melting now. It’s only 34°, but the wind is gone and the sun is shining. Yesterday, the wind gusts reached as high as 50 MPH but felled none of my pine trees.

Not much going on today. I need to fill the bird feeders and do a wash, and I have the new Patricia Cornwell so that’s a possibility. Yup, lounging and reading are just perfect for the day.

I have lost my muse again and just can’t access the back memory drawers. The only things that came to mind were socks with lace at the top. No, I don’t wear them anymore, but I did at one time, when I was very young. Right now I have two socks with no partners. They took the same route as all the other socks so I have no idea what happened. I think they may be hidden in the corners of some tight fitting bottom sheets. That’s happened before. Speaking of fitted bottom sheets, I just never fold mine well with or without a hidden sock. I try corner to corner and end up with a mess which I hide on the bottom of the sheets in the linen closet. I went looking on youtube for some help and found a great way to fold one if I have lots of time. It had to do with inverting cornets, folding them and then smoothing the creases, but I figure life is too short to spend so much time on a sheet so I’m stuck with blobs which might be hiding socks. They’ll reappear at some time. I’m not worried. Speaking of socks, I hate to throw any away. Many of mine have holes. My friend Clare and my sister Moe have been giving me socks for Christmas, but I just add them to the sock pile. When I have to fold over the tops of the sock to keep the toes inside, I break down and toss the pair or I add them to the dust rags. Socks make great dust bags, even better than the cuffs of my sweatshirts.

Okay, I’m done. If I keep going, I’ll fill page after page and I have that wash waiting.

“I must complain the cards are ill shuffled till I have a good hand.”

February 25, 2011

Around three this morning the rain started and it’s still pouring. A strong wind is blowing even the thickest branches in the backyard, and I bet several will fall. Scrub pine is fragile. The house is dark but not quiet. I can hear the wind, the rain hitting the windows and a constant dripping from the roof. The animals are asleep. When I finish here, I have to venture out for a few groceries, but that’s all I have to do today. I’m thinking I’ll come home, get out of my wet clothes into cozies and read.

Last night was trivia, and my strangest contribution was knowing the name of the Keebler elf. I look forward to the Thursday trivia. It’s dinner out, a night with friends and the fun of wracking my brain for answers hidden in some drawer way in the back. We like to win, but last night we struggled on one round which had us way in the back of the pack, sixth going into the final question, but we rallied and ended up third.

We have been a game playing family for as long as I can remember. From the time I was little, we’d sit around the kitchen table and play. Early on my parents taught my brother and me whist so they could always have ready partners. My dad taught us card games like fan tan, cribbage and casino, and we played games like dominoes, Kismet, Uno or Skat. When we played Uno, my father never remembered to say Uno when he had one card left. One game he was so frustrated by having to pick up cards he took his book of matches, placed it in the middle of the table and said that was his Uno, and he didn’t ever have to say it. It got no approval as we all took some joy in yelling, “You didn’t say Uno!”

Everywhere we traveled, my dad and I played cribbage. On one trip to Ireland, we realized we had left the board at home so we went shopping and found one at a store in Dublin. It became our official traveling board. Later on, for whatever the reason, the wooden board warped and two corners were always in the air, but we didn’t care. It was a memory in itself, and we took it everywhere. My mother often took pictures of the two of us playing. I especially remember a picture taken in Germany. We were in Garmisch. We were on the bed, my dad and I, each to our side with the board in the middle. We posed as my mother took the picture. She then got comfy and read while we played. My father and I made fun of each other and baited each other as we played game after game. My mother ignored us. She was a smart woman.

“The afternoon passed more slowly than a walnut-sized kidney stone.”

February 24, 2011

Cold is the word of the day and it’s going to be the word of the week. In my mind February is always grouped with December and January and is still winter while March is nearly spring, not yet spring but nearly spring. Baseball fills the sports’ pages, the bulbs are poking their heads out of the ground and the garden stores have seeds and starter boxes. We just can’t plant outside. For that, we have to wait until it’s really spring.

Today is a full day. This morning I have to attend the funeral for my friend’s stepfather; this afternoon Gracie has a well dog visit, and tonight is trivia. Somewhere in there I have to fit in a trip to the dump. Yesterday I had nothing to do; today is filled. It’s weird how my days seem to work out that way.

