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“Africa changes you forever, like nowhere on earth. Once you have been there, you will never be the same.”

October 8, 2021

The morning is another pretty one with lots of sun, blue sky and the tiniest of breezes. The house was colder than outside this morning, a sure sign of fall. I put on my sweatshirt. I’m comfortable now.

Nala stole deodorant off my bureau yesterday. I knew she had contraband when she rushed out the dog door and wouldn’t turn around when I called her. I ran out to the deck, but she was already in the yard. I threw my slippers near her. It worked the other day, but not yesterday. Luckily Henry chased her so she dropped her prize. Nothing is sacred.

When I lived in Ghana, I was close to the northern border with Upper Volta, now Burkina Faso. We used to go to Ougadougou, the capital, for the weekend. The day before the trip we’d go to Bolga’s lorry park and arrange for a car heading to Ouga to stop at the school and pick us up on the way. The driver wedged us in so he could carry more people. The road was tarred at first then it became a dirt road, a big dirt road with lorries streaming by. I remember during the rainy season having to get out of the car so it was light enough to pass through the muddiest parts of the road without getting stuck. I thought it was an adventure. I knew when we’d be close to Ouga as the paved road started again.

French is the national language, and I knew enough French to ask questions, to bargain and to order food. Ouga was a small city back then. The market was steps down from the center in the middle of the city. We stayed at a nice hotel with AC about a block from the center. I remember the hotel had an empty pool in the back. I’d walk to get breakfast each morning. Boys on bicycles with huge baskets in front sold baguettes, fresh wonderful baguettes. I’d buy Yucca soda, either green or red. It didn’t matter. They both tasted the same.

One of the joys of Ouga was French food. The only places to eat in Bolga back then were chop bars, little hole in the wall restaurants which offered only fufu or t-zed and soup, traditional dishes. The chop bars bordered the lorry park and had only a rickety table or two. In Ouga, my favorite part of the meal was always the fresh vegetables. I ate green beans, massive helpings, at one restaurant. They were lip smacking good mostly because the only veggies I could find in Ghana were tuber yams, onions and tomatoes.

I never had a visa to get into Burkina. I’d tell the border station I was going for the weekend, and they’d let me in. The guard only wanted to know if I had bam bam, which they mimed as a gun, and if my dress was long enough. I always passed.

“There are no ordinary cats.”

October 7, 2021

Today is supposed to be the nicest day of the week, warm and sunny. Already it is a pretty day with the bluest of blue skies. Nothing is moving, not even the leaves at the ends of the branches. I have to do a couple of errands today and maybe I might just take a ride, a tourist ride with gawking and a craning neck. I just won’t stop for souvenirs.

Yesterday I took Gwen to the vets. Her back leg flails. She got checked, and the vets asked a few questions. I asked her what she thought. She said the symptoms seem to indicate diabetes. Gwen got lab tests. The vet called this morning. The diagnosis is verified. I have to bring Gwen in on Monday so I can learn how to give her injections. She’ll also have special food. I have to figure out how to give Jack his regular food while Gwen gets her very expensive canned food. I’m toying with feeding Jack up high as Gwen can’t jump so well with her back leg. The vet said the leg might improve but it doesn’t always. Poor baby!

One time Duke, my childhood dog, got mauled on the neck by a huge dog from down the street. My father said he’d heal and didn’t need the vets. Nobody disagreed. A day or two later my father left for the week. At that time he was working in Maine and only coming home for weekends. My mother immediately took Duke to the vet’s. He got stitches and antibiotics. Duke’s neck looked good when my father got home. He commented and said, “See! I told you he would get better.” Nobody said a word. My mother just smiled and agreed.

When I was growing up, my mother never made fancy food. My father was the poster boy for meat and potatoes and a canned vegetable or two. I liked the canned peas and niblet corn. I didn’t like the creamed corn. I thought it looked disgusting as if it had been eaten then rejected. We only had fresh veggies in the summer. Mostly it was corn for all of us and local tomatoes for my father. His snack was to slice them, put them on a plate and add a healthy dollop of mayo. He yummed his way to the end. My father was a yummer. I remember we were eating seafood in a coastal town in Portugal. We ordered the shell fish. There were even razor clams. My father ate those, and he yummed his way through all of the rest.


