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“I can be quite sarcastic when I’m in the mood.”

January 10, 2015

Today is sunny, but I don’t care. It does me no good. The day is still cold, and outside is uninviting. My mood now reflects the cold. I yelled at Gracie this morning because she was driving me crazy sitting beside me and staring. That’s not new. She does that most days when she wants something, and I usually ask her what she wants, and when her ears perk, I accede to her wishes but I didn’t today. The cold has undermined my good humor. All I ask is one warm winter’s day.

The house is cozy but staying inside day after day has made me far too productive. I can’t walk into a room without doing something. I’ve vacuumed, changed my bed, put things away, done laundry and swept the kitchen. I even watered the plants and did some polishing. I’m thinking possession, an evil spirit bent on making me clean the house, a cruel and hideous spirit. While I work, while I’m in a frenzy, the dog and cat ignore me. The dog sleeps on the couch and Fern sleeps curled in a ball. The dog snores. Fern sort of whistles, a cat’s version of a snore. I envy the both of them.

I do have a reprieve. My friends have invited me to watch the Pats play the Ravens. I can put my dust rag away for just a while and silence the madness.

A few of my Christmas presents are decorative, and I’ve been walking around trying to find just the right spots. A couple are hanging, but a couple more still wait. The hall upstairs has a new rug. The table in the living room is where the new pottery from Ghana, a gift from my sister, has found a home. The woven lamb, from my other sister, is still waiting. I have tried several spots but none were right. There I was walking from room to room holding up the weaving and then shaking my head and moving on. There is a cascade effect here. I find a spot and what was there needs to be moved so I look for another spot and on and on. I have become the Diogenes of interior decorating.

“Things are more like they are now than they have ever been.”

February 25, 2012

The weather is 43° and sunny but cool and windy. It’s also one of those days, the sort you get stuck with every now and then and could do without if given a choice. Last night I woke up so many times I’m still tired. I remember a weird dream about a college in Oklahoma I was attending. I went there on a bus where I met another student, Louise, also going my way. My uncle came to visit, and I didn’t recognize him which made sense because I don’t have that specific uncle in real life. He walked up the stairs toward me and we shook hands. I remember he had great eyes, beautiful brown eyes, and was wearing a white t-shirt and jeans. I gave him a tour of the campus which was quite crowded then invited him to come to class with me. That’s the last I remember as I woke up for about the third time. The dog, sensing I was awake, moved around and curled up next to me. I fell back to sleep for a couple more hours but don’t remember any other dreams. It was a weird night.

I never thought about the extra day in a leap year. I knew about February from the month rhyme, “Except in Leap Year, that’s the time When February’s Days are twenty-nine,” but I never stopped to think about the implication: a leap year has 366 days. That’s like getting an extra day as a gift, a sort of crossing the international date line without really going anywhere. They never mentioned it in school. I was always taught 365 days; they just left off any mention of the extra. I guess they didn’t want us confused.

I do have a couple of errands to do today so I’ll have to face the world regardless of my mood. My hope is not to run into anyone I know. Pleasant isn’t on my to-do list.