The crowds are frenzied, running amok in all directions. A few people who fell are being trampled. “What is it? What is it?” The round bright disc in the sky emits light. It travels slowly. Finally, the people are reassured and told not to be afraid. It is the sun, gone so long it had been forgotten.

Today is cold, so very cold. I have no reason to go out, and I am glad. As for the collar, it is still missing despite my having looked so many times. The offshoot of all that looking was cleaning, the last thing I expected or wanted. I have vacuumed, dusted, quick washed the kitchen and bathroom floors and culled and rearranged the den. I did not water the plants or do the laundry.

When I was a kid, winter was my least favorite season as there wasn’t all that much to do. Most times it was too cold and dark to play outside after school. Just about every Saturday afternoon we went to the movie theater. I remember a cartoon was always first, and I saw The Wizard of Oz there even though it was an old movie. I was amazed when the movie turned to color after Dorothy got to Oz. If the weather had gotten cold enough, we ice skated. I sometimes took the bus to the rink in Medford, the next town over. Other times I skated on the swamp or the rink put up in Recreation Park by the town. We sledded down the hill right by my house. When we were older, high school age, we tobogganed, usually at the golf course. We sometimes bowled on Friday or Saturday nights. Here in Massachusetts we only had candlepin bowling, the type which has small balls and three shots to a frame. I was a really bad bowler. I threw a lot of alley balls. My father had been a pin boy at the same alley where we bowled. I always liked that alley with the smell of wood and the noise from the pinsetter. More often than not we didn’t have money so we’d spend Saturday nights together at one house or another. Our friend Tommy’s house was our favorite as his mother always made pizza for us. My house was the second best.

I never thought life was boring when I was growing up even if we did nothing but spend time together. That’s still the way I feel.

I think I’m losing it. Henry has a tiny tick size lump on him. I keep trying to remove it, and he keeps trying to get away. Yesterday, I grabbed his collar in desperation and he yanked his head right out of it. Henry avoided me for hours so last night I didn’t try to put his collar on so he could settle down a bit. I put the collar down, and that’s when the mystery begins. I have no idea where that collar is. I have checked every room over and over, and I’ll check again today. I need to solve the case of the missing collar.

Today is another drab, cold day. It is winter personified. The only chores on my list are to water the plants and do the laundry already sitting in the washing machine, but given the history of laundry and me, I’m expecting that laundry to sit for days, for it to be forgotten because no bag is leaning on the cellar door to remind me and make me feel a bit guilty. Okay, I admit it takes days of guilt building to a crescendo before I drag myself downstairs to the washing machine. I have no idea why I put off the laundry.

I am not a fashion icon, never have been and never espoused to be one. I judge clothes by their comfort, not their looks. I hate having to get dressed up for anything. When I lived in Ghana, women had to wear dresses. I brought some with me, but mostly I had dresses made by the seamstress using Ghanaian cloth. When I first started teaching, women wore dresses or skirts and blouses then accepted fashion changed to allow pant suits then just pants. I was thrilled but then I became an administrator. I was back to wearing dresses.

I seldom wear a dress. It was Easter when I last wore one. We went out to dinner to a restaurant I think demands fancy by its very nature. To me, wearing a dress on Easter is a fashion hold over from when I was growing up. New Easter clothes back then were always a bit fancy and always dressy.

In my closet are two dresses. The rest of the closet is filled with pants, shirts or blouses and sweaters. For me now, black pants and a coordinating top are dressy enough for just about every occasion except Easter.

Today is wintry cold and damp. It has started to spit rain as my mother would say. The sky is a light grey but will darken as rain is predicted for the afternoon. It is another day to stay close to hearth and home.

When I was a kid, this week after New Year’s meant going back to school. We were usually ready. Everything gets boring after a while.

All of Christmas has disappeared. The tree is on the front lawn. Bins are stacked in the cellar in the Christmas corner, big bins to small bins. The outside lights are down except for the star and its trail, a single strand of white lights. Skip, my factotum, and his friend Bob already knew what needed to be done. They even swept the needles and took the trash and the tree. My house is bare.

