“It’s not always easy to distinguish between existentialism and a bad mood.”

The rain came yesterday in the mid-afternoon and stayed all night. It was sometimes so heavy it pelted the roof loudly enough to drown out the TV. Boston and further north had snow, a wet, heavy snow, the sort which looks beautiful for a minute then you notice how laden down the trees and branches are, and you hope they survive. Some wires fell from the weight of the snow and even blocked major roads. Here the sun has been trying to come out of the clouds. Twice now the sky has brightened. I get hopeful. I need sun to dispel my dark mood, a mirror of the rain and the clouds.

My Travelocity gnome and my pink, plastic flamingo are in the den. They winter here. In the warm months they live on my deck. It is a special occasion when they travel from winter to summer, from the den to the deck. I always think there should be a parade and music. They are announcing summer is finally here, a cause for celebration, for good food, and for warm days lolling on the deck. Right now, though, all of that seems a sweet memory.

From when I was kid, I remember winter most of all. My school was an old one with high windows and drafts of cold air so for most of the winter we all wore sweaters. I remember walking across the field below my street, a sort of shortcut home, and having to walk backwards because of the wind. My cheeks turned red and numb. The wind blew up the sleeves of my coat. My ears always hurt even when I was wearing a hat as it mostly just covered my head so I’d put my mittened hands over my ears trying to warm them just a bit. Mostly I failed. By the time I’d get home, I was freezing. Right away I’d take off my school clothes and get into my pajamas and slippers. I’d wrap myself in my blanket. In a short while, I was warm and all the parts of my body had come back to life.

I have no energy today, and I don’t care. It is the weather which is causing this foul mood.   A bit of sun is all I need.

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10 Comments on ““It’s not always easy to distinguish between existentialism and a bad mood.””

  1. olof1 Says:

    We got snow again and it is so depressing! Even the fire in my stove is depressed, it really tries to burn nicely but it just has no energy. I think both it and I will give up trying to make something of it soon 🙂 🙂

    The predictions have changed from foggy on Saturday to foggy morning and sun later. I don’t believe them so I won’t be too depressed when they are wrong again as they always seems to be 🙂 🙂 I do understand bears who hibernate this time of year 🙂 🙂

    Have a great day!

    Christer.

    • katry Says:

      Christer,
      I know that feeling of yours. Mine starts as soon as I look out the window when I wake up. There is never sun.

      The predictions were right on for me, but Boston and north of Boston got more snow than expected. Better them than me!!

      Maybe we’ll both get sun tomorrow. There is still hope.

      Have a great evening!

  2. Hedley Says:

    Kat, im6 is aggravating me.

    He sent me a link to the jingles for the Pirate Radios and I have wasted way too much time listening to “Wonderful Radio London” . Now of course I have not done my KTCC homework

    As I told im6, back in the day you were either Radio London or Radio Caroline but that did not exclude you from either. Somewhere out in the North Sea the little ships bobbed around and filled our transistor radios with the music the BBC refused to play.

    Snow is in the air, the clocks are going forward and as usual im6 is aggravating me.

    • katry Says:

      My Dear Hedley,
      Your lack of restraint is not to be blamed on poor im6. Here he is being kind enough to send you a piece of your musical history. KTCC can wait!!

      No snow in the air here. We were spared any snow. That is only fair as we took the brunt of the last nor’easter.

      It just seems so early to jump ahead.

  3. Birgit Says:

    Weather Bingo today, 3 hours left:
    Rain – yes.
    Sun – yes.
    Hail – yes.
    Wind gusts – yes.
    Thunderbolt – yes, one.
    Snow ? – still waiting…
    (Christer, please send snow southwards!)

    • katry Says:

      Birgit,
      If there were an award for the weirdest weather in a day, you would surely be standing on the stage thanking Mother Nature.

      Don’t wish for something you’ll regret.

  4. Bob Says:

    This latest nor’easter is kicking the rear end of the East Coast one last time before Spring arrives. You are lucky that the Cape has escaped the huge wet snowfall. It’s these kind of storms that increase property values all across the sunbelt.

    Places like Florida and Arizona are filled with snowbirds this time of year. South Florida has so many northern transplants that it’s the only place where one must drive North to get to the South. 🙂 The entire gulf coast of the Florida pan handle is affectionately called the Red Neck Riviera. 🙂

    Today was sunny again but cooler with a high in the mid sixties. Tomorrow we should hit a high of 70.

    • katry Says:

      Bob,
      We, on the shore, got the brunt of the first nor’easter. The wind and the tide destroyed houses and beaches. The ocean jumped barriers and flooded roads. Trees fell and so did electrical wires. The wind gusts were as high as the 80’s at a few points. The second storm pounded us with rain but no snow!!

      I only know two people who go to Florida in the winter. The rest of us must be hearty souls.

      I didn’t even go out today and have no idea of the weather.

      • Bob Says:

        Either hearty souls or damn fools. “Only mad dogs and Englishman go out in the noon day sun”. 🙂

      • katry Says:

        Bob,
        The school had a siesta time in the afternoon. Even the post office was closed for a couple of hours. The heat lasted all day, and you couldn’t ‘avoid it.


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