“Once the travel bug bites, there is no known antidote, and I know that I shall be happily infected until the end of my life.”

October 5, 2021

The rain just stopped. It rained all day yesterday and all night. The air is chilly. The day is dark. I have no plans today. I figure to stay around and read a bit. My new housecleaner is here right now. I had reached my self-cleaning limit. Nala welcomed her with opened paws. Henry barked then was fine.

I don’t know what to do with myself. My laundry is done, and my house is in the middle of being deep cleaned. I suppose I could take up knitting.

When I was a kid, in the sixth grade, I caught Barrett’s disease. It was when I found out my sixth grade classmate Marty Barrett went to England every couple of years to see his grandmother. I was totally envious. He was the only person I knew who had been to Europe. My family vacations back then were either stay at home and do things or head to Maine to stay a tiny cottage with a million people. I dreamed of traveling and imagined my trips. I’d go to England first and see London and Stonehenge. I’d head up to Scotland to find the Loch Ness monster. I’d visit Ireland. I’d ride a camel in the desert and take train rides across Europe. My imagination worked overtime.

When I was older, I still held to those dreams. My count, by the time I was sixteen, was one county, Canada. In the fall of my senior year of college, my friends and I planned a trip to Europe on one of those 60 countries in a day and a half type trips. My parents gave me the trip as a graduation gift, but I was waiting, hoping to hear from Peace Corps. I did, and I accepted. I was going to Africa, to Ghana. My second country was quite a leap from my first, on my list: Canada one and Ghana two.

I have favorite places to which I’d return if given the chance. Ghana is the first. I’m hoping for one more trip back. I think about Ghana all the time with a sort of reverence. I watch videos which catch me in the throat. I want kelewele and jollof rice. Ghana is very much home to me.

I’d go back to Morocco, to Marrakesh. The time I spent there was not enough. Dinner at the Jemma el-Fna and coffee at the cafe were two of my favorite things to do. After walking through the city, I’d sit and watch the world go by. I could hear conversations in Arabic. In the square, I watched dancers and henna artists, magicians and water carriers by day and ate dinner outside at one of the stalls each night. I bought fresh figs in the market. I took a horse-drawn carriage tour. I was the only passenger. Every day I saw something new and ate something I didn’t know and couldn’t pronounce. Good thing the menus had pictures.

“I woke to the sound of rain.”

October 4, 2021

When I looked out the door this morning, the old nursery rhyme came to mind. I can remember my mother saying it to me:

It’s raining, it’s pouring, 
    The old man’s snoring. 
He got into bed 
    And bumped his head 
And couldn’t get up in the morning.

The rain started last night and continues this morning. It is supposed to rain all day into the night. I don’t mind. My to-do list is tiny. I’m actually going to finish the laundry, only two loads left. This is a monumental achievement.

Both dogs have been in and out. Nala is soaked. Henry is wet. He isn’t out as long. Speaking of Henry, we have breakthroughs. He actually went on the other side of the couch. It sounds weird I know, but Henry had chosen his side of the room and never strayed beyond. He even walks on the other side of the room now. Yesterday he came in the dog door. May wonders never cease!

Yesterday I had hot dogs for dinner, in the usual top loading rolls. I added cheese, mustard and red pepper relish. Much later, I made cinnamon toast as a snack. I felt five again.

When I was a kid, I never minded the rain. I’d get soaked walking to and from school. I remember taking off my shoes and finding my socks were so wet they made footprints on the floor. It was sort of fun until my mother made me take them off. Sometimes we’d play in the cellar on rainy days. I remember every part of that cellar. On one side was the black oil tank. The window on that side of the cellar was at the top of the foundation and was square and tiny. I could see dust in the ray of sunlight coming through the window. The rest of that side of the cellar was open. On the back wall was my father’s rack, the one he built. It had two shelves, one on the floor and the other close to the ceiling. They were attached to two side pieces of wood one of which always hung at a tilt. On the bottom were cans of paint. Nothing was on the top. We couldn’t reach it. My father always said he didn’t have the right tools. We knew better.