When I was a kid, I’d sometimes get bored, especially during the summer. I’d tire of the pool, my bike and even the library. I’d whine to my mother there was nothing to do, and she’d make suggestions, all of which irrefutably proved to me that parents had never been children.

When I got older, around high school age, there never seemed to be enough time to be bored. I left for school at 6:45 and was seldom home before 4:45. I’d do my homework, have dinner, watch a TV show or two and then head to bed. Most of the week I was so tired, I could barely drag myself to the weekends. College was different. Carrying five courses each semester seemed like a walk in the park compared to high school. I seldom had more than three classes a day, and then all the rest of the day was mine. I loved college.

Before I retired, I was up every day at 5 or no later than 5:15. I was at work by 6:30 and seldom home before 4. Many nights I had meetings so I hurried home to take care of the dog, grab a bite then go right back out. I prayed for boredom.

It’s funny now. I have plenty of time on my hands, and I am never bored. I read, take a ride, play on the computer or even nap. Sometimes I stand by the window and watch the birds at the feeders. I seem to fill even the emptiest of days.

Winter is the season in which people try to keep the house as warm as it was in the summer, when they complained about the heat.

February 22, 2011

The day has been a busy one with me running all over getting blood tests done in two places and a tire checked and filled. The errands meant going across from one side of the cape to the other. The worst  of it all was no morning coffee. Blood letting I don’t mind but missing my morning coffee makes me grumpy.

The cold just doesn’t seem to want to leave. It’s 27° now and last night was in the single digits, but I didn’t care. I was inside, warm and cozy. Gracie made a pit stop on the run last night before bed. She wasn’t enjoying the cold.

When I was a kid, on the coldest mornings, frost gathered inside on the bottom window panes. To me, the frost always looked like mountain ranges spread across the pane with the summits all different heights. I used to take my fingernail and draw or write on the windows. I never remember being cold, but I suspect the house was not well insulated. Radiators were the source of the heat. The one in my room was on the floor at the foot of the bed. I remember my father fiddling with the silver control on the left side of the radiator. On really cold days, when I got home from school, I’d lean against the hot radiator to get warm. After playing in the snow, we used to put our wet mittens on the top of the radiator so they would dry faster. I loved the sounds of the radiator: the hissing of the steam and the banging of the pipes.

I know my house is warmer and there is never any frost, but I miss that old radiator. It is one more thing gone.

“Guard against the impostures of pretended patriotism.”

February 21, 2011

The snow is gently falling in tiny flakes. It’s leaving a coating on the lawns but not the roads. I think it’s pretty. Today is cold but without a wind it seems warmer. Finches have taken over my feeders. Most are goldfinches, but I did see a house finch. A nuthatch flew in quickly, grabbed a seed and settled on a branch to enjoy it. I haven’t seen a chickadee in a while. They used to be my most frequent visitors, and I miss them. The suet feeder is empty. I’ll have to brave the elements later and fill it. I have a couple of woodpeckers who drop by all the time to dine at that feeder.

Today is called Presidents’ Day. It didn’t exist when I was young. We observed Washington’s birthday, February 22nd, as a holiday and always had it off from school because it usually fell during our February vacation. Lincoln’s birthday was February 12th, and we had that off from school too. Later, the powers that be tinkered with the birthdays and decided a Monday holiday combining both was the best idea so today unofficially celebrates Lincoln and Washington. There is no official federal holiday called Presidents’ Day. The federal government celebrates today as Washington’s Birthday and that’s it, nothing else. The other presidents were tossed by the wayside.

I’m okay with recognizing Washington. He was, after all, the first president, and there are some great myths associated with him like his wooden teeth and the chopping of the cherry tree. I went looking and found some facts I didn’t know about Washington. He was the only Founding Father to free his slaves; he is credited with introducing the mule to America; his second inaugural address was the shortest ever given, and he grew marijuana on his farm, never smoked it though, didn’t even inhale. He used it for hemp.

I figure lots of presidents belong by the wayside and ought not to be celebrated so, like the federal government, I’m sticking with Washington.

“I never travel without my diary. One should always have something sensational to read in the train.”