My dance card is totally empty for January. It will be a bleak month. I have a few appointments but they don’t count.

Gnats have been around. When they land on my computer screen, I squash them; however, I fear vengeance is afoot. A few gnats are dive bombing me.

Television needs to ban the use of fake cups of coffee. The cups make a hollow sound when placed on a table. The actors pretend to drink the fake hot coffee even to the point of swallowing. I’d have burned my lips. The powers that be might as well ban food on TV next. I watched an actor take the tiniest bite out of ice cream. The bite didn’t even mar the surface, but that actor chewed for the longest time then took another bite which wasn’t a bite. My last complaint for today is cold weather on TV. Hallmark is the worst offender of fake cold weather. When the characters talk, there is no cloud of cold in what must be warm air. All the snow is fake, even looks fake. I pity the actors in coats, hats and mittens.

It is pass lunch time. I’ve only had coffee all day so I’m hungry. Peapod came yesterday so the larder is full. I wonder what I’ll have. It is so good to have choices.

If only seen through the window, today is the definition of a lovely winter’s day. It has squint your eyes sun, only a bit of wind, and a blue sky, but it’s cold, downright cold at 27˚, the high for the day. I gasped a bit when I went to get the papers.

My house is a mess. Boxes filled with Christmas are stacked in the kitchen. The living room has pine needles all over the floor. Henry hair is in clumps up and down the hall. Both trees, real and fake, are covered by giant plastic bags. The once lovely Christmas tree needs to go outside while the ugly pine is cellar bound. I exhausted myself yesterday bringing up boxes and filling them. The couch still has all the ornaments on it. I need a couple of boxes more bought up, filled and then stacked before I vacuum. I’m missing the box with all the lights. It is somewhere in the pile of boxes still in the cellar. I’ll hunt later.

I woke up in the afternoon. I went to bed around 2:30 and then read a bit. I was exhausted from lugging boxes from the cellar and putting stuff away but found I couldn’t get to sleep. Finally, the words on the pages started to jumble so I put the book down. I fell asleep in a minute.

When I worked, I was up by 5:15 at the latest. On weekends, I slept until 8, late for me. When I travel, I am in bed early and up early. On my last trip to Ghana, I was awake by 6. That was the last time I saw 6. Now I am up mostly until the wee hours. Sleep is a bit elusive, but it doesn’t matter. I can now sleep through the morning and get a good night, loosely used here, sleep.

Kerchiefs are gone despite their handiness. They are stuffable into pockets which made them easy to carry. Wearing a kerchief to church made it a hat. Using one to cover curlers or bobby pins allowed for leaving the house. Rolling one up made it a bandana to be worn around the head or neck, more decorative than useful. They were rain hats and sweat absorbers. They were accessories. Their disappearance left a hole now filled by a variety of fashion accents. The scarf is really a fancy kerchief as is an ascot. In the movies cowboys wore bandannas knotted around their necks. The pashmina is a long kerchief now quite fashionable. Regardless, a kerchief despite any other name is still a kerchief.

The morning is warmer than I expected. The sky is overcast with light grey clouds. Here we are in January and it is 45˚, still sweatshirt weather.

It is time to finish Christmas. The living room decorations and the trees are the only signs of Christmas left. I was waiting for Little Christmas before I tackled the trees. I have a plan, a deconstructing Christmas plan. I’m going to bring up the bins, fill them and then pile them in the dining room for Skip to take down to the cellar. I’m going to cover the little pine tree and have it ready for the cellar. The real tree I’ll cover for Skip to take outside. My house, once Christmas is gone, always looks empty and dark.

When I was a kid, my mother took off all the tree lights and ornaments when we were in school. The tree was there in the morning and gone by the afternoon.