“Boston has two seasons: August and winter.”

October 3, 2021

The weather was perfect yesterday. Today will be the same. I’m going to Hyannis, the big city. I hope I don’t look like a rube.

Yesterday was a banner day. I finally did my laundry, three larger than life loads. Now I know where all my clothes have been hiding. Hauling the piles up two flights of stairs was the worst part. One load is still in the dryer. I just couldn’t carry another load. I’ll finish tomorrow. I do feel accomplished.

When I was a kid, we went to Boston a few times a year: in the summer and near Christmas. In the summer, It was usually on a Sunday. I remember going to the Public Garden, sitting by the lagoon and being amazed at how friendly the squirrels were, coming up and begging for peanuts which, conveniently, were sold from carts on the street. The squirrels would come up to us, and we could feed them by hand. I was thrilled. I was feeding wildlife. We’d take a ride on the swan boats. I was impressed that they were powered by pedaling. In the middle of the lagoon was a swan’s nest. I never saw eggs or baby swans, but I did see the couple, the adult swans, swimming together.

Our winter trip to Boston was for Christmas. We’d go look at the decorated store windows and the Boston Common where all the trees were filled with lights. I remember once my father bought us roasted chestnuts from a cart. I wasn’t particularly impressed. They tasted awful. Our next trip to Boston was to go to Jordan Marsh to see Santa and the Enchanted Village. My mother took us by bus to Sullivan Square and then we took the subway to get to Boston. That was always so exciting, the subway and Santa in one day.

“But I have no desire for fame and power anymore. I crawled out of the swamp and I’m not crawling back in.”

October 2, 2021

Yesterday was chilly. Today will be much warmer. The high is supposed to reach 70˚. I’ll pack away my flannel shirt again.

Hanging in my bathroom is a picture of my eight grade class. It is a graduation picture. I am wearing a frilly dress. Trust me. I am not the frilly type. As to why the bathroom, it is decorated with school stuff like an old school bag, a chalk board, some Ding Dong School artifacts and old school books. The picture is hung over the sink so I give it a look when I’m brushing my teeth. I know the names of many of my classmates. Some I don’t remember at all. That makes sense as it was sixty years ago. I think that was the last time I wore a puffy dress.

The school principal was Sister Eileen Marie. That wasn’t her real name. That was her nun name. Her office was just across the hall from my class. I was a class officer. We, the other officers and I, were summoned to the principal’s office. One of us would be picked to crown the Mary statue during the May procession. I was the one. My aunt Mary, my favorite aunt, told me she had also crowned. That made it a family tradition, one which ended with me.

My wanderings were all over town mostly on my bike, but one of my favorite places was a short walk from my house. I walked there so many times I can close my eyes and see it. Below the houses was a huge field, my grasshopper hunting grounds. On one side was a dead tree with its biggest branch still attached but on the ground. The other side was wooded. Once my brother and I found a tiny shack in the wooded side. It was made of boards, poorly made, as there were holes. We went inside. There was a pile of magazines, the sort you hide. We figured the guy who made it wanted a private place where his mother wouldn’t go.

Just up the path was the swamp. Just at the water’s edge was sand. The swamp was a wonder to me. I could watch tadpoles grow into frogs, skate on it and work my way through trees and undergrowth and branches to get where the swamp ended. In the winter it was easy as I could walk on the ice. I remember under the ice was perfectly clear. I could see plants and twigs. It was a marvel.

“All cities are mad: but the madness is gallant. All cities are beautiful, but the beauty is grim.”

October 1, 2021

Today is a fall day, a pretty fall day. The temperature is in the low 60’s, but it will get warmer. I am going out and about today, down Cape to Orleans. I don’t go that direction often.

