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“All was silent as before — All silent save the dripping rain.”

September 1, 2022

This morning is the sort which makes you smile. The air is cool from last night, the leaves, blown by the strong wind, are rustling as they sway, the sun is bright and the blue sky is deep and beautiful. The dogs have been running in the yard, coming in only for their sips of coffee and a bit of toast with peanut butter. I’ll be out and about today with a stop at the dump and another at Agway for pet food and some mums.

The clematis spread across the front fence is filled with buds and a few flowers, the first to bloom. The pine tree by the front garden also has clematis laden with buds. It has climbed half-way up the tree trunk. Every day I check for more flowers and can barely wait until the fence and the tree are draped in white.

Miss Nala scared me this morning. I called her, but she didn’t come. I went on the deck and called. No Nala. I went into the yard and didn’t see her. I knew she couldn’t get out of the yard, but she scared me nonetheless. I decided to check the house and noticed the open gate to Jack’s room. She was there. She got in but couldn’t get out. The food was all gone. She wagged her stub of a tail at me, but I was having none of it. Poor Jack was hiding and wouldn’t come out from his hiding spot which I suspect was under one of the beds. I filled his dishes again. That dog is an endless pit.

In Ghana, in Bolga, this is still the rainy season. The millet is so high you can’t see beyond the first rows along the dirt roads. Everything is green, the wild grass, the leaves of the trees and the crops surrounding the compounds. It rains every day. When I went back to Bolga, I’d sit at a table in the hotel’s outside restaurant and watch the rain. It was my favorite place to sit and watch and listen as the rain fell on the roof above my head.

I learned early on, during Peace Corps training, that rain never interferes with daily life. I’d shop on market days even in the rain. I never saw a puddle. The ground quickly sucked up the rain. I never saw anyone carrying an umbrella. The rain is welcomed. The rain is a blessing.

“Summer’s lease hath all too short a date.”

August 30, 2022

The morning is ugly. It is hot and humid. The temperature is already 77°. The sky was partly cloudy earlier this morning then the sun and the blue sky made an appearance, but they’re gone again. I suspect it will be the same all day, sun and clouds, clouds and sun. Rain is predicted for tomorrow, but, as always, I am skeptical of any thoughts of rain. It seems to avoid the cape.

My dance card is filled this week. I have some uke events including a concert early this afternoon, practice tonight and a lesson tomorrow. The last play of the season at the Playhouse is Friday. The summer is winding down so very quickly. It seems always to be the shortest season.

Nothing was stolen yesterday even though I was out for a few hours. The trash bag was in the kitchen. I was on the road when I remembered. When I got home, I slowly opened the front door expecting trash like dog food cans and cat cans. There was nothing. I gave both dogs a well earned biscuit for good behavior.

I woke up when it was barely light. When I looked out the window, I could hear the bangs and pings of acorns hitting the deck and hitting something metal. I looked for a spawn of Satan but didn’t see one. I went back to bed.

Early last night I could hear Nala barking. She almost never barks. Henry always barks. Anyway, I went out to check. Nana was moving around a tree looking up at some critter. I suspected a spawn. She was also trying to climb the tree. She didn’t.

When I was a kid, I wore sneakers all summer. They were white low tops, but I did wear high tops in black when I played basketball. My coach insisted we protect our ankles. I liked the high tops. Years later, I bought a couple of pairs of Converse high tops in wonderful colors, pink and purple. I can’t find the pink ones, but I wear the purple. I’ll hunt again for the lost pair in the vast expanses of my closet. I really like the pink.

Everything is quiet. Both dogs are sleeping. I almost want to wake up Nala as she woke me up around 8, and I didn’t get back to sleep. I’m thinking an afternoon nap might be in order.

“The crickets felt it was their duty to warn everybody that summertime cannot last forever.”

August 29, 2022

A bit of the heat is returning today and bringing along with it the humidity, but the morning still has a bit of the night, a coolness, a pleasant breeze from the south. The yard is filled with sunlight. Nala found the best spot in the back of the yard in the sun. I called her and she ignored me at first, but then she got up, reluctantly, and came to the deck.

First thing this morning, I went out with the dogs hoping to find my sandal. It disappeared last night and I immediately went hunting, but in the dark I couldn’t see anything even with the back lights on. This morning I saw Nala race to her newest hole and dig out my sandal. She ran with it in her mouth, and I could see the dirt falling out as she ran. I knew better than to chase her. Finally, I enticed her to drop it, grabbed her collar and got the sandal. It was dirty but didn’t even have tooth marks. I wonder what will go missing today.