I still have an old time Sunday state of mind. When I was a kid, nothing was open on Sunday except the red store, known only by color, not by name. It had piles of Sunday papers on the sidewalk in front overseen by a kid collecting money. My father for some reason never had the Sunday paper delivered even though the rest of the week was so he’d stop and buy one. We got dressed up for church and wore our Sunday clothes which meant a dress or skirt for me and a hat or a mantilla or a piece of Kleenex if I had nothing else. We had a family dinner Sunday afternoon except in the summer. The dinner was always special and never any form of hamburger, a common meal the rest of the week. We had mashed potatoes and a few canned vegetables. TV families had bread on the table, not special bread but just ordinary pieces of white bread. We never did. I don’t remember napkins. I think we bought our plates to the counter by the sink. My mother did the dishes. She’d wash them and they’d dry in the rack. We’d stay around the rest of the day and watch TV, read or play in the cellar. Sunday was a quiet day, the only one.

Today is an ugly day, dark and rainy. I am staying close to home today. Maybe I’ll do some laundry. The laundry bag aka pillow slip has been sitting in the hall so long it has grown legs.

When I was a kid, my father thought sending me to my room was the worst punishment. I always thought of it as a reward. I could shut the door and block out the noise from the rest of the house. I’d get in my comfy clothes, lie in bed and read. I could stay there for hours. Inevitably my father would come to my room to see if I was repentant. I always wanted to say no so I could continue my exile, but that was a risky choice so I said yes though I wasn’t all that repentant. I had played my father, a skill I learned early in life. He never caught on.

Winter was always my least favorite season when I was a kid. Take away Christmas, ice skating and sledding and nothing much was left. When I walked to and from school every day, it was always some degree of cold. My mother bundled us every morning as if we were crossing the ice to the North Pole. I liked being warm, but I hated the amount of time it took to unbundle once I was in the cloak room. There were never enough hooks in the cloak room for all of us to hang our coats. I just pushed mine between two other coats, and it stayed there, off the floor.

I can’t imagine life without a dog or cat or both. Having a pet is a love affair. I grew up with a dog and much later we added a cat. In Ghana I had a cat who came home with me. My roommate had a dog so I didn’t get a dog of my own until I moved into my house. I’ve always had two cats and a dog until this year. I lost Fern first. Gracie was next then Maddie. Gracie was the most painful loss. She was my constant companion and came everywhere with me. Her death left a hole. Henry is filling that hole every time he wags his tail when he sees me.

My friends Tony and Clare loss their dog this morning, their Darci Rose. She was funny, affectionate and sweet. I cried for Tony and Clare and for Darci Rose.

The sun has disappeared behind clouds, but no rain is predicted. I’m thinking a grumpy Mother Nature is just spewing the sky with clouds. Today is warmish, in the mid 40’s with no breeze.

I have nothing whatsoever scheduled for today. It’s a grand feeling. It means I have another day all to myself. That may seem greedy as I now have many days like today, but for most of my life my days were scheduled with school, work, chores or errands, and I’d like to even the score.

In many ways I am obsolete. The words and phrases of my youth have disappeared. When was the last time anyone ever asked for a church key? I remember calling dibs for a window seat in the car. I wore thongs on my feet. We got blitzed at parties. Couples made out at the drive-in and in the back row of the movie theater. Some couples even went all the way which might have resulted in the family way and the girl going to her aunt’s. Some people were stuck up; others were finks. Life was cool, a gas and groovy.

My mother taught me lots of words. She used the word kibosh, and from her I also learned nosh. In a jiffy is another and so is before you can say Jack Robinson. I always wondered why it was Jack Robinson. I used rob Peter to pay Paul the other day and must have dragged that one from the way back of my memory drawer. I wonder if kids get in hot water anymore.

When I worked, I knew the current slang as kids were in and out of my office all day. I do admit, though, when I first heard the word ho, I thought of a garden and couldn’t imagine why two girls would fight over one being called a garden hoe. As I listened to their sides of the story, I learned the meaning from context. I’m so glad I didn’t ask.

