The morning is spring. The nighttime is still waiting for spring. When I wake up, the house is cold. Outside is warmer. I wear my sweatshirt inside and short sleeves outside. The weather is quirky this time of year.

I am no longer house bound. This morning I bought a used Honda Civic. I waved good-bye to my pedestrian life. I reentered the world.

When I was growing up, every family I knew had only one car. It was used every day mostly by the fathers to go to work. My father was a salesman. His job was on the road. He worked for a company called J.P. Manning. It sold tobacco products. I remember going with him once to the office in Boston. The name J.P. Manning was on a sign across the top front of the company. The background of the sign was red. His territory was mostly south of Boston, a distance away. He was never home for dinner. In my memory drawer, I have a picture of him coming in the front door of our house. I can see him wearing a top coat and a fedora. The first thing he always did was hang his coat in the closet near the door and put his hat on the shelf. In my hat collection I have a fedora. I bought it as it always brings my father to mind.

My mother walked uptown to shop the different stores or she waited until Saturday when my father could drive her. She did grocery shopping Friday nights. My dad would wait in the car or stop to visit his parents who lived right down the street from the First National. In the summer, one of my uncles would sometimes pick us up, and we’d spend the day at Revere Beach with uncles and aunts and cousins. I remember when I was really young, one uncle’s car had a running board. At the beach, we’d swim and play in the sand. The adults took turns running across the street to have a few drinks. One or two stayed behind to watch us, to keep us safe. We’d leave for home in the late afternoon. I usually fell asleep in the car.

Oh the horror! Yesterday was a strange day. I never wrote Coffee; instead, I ignore my sloth, poor baby. First, I washed the kitchen floor twice. The second time it was wash and wax. I just couldn’t take the dirty floor any longer. I also washed and waxed the hall and the stairs. I polished the dining room furniture and dusted everything else. During all of this, I could hear the cries of my sloth. As for today, a friend is taking me to do a couple of errands. Yesterday, another friend took my trash. I am lucky in my friends.

Today is another lovely day, the sort of day where outside is wonderfully warm while inside is still holding the night and is chilly. I’m wearing a sweatshirt.

When I was a kid, the arrival of June meant summer was close. The last day of school was nearing, and the nearer we got, the more my attention drifted. My eyes would glaze, and I’d daydream. I’d look out the window and wish I was outside far away from school. The nun’s voice became an incoherent background hum. I was through with school, but I just had to be patient until it was through with me.

My house is mostly quiet. Henry barks when he’s looking out the front door and sees movement, but the rest of the time he’s quiet. Nala whines and talks back. She whacks me with her paw if I don’t pay attention. I have lived alone in this house since the day I bought it. I sometimes am lonely for conversation, but mostly I love the solitude and the freedom to do what I want. I live in my cozies, eat when I’m hungry and sleep when I’m tired, usually in the wee hours.

The first time I lived alone was in Ghana, on one side of a duplex on school grounds. It was difficult at first. I was homesick and unhappy. I didn’t write about it in letters as I didn’t want my parents to worry. Every day I checked for mail, for my connection to home. Finally, I decided if things didn’t change I’d leave before Christmas. Happily for me things changed. Ghana became home. I loved my life there. Teaching was a joy every day. My students understood me, and they learned. I kept busy even outside the classroom. I loved going to town. I loved the market and my market ladies. I had plenty of books, and my town had a library. In one box from home was an origami book with diagrams and colored paper. Nothing I folded looked familiar, looked the same as the illustrations, but I had fun. I still can’t do origami.