Posted tagged ‘Getting Old’

“You are never too old to set a new goal or to dream a new dream.”

November 1, 2014

Today is rainy, dark and dismal. It will get colder tonight and by tomorrow night will be in the 30’s. Mother Nature’s weather this time of year seems confused about its identity. Is it fall or is it beginning of winter? 60˚ will be back by Wednesday.

My short sleeve shirts are in the bin, my sandals are in the back of the closet, the movie projector and screen will be put in the cellar and the deck will be closed on Monday. I’m wearing my slippers and a sweat shirt. It is the start of winter mode. I always feel sad to pack summer away.

I have some errands today so I am glad for the rain. It keeps people home.

Last night I had 18 trick or treaters, a big number for me. Most were little kids, but a couple were high school age. I didn’t care. They got candy anyway. My large size Necco Wafers were a hit. Kids were yelling to their parents waiting on the street about the size of the candy. My neighbors across the street turned out their light at six. Mine went out at 7:30.

For the most part I don’t mind growing old. The grey hairs are a badge of honor. The wrinkles aren’t as bad as I thought they’d be by now; however, I do worry about one thing: the old lady temperament. I am already impatient enough without adding old lady to the mix. What if I start scowling for no reason? Will I get pushy? I think old people believe they are entitled simply because of longevity. The whole aisle in the store is theirs. To ask nicely to pass by merits a tsk or two or even a look. I don’t mind growing old. I just mind being old.

“New Year’s is a harmless annual institution, of no particular use to anybody save as a scapegoat for promiscuous drunks, and friendly calls and humbug resolutions.”

January 2, 2011

The day is overcast but warm. The sun keeps trying to break through, but the clouds are too heavy. Every now and then the day lightens and I get hopeful, but then the sun disappears again. I don’t really mind today’s weather. I’m comfortable here inside and have no plans to be elsewhere.

Poor January 2nd. We had Christmas with all its preparations then a short wait until New Year’s Eve then New Year’s Day. Today is just another in a long line of days.

When I see pictures of singers I really like, I wonder how they got so old. Gordon Lightfoot is one example, and I couldn’t believe it when I realized Judy Collins is 72 or close to it. I have a friend who is eligible for medicare. What’s going on here? How did we all get so much older?

I think I was paying far more attention to life itself to realize that each day meant I was a day older. The first time I got a senior discount I needed a brown bag to stop me from hyper-ventilating. I don’t feel older. Admittedly, I’m a bit slower, and my word retrieval skills have ah, ah, you know, ah, deteriorated. On New Year’s Eve, I didn’t know a single song or singer. The audience was singing along. They all looked twelve to me, and I wondered why their mothers would let them out so late.

I like to think of the new year as a time for renewal, a time for a better me, but I’m been in the house so long I’m going crazy, and I haven’t given any thought to renewal. Yesterday I drove my new car around the block. I wondered where the crowds were and the flags and whether my pit stop was ready for me. I wanted to wave to the crowds in the same funny way as the queen waves, but I didn’t see anyone. Just riding around the block seemed that exciting.

Last night my foot and leg hurt. I moved to a more comfortable position and the pain disappeared, but I figure I need to take this really slowly. Tomorrow I’ll give it another try. I hope there will be crowds. I have my wave all ready.