The morning has been a strange one. I slept late again. It was mirror under the nose time. Henry woke me up. He was jumping on and off the bed. I knew he wanted out so I dragged myself out of bed. In the hall I found my foot cozies. I had worn them to bed. How Henry got them I haven’t any idea. They were wet.

In the middle of reading the Globe and having my second cup of coffee, my friend Clare called. She and Tony had taken their dog, Darci Rose, to the eye specialist who had operated on Darci’s eye which was now weeping and inflamed. The decision was to remove her eye, but there was a complication. Darci is diabetic and needed an insulin shot before the surgery. The insulin was home. They called me. I got the insulin and syringes, sped to Sagamore and met them. When I say sped, I mean flying low, Star Wars landspeeder low, “No, state trooper, this is not the car you are looking for.” I think I was just a blur to other drivers. I was first to Sagamore, got gas and waited. After the hand-off, I went home far more slowly.

When I was a kid, our dog Duke went to the vets only for shots. One time he was in a ferocious dog fight. The other dog was bigger and heavier, but Duke was scrappy and fierce. After the fight, the other dog limped off. Duke had a horrible bite around his neck. My father said it would be fine. He left Monday morning for Maine where he was working all week. He was only home on weekends. After he left, my mother immediately took Duke to the vet’s who stitched the wound and gave him antibiotics. My father never found out. Duke’s wound was healing when my dad got home on Friday. He said to my mother, “See, I told you it would be fine.” That was one of the best lessons I learned from my mother. Don’t argue. It will get you nowhere. Just do what needs to be done and keep quiet about it.

Mother Nature has welcomed the new year with sun and warmth. The high today will be in the 50’s. Tonight, though, it will drop to the 20’s. Winter keeps reminding us that it holds sway.

Last night was quiet, but I still made it to midnight. I wished Henry a Happy New Year but he was sleeping and cares little about what day it is. Henry is only concerned about breakfast and dinner.

All right, here’s the deal. Somehow I deleted what I’d written, and the automatic save draft saved the sparse new one. I’m not happy!! My muse was tardy this morning so it took me a while to write. I was doing the final proof when Coffee disappeared into the ether.

The only thing I remember is the last paragraph. I mentioned that I’d start taking Christmas down tomorrow, and that I figure it will take a couple of days. I won’t turn the outside lights off until the day after Little Christmas. I figure the Three Kings need lights to guide them.

Happy New Year!!

Today is hazy. The sky is filled with white clouds. The sun is somewhere behind them. It is 40˚, just about the predicted high for the day. Yesterday I put away most of my Christmas presents. I also Swiffered the path Henry takes to the back door. It is always filled with tuffs of Henry hair. I count yesterday as industrious.

When I was a kid, I wanted to stay up until midnight so I could welcome the new year. Mostly I fell asleep before the ball fell. When I finally did make it to midnight, blowing horns and yelling, “Happy New Year!” just didn’t seem all that exciting.

This past year I lost Gracie and Maddie. I still miss those babies, but Henry is filling the void. He is a sweet, loving boy.

I don’t make resolutions. I’ve never kept any so I don’t figure to set myself up for failure so early in the new year. I don’t have any plans for this coming year. My life has settled down comfortably.

If you had asked me when I was twelve to picture myself as an adult, I think I would have come close to me now. Well-traveled would have been an easy one. I knew when I was eleven I’d travel the world. I have snapshots in my mind’s eye of wonders I have seen and amazing adventures I’ve had. I’m standing on the equator just outside Quito with a foot in each hemisphere. It is midnight sun time in Finnish Lapland and reindeer are being herded into a field. A camel is running away with me in the Sahara. I’m looking through a window an Inca looked through in Machu Picchu. I’m traveling through Russia in a train. I’m in a glider. I’m in a hot air balloon. I’m riding a mammy lorry. It’s taking me home to Bolga.

I am happy to welcome a new year. I am always hopeful it will be a better year than the old one. May it be the best year!

Happy New Year!