February 19, 2011

Spring has returned to wherever it goes during winter. The wind is wild and cold. Outside my widow the world looks most uninviting. Earlier, I went to my local Border’s as their closing sale began today. I hate losing it.

Paper will soon be obsolete. Bookstores are closing. When was the last time any of us wrote a letter on real paper? How about a diary? I remember writing in my diary. I wrote longingly about the boy who was my latest crush and I wrote sad descriptions of my latest teen angst, the sort that made my world fall apart. The key was always carefully hidden to keep the diary from prying eyes. When I traveled, I kept a journal, still do. Every night I write of the sights and the sounds and draw easily from my memories of the day. I have some aerogrames I wrote to my parents from Africa. They are filled with descriptions of my life in Ghana, and when I read them, I am pulled back to those days through my own words. There is something so personal about holding those letters as I read them.

The computer has made it so easy to write and to publish, sort of. I know this blog has become my diary, and I share with all of you. I write almost every day about all sorts of things, but the most personal parts of my life aren’t here. I hold them close to my heart. They are the feelings that filled my diary, the one with the key.

“I like boring things.”

February 18, 2011

It’s another spring-like day. The temperature will reach 50° or even higher. Having two days in a row of such warm weather almost makes me giddy, but I know it’s still winter and it could snow next week. I’m guessing these last two days were just Mother Nature’s way of saying hang in a little longer spring is on its way.

I’m stuck in my house for a bit. The front steps are being made higher and the concrete has just been laid. I’m having the work done because the top step is nearly a foot lower than the front doorstep, and that’s a long way for older knees to span. Watching the work is a bit of an attraction so Gracie and I wander to the front door periodically to see how much progress is being made. It’s not exactly an exciting day.

I have lived in small towns in Massachusetts my whole life. No one exciting ever came to my town when I was little, but I did meet one of my TV heroes. It was on July 4th when I met Big Brother Bob Emery. We, what seemed like a million kids and I, were in a bandstand crowded around him. I was right behind him at first, and I remember a bug was on his neck. The bug was green. Bob Emery was the host of The Big Brother show on one of our local channels. Kids were small fry to him. His opening song was The Grass is Always Greener in the Other Fellow’s Yard and he accompanied himself on a ukulele. I never understood that song when I was little. He lost me around the line, “Little rows we have to hoe.” My strongest memory is running to the kitchen every day to get my glass of milk because in the middle of the show we raised our milk glasses and toasted President Eisenhower while Hail to the Chief played. The President’s picture was on Big Brother’s wall. I don’t remember the end song and I don’t remember anything about the program itself but I can still sing The Grass Is Always Greener in the Other Fellow’s Yard, and now I understand.

“When gardeners garden, it is not just plants that grow, but the gardeners themselves.”

February 17, 2011

The weather is amazing today. Even though the sun is in and out, it is still in the high 40’s and will even reach the 50’s, almost spring weather. I have a few errands after this, and I can’t wait to open the windows to smell the fresh air.

Yesterday I saw my surgeon who figured out why my right leg still hurts. It seems that whatever he put between the screws has moved and is lying on a nerve and that is causing all the pain. The only solution is to fix it through surgery. He also figured he’d add screws to the corresponding bone on the other side. They then should reinforce each other. I knew he didn’t use Gorilla Glue.

My garden shoots are even higher. I keep a daily watch. None of the garden centers are open yet, but that will come soon enough. This year I’m adding a small vegetable garden in the back yard. I’ll start some in the house and then transplant them. No zucchini! It is like a monster from outer space which can replicate itself to take over the planet.

I don’t remember squash when I was a kid. I think my mother decided not to try it on us as she had enough trouble getting us to eat carrots. She used to mix them with the mashed potatoes. We never asked. We just thought mashed potatoes were multicolored. I always like peas so they were served even though my brother hated them. I don’t remember any other vegetables served when we were young. I guess my mother picked her battles.

I’m always proud when stuff grows in my garden because I’m not a gardener. I buy flowers by color, and every year the perennials come right back all on their own without any help from me. My herb garden flourishes, and I love snipping what I need to make a dish using herbs from my own garden. I have high hopes for the vegetable garden. I’m way past mixing my carrots and potatoes.