When I was a kid, this week would have been the last hurrah, the last week of freedom, the last week before school. My mother would take us shopping for new shoes, new uniforms and school supplies. The uniforms were easy, a blue skirt, white blouse and a cowboy tie, or at least that’s what I called it. We could wear whatever shoes we wanted to school so my mother hauled us all down to the shoe store where I got my feet x-rayed, and I put my foot on the silver metal slide to find my shoe size. My mother bought us sturdy shoes, tie shoes, hoping they’d last the whole year through rain and snow and recess.

Picking out my lunch box and pencil case took time. They would be me, the only things I could choose. My lunch boxes often had TV characters on them. I remember my Annie Oakley lunch box. My pencil cases had a different scene on the front but the same things inside as all other pencil cases. I never did know what to do with the plastic triangle except to make straight lines. Sharpening my pencils with the little sharpener took time and was a bit messy as all the shavings ended up either on the table or on the floor. When I was in the fourth grade, I chose a plaid lunch box and a plastic pencil case with a zipper. I was older then.

“I put a lot of fire in my punches.” 

August 28, 2022

Today is perfect. The weather is a delight. The morning is cool at 73°. The bright sun is framed by the darkest blue sky, a navy blue sky. The air has an every now and then breeze. It is Sunday quiet.

When I noticed the dogs hadn’t come in for their morning naps, especially Henry, I went and checked. Both dogs were too busy cleaning out and eating the trash which had been in Jack’s room. Cat food cans, left over cat food, cat treat packages and even dog treat packages were in the yard almost hidden by a tree. Both dogs were at the trash. Henry has gone over to the dark side.

When I was a kid, I dutifully went to church every Sunday. Sometimes I wore my bathing suit under my dress as we were leaving for the beach right after church. Other times I sat outside on the steps when the early masses were especially popular, and the pews were filled. I figured I was at church so the steps counted for attendance.

I didn’t want to move to the cape, but my parents sweetened the deal by saying I’d have a room of my own. What they didn’t tell me was it would be the pseudo-guest room, and I’d get the couch. Mostly my aunt and uncle, Aunt Barbara and Uncle Lorrie, with their brat of a child were the guests. They lived in East Boston so she she always brought down Italian cookies and a cream cake. The pastries were most welcome. Their son was not. He was younger than I, but that was no never mind. He would keep at me with his mouth. I’d tell him to stop, and he wouldn’t. I forgot how I got him to stop and why they he didn’t come down again, but my mother reminded me why. She told me I had reached the end of my patience and punched him in the face. My aunt chastised me, but my mother told her I had tried again and again to get him to stop. He deserved the punch. My mother had my back.

Three times in my life I have punched someone. Each time I first tried reasoning and asked several times for the person to stop. When that didn’t work, my fist seemed to take on a life of its own. One punch was all I needed. The first time was when I was in the fifth grade. The second time was at Fenway Park and the third time was my cousin. They all earned my wrath.

“Be afraid. Be very afraid.” 

August 27, 2022

Last night we had thunder and lightning but little rain. It fell in giant drops then smaller drops then it disappeared. The morning is dark and dank. We had fog. The temperature is in the mid-70’s and won’t get much higher. Tonight will be in the 60’s. It seems we’re having a cold spell, at least in comparison.

Yesterday I got all my chores done, even the dreaded laundry. I also went down cape to Orleans. The highway traffic was light and quick. After I finished my errand, I took the highway home. I could see the traffic build-up on the down cape side. I had just missed it.

When I was a kid, my mother used to play a game she called Jack and Jill. She’d put a small band of paper on the same finger of each hand then put both fingers on the table. She’d say, Go away, Jack,” then move her hand up over her shoulder. When she brought her hand down, Jack was gone. She did the same with Jill. We were amazed. We looked behind her back and on the floor but couldn’t find Jack or Jill. Next, she’d say, “Come back, Jack,” then put her hand over her shoulder. When she brought her hand to the table, Jack was back. She then brought Jill back. We thought my mother was a magician. How did she do it?

My father used to tell us scary stories. I will never forget the man with the hook who used to scratch screens. That one scared me. My father and mother usually went grocery shopping on Friday evenings. My mother didn’t drive then so my father had to take her. He used to wait in the car. I remember I was watching TV and waiting for them to get home when I heard it, the scratching on the screen. I yelled, “Who is it,” but got no answer, but I knew who it was, the man with the hook. The story my father had told us was real, but it wasn’t. It was my father without a hook.

Despite the man with the hook, I wasn’t afraid of much while growing up, not spiders or ghosts or creatures of the night. I am still not afraid, not even of the man with the hook.

“If I have ever seen magic, it has been in Africa.”

August 26, 2022

The morning is a delight. I sat outside on the deck to read the paper and drink my coffee. I kept stopping to listen to the birds and the rustling of the leaves on the swaying branches. Today will be hot, in the low 80’s. Tonight will be cooler. I have an errand, the only entry on my dance card.