Dinner last night was great fun. After dinner, one of my guests cleaned everything while my other guest and I chatted at the table. Nala was welcoming, overly welcoming at times. She is a boxer and jumping is a boxer thing. Henry was standoffish but only for a little while. He sniffed, his understated way of saying hello. The food was good. We had shrimp fettuccine Alfredo, a salad and garlic bread. Dessert was a blueberry pie, brought by my friend. The meal, the company and the evening was a delight.

When I was growing up, we visited my grandparents in East Boston often. Those visits may have germinated my love of cities, not for living but exploring. I remember a lady selling Italian ice out her front window. She had to lean over to hand it to us. I loved the pizza squares from the bakery. The flat pans were huge and were in the bakery case. The squares were sold at room temperature. I never knew bakeries made pizza. I remember the truck which stopped on the street and offered carousel rides. On the back of the truck was a tiny carousel with about four horses. It was for little kids. I was a bit envious. It was at my grandmother’s where I first saw cheese in a chunk, Romano cheese, to use on the spaghetti, always on the stove, in a pot which never emptied. It was fun to grate. I always grate my own cheese now.

The worst Nala disaster happened yesterday. I was in a make dinner frenzy and didn’t notice the beastie. Earlier in the day, I had changed the litter and brought the bag down. I didn’t put it outside but by the door. I walked into the living room for something. I forget what. That was when I saw it, the pile of cat litter out of the bag on the floor. I screamed. It took a while to finish clean up. The end was the floor washing. Never in my wildest imagination did I think Nala, the marauder, would be interested in used kitty litter. It was a gross job. I have learned that nothing is safe from Nala. I put things away I think she’d love to chew or eat or just tear into pieces. The only problem is I forget where I put them.

“Never miss a party…good for the nerves–like celery.”

September 30, 2021

Today is pretty but cold. The wind is blowing all the tree limbs and the hanging leaves. I’m wearing my sweatshirt, an essential part of my fall wardrobe.

Lots to do today. Friends are coming to dinner. The shopping is crossed off the list. The house, still on the list, is in capital letters. It needs a bit of a touch up. The dust is swirling. The kitchen floor is a map of dog tracks.

Nala will steal anything. The house is not safe from this marauder. Yesterday it was two dolls out of my room, one from Ghana and one from my childhood. Today it was naan. She ran outside onto the deck, with her booty in her mouth, but she dropped the bread, but when I yelled. She tried to grab the package again, but that slowed her down. She ended up with only the cover. I got the bread.

I was contemplating putting a gate across the stairs, but Henry would be the victim. My bedroom is his solitude. He takes naps on my bed. The beastie usually stays downstairs.

Henry had his own issues last night. He threw up several times, the poor boy, but today he is fine. I guessed it may have been all the shots the day before. I was getting ready to take him to the emergency vet, but he stopped being sick and went to sleep. I breathed.

When I was a kid, my parents didn’t entertain much. The house was too small, but when they moved off cape, they bought a perfect house for entertaining. My mother threw epic parties. One of my favorites was the D-Day party celebrating the 35th anniversary. My mother decorated the dining room with maps of the landings. On the TV the movie The Longest Day played during the whole party. In the kitchen, songs from WWII played, and the crowd sang along. My family was big for singing in the kitchen, never the living room. People were scrunched together on the kitchen benches. The bar was on a small counter next to the fridge, handy for ice. The food was only a few steps away in the dining room. It covered the table. I think I remember the table groaning.

“A mask you ask? Optional I find! Masks lend appeal of a mysterious kind.”

September 28, 2021

This morning I woke up early, early for me anyway. It was just nine. The sun was shining in a clear sky. It is nearly two hours later, and the clouds have taken over the sky. The wind is blowing. Rain is predicted for this afternoon and evening.

The last of the flowers have bloomed in my garden. I don’t know what they are, but I always look forward to their blooming. I always think of those flowers as the last kisses of summer.

