Posted tagged ‘changes’

“Colors, like features, follow the changes of the emotions.”

May 14, 2012

My deck is now ready for summer. All the candles are in the trees and the furniture uncovered. I just need a warm day or two to get out to my favorite spot under the umbrella with book in hand. Right now it’s 65° which is considerably cooler than yesterday, and the sun which was so bright earlier this morning is popping in and out of the clouds. Gracie has had her morning run and is now in the midst of her morning nap. I have a few house chores to do then a bit of shopping, but I’m in no rush. I have the whole day ahead of me.

I like week days here on my street. The mowers are in the garages, the leaf blowers beside them, kids are in school and most parents are at work. I hear dogs barking, sometimes answering each other, sometimes just barking for the sake of it. Gracie, though, seldom joins the chorus of barkers. She mostly ignores them. They are familiar sounds and Gracie only acknowledges the barks of strangers.

I’m thinking of having my living room repainted. It is red right now, and I figure it will stay red, but there are some chipped spots which are driving me crazy. The bathroom too could use a make-over, and I might change that color. It’s pink now, a bright wear your sunglasses pink. A few years ago all the rooms but this one were repainted. They had been white for 25+ years, and I went with color, bright color, in all the rooms. I don’t even know why. I just know I wanted color and I still do.

My doctor once told me our systems change every seven years, nothing drastic, no extra toes or fingers or limbs but more subtle changes. According to him, that’s why my allergies and asthma developed. I would have preferred an extra toe, but I wasn’t given the choice. I wonder where in those seven-year cycles I might be now. I’d check my feet but that would be futile.

“Premature burial works just fine as a cure for adolescence.”

August 28, 2010

The sun is warm and bright. The sky is blue from front to back and top to bottom. From my window here in the den, I can see the top branches of the huge oak tree. The sunshine glints on its leaves and highlights every vein and stem. Gracie and I have already been outside just standing on the deck and taking in the morning.

I don’t remember exactly how old I was when Saturday morning television was no longer an incentive to hurry out of bed, get my breakfast, my cereal and milk, and plunk down in front of the TV. Howdy and Sky and Boris and Natasha had been replaced for sleeping-in. My life was changing, and I didn’t really notice. Changes sometimes happen that way. Their arrival is subtle. All of a sudden clothes became important. Saturday matinees were for kids. I didn’t want to go anywhere with my family. My parents didn’t understand me. My room became my refuge. I didn’t have to be sent there anymore. I went willingly, gladly. I was an adolescent.

My mind is quick, and I have a history of wonderfully clever comments. They started jumping out of my mouth about the same time I began my adolescence. My father was often my straight man. He made comments which begged for a response, and I could seldom resist. Sometimes he’d ask questions, rhetorical to him, fodder for me. My favorite was, “What do you think you’re doing?” Never once was he happy with my answers, but I loved each and every one of them and would have grinned at my cleverness, but that would have been way over the top.

It wasn’t until I went to college that we reached an understanding, a truce of sorts.