When I was in Ghana, I learned groundnuts (peanuts) grow under ground which makes the British/Ghanaian name perfectly descriptive. Its flowers grow above the ground while the fruit, the nuts, grow underground. In the afternoons, when the school year was just beginning, my students harvested the nuts. I went and watched and took pictures. Groundnut stew is a common Ghanaian dish. I was skeptical that groundnut paste (peanut butter) as a base made for a tasty stew, but it did. It had tomatoes and onions and chicken. The stew was the color of the groundnut paste.

In Bolgatanga where I lived, I was the only white woman my first year there. Everyone in town knew who I was. When I was learning Hausa, the language taught to me during training, I learned the greetings first. I used them all the time as I was greeted everywhere I went, and I loved being able to return the greetings. That always delighted the Ghanaians. I could use the specific greetings like I greet you in the market or I greet you at work. I could also say good morning, good afternoon or good evening. I could ask how you are feeling. The answer was always lafiya lau. I’m fine, no matter how you felt. When I went back to Ghana the first time, I greeted people at dinner in the hotel restaurant, ina wuni, good evening. Later I found out there was discussion at their table about the white lady who knew Hausa. That was when they figured out who I was.

I love mangos and papaya. I eat hummus, falafel and tabbouleh, the foods I ate in the Lebanese restaurants in Accra. They were inexpensive foods, perfect for Peace Corps volunteers. I like fufu with stew, a Southern dish, and also t-zed with stew, a Northern dish. I could eat plantain, my favorite Ghanaian food, at every meal and also jollof rice, my favorite Ghanaian dish, at every meal, and we’re talking breakfast too.

I brought so much of Ghana home with me, not just things, but memories. When I watch YouTube videos of Bolga, I feel joy and happiness but also sadness that I am not there.

“Wherever you go becomes a part of you somehow.”

August 25, 2022

When I first woke up, it was 5:30. I let the dogs out and went on the deck. It was still damp from last night. The morning sky was beginning to lighten. I stayed on the deck until the dogs finished their business then the three of us went back inside and back to bed. I woke up at 8:30.

Today will be hot again, 88°, but it is a pretty day with a breeze from the south, a blue sky with a few clouds and lots of sun. I have nothing on my dance card today, but I figure to honor the third law of nature, the law of action, and do a wash even though the laundry basket is not even full. This is a big step for me. I have little laundry and no trash. It is like a miracle.

When I was a kid, we didn’t take too many vacations away from home. I do remember when my sister Moe, the youngest, was still a toddler and we went to Vermont, way into northern Vermont. We went with another family. The house was huge and was on a small country sort of a highway with two lanes and few cars. Across the street was a lake. It was shallow for a bit then there was a huge drop-off. My father used to take me on his back underwater. I remember there were fish in the deep part. I’d stay underwater until I tapped my father’s shoulder, our agreed upon signal, to let him know I needed air. Behind the house was a huge hill and beyond that were pine trees, a copse of trees. A rivulet flowed beside the house. It had the biggest frogs I’d ever seen. We’d spent hours catching the frogs, but we always let them go. It was the fun of the hunt we enjoyed. My father built a lean-to at the top of the hill. He cut limbs and tied then together to form the lean-to which had sides and a roof. He covered the roof with pine branches. I thought my father was amazing. I never knew he could build a lean-to.

The house had an enormous porch, a wrap-around porch. I remember the kitchen had a phone on the wall, the sort with a crank. If you cranked it, you got a small electrical jolt. We cranked it anyway.

My parents crossed the border into Canada for dinner one night. I was totally jealous, not of dinner but of dinner in another country. I begged them to take us on a ride into Canada, but they didn’t. I was really disappointed. Years later, we did go to Canada and see the falls. It was finally my first other country.

“I find it soothing, the thought of a movie theater.”

August 23, 2022

Yesterday it rained on and off but not heavily. This morning I woke up to the rain hitting the windows, but it is an unsettled rain, heavy at times, other times misty. I went to the dentist. It wasn’t raining there, a couple of towns away. The latest weather report calls for isolated thunderstorms. It will be hot at 78° with all the dreaded humidity the rain brings.

When I was a kid, I hated going to the dentist. Usually it was because I had a toothache, and everything hurt. We never had regular check-ups at either the dentist or the doctor. That was the way it was when both my parents were growing up so that was what they knew. Now, other than my brother, we all have regular appointments. Today was a teeth cleaning.

In the summer, when I was a kid, my mother seldom knew where I was even though I was gone most of the day. If I was walking, I was probably at the park. If I was on my bike, I could be anywhere. She was never afraid for us. We had gotten the don’t talk to strangers conversation, and she figured we had listened. We had. I felt safe. I figured I could go anywhere so I did.