Yesterday was a banner day. I made it to the dump, and the two guys that always help unload my car were there. One took out all the bags of cans and newspapers and all the empty boxes stacked in my backseat. He marveled at the number of boxes. Next I stopped at the trash receptacles. My guy was there, and he unloaded my trunk mostly filled with heavy bags of used cat litter. I drove home with an empty car. I went to my little library next and did some housekeeping. I arranged the books, sent the bugs scurrying, added a Halloween decoration to the window and left some bookmarks I had bought. The library was full and most of them were books added by my fellow bibliophiles. I took one.

The last afternoon miracle was after I was outside on the deck with the dogs. I looked down into my yard, and the area closest to the deck looked like a vacant lot in the city. Nala had brought all sorts of paper outside and torn it apart. Some papers had been there since before the last rain. I lost it then and went into the yard and cleaned up all the papers. The toilet paper she had torn apart last week was stuck to the ground and the driveway by the rain. I admit I cursed a little.

I talk out loud to the dogs, to the TV and to no one. As of yet, only Nala has answered me, and she was not happy.

When I was a kid, the plans for Halloween started early. My friend and I would discuss costume choices while we walked to school. She usually bought a costume from Woolworth’s. Those costumes were worn over your clothes and tied in the back. The masks were hot to wear and ugly. The elastic holder on the masks snapped easily. We never had store bought costumes. They were expensive for four kids, but I didn’t mind. My mother was creative. If I came up with an idea, she came up with a costume. Over the years I was a ghost, a hobo, a witch and a cowgirl. Mostly I didn’t wear a mask. Instead, my mother put make-up on me befitting my costume choice. As for our goodie bags, they got bigger as we grew. My last few goodie bags were pillow cases. I dreamed of candy over-flowing my pillowcase, but that never happened. I’m still a bit disappointed.

“Life is too short to try and glue together broken plates that were cheap in the first place.”

September 27, 2021

The morning is near perfect. The sun is shining and is framed in a blue sky which goes on forever. The air is a bit chilly. The breeze is strong but intermittent. Every now and then the top branches, the ones closest to the sky, sway. It will be 74˚today. Tomorrow, the rain returns. If you stop by to visit, I won’t apologize for the dog print covered kitchen floor. I was going to wash it today, but with rain predicted tomorrow, I’ll wait. I love a plausible excuse!

I have been hauling trash bags to the car. Today is dump day. My trunk is already filled and two more bags sit by the car waiting to be loaded. Filled with used litter, those bags from the cat room were so heavy they almost took me down the stairs.

My dance card is mostly filled this week. Today is my only list free day, and the dump is my only chore. I have uke practice tomorrow, inside for the first time this fall, both dogs have a vet appointment Wednesday, friends are coming for dinner on Thursday and Friday is another uke concert. I can’t remember the last time I was this busy. I’m not sure I like it. My reputation as a sloth, one I cherish, is in jeopardy.

When I was a kid, I didn’t know many bullies. I figure they were around but avoided me. They knew I couldn’t abide bullying. Only once did peaceful methods fail me. I was driven to violence, to punching a boy in the face, one who deserved punching. I don’t even remember the boy I punched. I do remember getting caught and going to the principal’s office. I was a ten year old felon. The principal agreed with me in philosophy but explained that punching was an unacceptable response. I sort of agreed.

My mother always used unbreakable glasses and plates. My favorite glasses were the aluminum ones in different colors. They had a matching pitcher. My second favorite glasses were the old jelly glasses. They had cartoon figures on the front. I have a couple of those. I remember the Melmac dishes. I also remember that Melmac was the home world of ALF but that is pure coincidence. Anyway, if the Melmac dish hit the floor, it rattled over and over until it stopped dead, surrounded by food. Seeing meat, potatoes and veggies on the floor was never a pretty sight, but the dish, sitting in the middle of the mess, never broke. When we closed up and sold my mother’s house, there were still a few Melmac plates with the wheat decoration. Those dishes were legendary.