When I was in high school, my friends and I went to Boston to see Cleopatra at the Metropolitan Theater. It was the grandest theater I have ever been in. I remember the high ceiling, the lights, the boxes on the sides of the theater, the wall paper and the red curtain. The ladies’ room even had a plush lounge chair. I sat on it to take in all the beauty of the room, a bathroom.

My town’s movie theater was originally built in 1917. It had a stage at the front where there used to be vaudeville acts and giveaways of glassware. There was a small balcony in front of the projector room. I went to the theater often to see matinees on Saturdays. I didn’t know the theater’s history when I was young. I suspect even if I knew I wouldn’t have been impressed. I would have thought it was just old. The theater closed for almost thirty years before it was sold and restored. It became a live performance theater. I have seen several plays there. Every time I go to a play I look around and remember being a kid and sitting and watching cartoons before the big movie. My theater has changed but it is also still the same.

“Give us the tools, and we will finish the job.”

August 22, 2022

Earlier this morning I heard drops hitting the deck. Being naturally skeptical, I went outside to see if I’d get wet. I didn’t. The drops I’d heard were from an earlier bout of a little bit of rain. Later, I went outside to take a couple of pictures of the front garden. The weather report popped up on my phone. I chuckled when I read rain will start in 21 minutes. I’ve started counting.

Outside is quite dark and still. The clouds are gray and the sun is elsewhere. I do believe it will rain. According to Google, it will rain 0.24 inches in Dennis.

This morning I got a wonderful surprise. Another hibiscus has bloomed, a light red hibiscus. I ran and got my phone and took a picture. What a wonderful way to start the day.

My dance card has a few events. The last summer concert is tonight, Irish music. I have a dentist appointment tomorrow,, just a regular cleaning, uke practice tomorrow night, a uke lesson on Wednesday and a concert in the afternoon. That’s it, but that’s enough.

Lately, I have had a dual personality. Some days I am lethargic at best, a prize winning sloth. Other days, I am a burst of energy cleaning and sorting, washing and drying and sweeping and mopping.

I have amassed the trash bags by the car for loading into the trunk. It is dump day!! It is the last dump day until Thursday. One of the bags was on the deck box. I found a hole in it. I also saw dog food cans in the backyard. Hmmm, I wonder how that happened.

The other day I bought a couple of hooks so I could hang lanterns on the deck. The lights in the two lanterns flicker like real flame. I grabbed the screwdriver from my tool drawer, picked out the two spots for my hooks and began screwing one into the deck rail. It wasn’t easy. I had to use a great deal of strength and a lot huffing and puffing until I got the screw almost totally in the wood. That’s when I noticed I had forgotten to attach the hook to the screw. I unscrewed, added the hook and re-screwed. It was easier the second time.

“Every day has a little bit of beauty and a little bit of chaos.”

August 21, 2022

The days seem to follow the same pattern. The mornings and afternoons are hot but not so hot as to be unbearable, high 70’s or low 80’s. The nights are cool for sleeping, down to the mid 60’s. The only thing missing is the rain. It hasn’t really rained in weeks. We did have some spitting rain for about ten minutes last week, and on a couple of days the sky was filled with dark clouds, dark rainless clouds. The forecast calls for rain Tuesday, maybe.

Some days I just want to sit and do nothing but be a sloth, the best sloth I can be. I don’t want a list of chores or errands. I want to wear my cozies all day. I want to eat food either easy to make or delivered. Some days I have a hankering for Chinese then I have my burger days, always with fries and onion rings. Every once in a while I need some chocolate, either candy bar or ice cream. I have also ordered cupcakes delivered. They’re a favorite.

Cereal is one of my easy meals. The time of day doesn’t matter. My cereal now is Frosted Flakes. It was a buy one, get one free deal. The boxes are huge. I’ll be eating Frosted Flakes for months.

I keep odd hours. I’m still awake at least until one or two in the morning, sometimes even later. I have often seen the first morning light. I seldom sleep late, nine is about the latest, but I enjoy an afternoon nap.

When I worked, I wore skirts and blouses or dresses every day. It just seemed appropriate. Now, I can’t remember the last time I wore a dress. I have a few. I have a fall dress and a summer dress, a dressy dress for more formal occasions and some from Ghana made from beautiful Ghanaian cloth. Now, I usually wear pants and shirts. They’re neat but not dressy. They are comfortable which is the prime reason for wearing them.

I wear sandals or even high tops. I have a couple of pairs of Chuck Taylors, and I am shopping for more, one of my pairs has seen far better days. I’m thinking pink or red.

I have been retired 18 years. Sometimes I am bored but those times are far between. The other day I spent hours sitting on the deck reading. It was a lovely day. The book was excellent as were the crackers and cheese I had for snacks.

All in all I am contended with my life. I consider myself lucky!