Archive for the ‘Musings’ category

“You can spread jelly on the peanut butter but you can’t spread peanut butter on the jelly.”

September 16, 2023

Hurricane Lee came and went. We had heavy winds and rain. My electricity flickered then went out, but before I could curse my fate, it came back on, all except the cable. That happened again when I was upstairs ready for bed. Alexa was quiet, no internet. I turned off the light and went to sleep. This morning Alexa was her cheerful self. The weather is damp and cold. The temperature will get down to the high 50’s, but tomorrow summer will reappear. The predicted high is 77°.

Today will be a cozy day. I won’t get dressed. I’ll loll and watch bad science fiction movies. I’ll also read a bit and snack a little.

When I was a kid, getting cozy meant lying in my bed with a good book. I had a light which hung over the bed board. It was pink plastic. When I used to sneak and read at night, I’d be under the covers with my light, but I had to keep surfacing because it got so hot under the blankets. A few times the plastic melted. My mother could never understand why, and I never explained. That bed lamp was such a good thing even now I have one hanging from the bed board, but I don’t have to sneak under the covers.

One of my favorite snacks was peanut butter on Saltines. Sometimes I made a Saltine sandwich with peanut butter and marshmallow. Other times it was peanut butter and jam or jelly. My mother used to buy Welch’s grape jelly in the glasses. I remember my Howdy Doody glass. I was heart-struck when it fell and broke. Still now I always have the makings of a peanut butter and jelly cracker sandwich though I sometimes branch out to Ritz.

It is time for another cup of coffee, maybe even some toast. I’ll slathered it with fig jam. I don’t have any Welch’s.

“She hung a sign on the front door of the house that said, ‘Mean wind, you took the wrong road. Buy yourself a map.’ ”

September 15, 2023

This morning is chilly, 66°. It is cloudy, but the sun is trying to break through, unsuccessfully so far. We have a wind, maybe a portent of the hurricane to come. Lee will hit us tonight and bring winds up to 60 mph. It will also bring heavy rain. I have a uke concert today, and I need a few of life’s essentials, think coffee and eggs, at the grocery store. After that I’ll hunker down.

The other day I stopped my car to let a turkey family cross the road. The mother and father were herding their four babies. When one baby lagged, one of its parents moved it along to the field and woods on the other side of the road. I hadn’t seen babies before. They were about as cute as turkeys get.

When I was a kid, and we were on a ride, I remember seeing a couple of deer in a field. We all shouted in excitement so my dad stopped to let us watch. Seeing a deer was rare. Around my house, we did see spawns of Satan, grey spawns, and maybe a raccoon or a skunk. The skunk waddled. The raccoon scudded as if it were sneaking something and needed a quick exit.

No one is allowed to pass my house. Henry barks, loud, incessant barks. It doesn’t matter if the door is closed. He hears or senses the interlopers. Nala does not bark at the door though she does bark at me when I don’t do her bidding. Henry has a deep, scary bark but Nala’s is not so much scary as shrilly.

I watched The Screaming Skull last night. At the beginning of the movie there is a warning about the horrific ending. A casket is the only thing on the screen during the warning. The disembodied voice said the producers of the movie were offering free burial to anyone who died of fright. The last scene before the movie started was of the inside of the casket with a note which said, “This is for you.”

“A cold wind was blowing out of the north, and it made the trees rustle like living things.”

September 14, 2023

The sun is getting brighter. The morning is cool but that won’t last as it could get into the high 70’s. Everything is wet from the on and off again rain of the last few days. We’re still keeping on eye on Lee. The forecast is for a nor’easter on Saturday, but already the air direction is changing. The morning air is coming through my north facing window. People have started hunkering down. Boats are being taken out of the water. I’m guessing the grocery stores will be filled with harried shoppers. I only need coffee. I ground the last of it yesterday. Coffee is essential.

On my dance card today is the farmer’s market uke concert. I’ll get there early and buy my scones, some native tomatoes and whatever else catches my eye. Last market it was some chocolate chunk candy. I only bought one, a mistake, as it was delicious, even better than a Snickers, a blasphemy.

When I was a kid, my least favorite subject was arithmetic. I remember learning the times tables. I liked only the ones, fives and tens, the easy ones. The nuns kept watch during arithmetic class so I used to hide my fingers under my desk so I could use them for counting. We didn’t have art or music every day, only the basic subjects. I loved reading. Sometimes I’d even hide my book from home inside one of my text books so I could read during class. I never did get caught. My technique was to raise my hand and answer a question or two so it seemed as if I were paying attention.

We always played in the streets. We rode our bikes and roller-skated. We drew hop scotch boxes on the middle of the road. We played Red Light-Green Light, Hide and Seek, Simon Says, regular Tag and Freeze Tag. Not many cars went up or down the street. Most families had only one car, and it was gone all day, driven to work by our dads. We were inside by the time most dads arrived home from work.

I am not a tea drinker, except iced tea. When I was a kid, my mother gave me hot tea when I was sick so I associate tea with being sick. She gave us flat ginger ale and dry toast if our stomachs were upset. They were a mother’s panacea.

I’m watching Snowbeast. It has already done in one skier. Her bloody jacket was found but, no one believes in the creature. It is about to eat victim number two. It roars a lot but no one pays it heed. I guess guileless people are a necessity.

“And all the lives we ever lived and all the lives to be are full of trees and changing leaves…” 

September 12, 2023

Last night it rained, gently at first then torrentially. I was surrounded by rain. I could hear it pound the windows and the roof. The air was thick and stilled by the humidity. I fell asleep to the rain.

This morning is cloudy and damp. The rain falls intermittently. It is 77°, the high for the day. Tonight will go down to the 60’s. The rest of the week will have similar weather. Hurricane Lee is in the news. Right now, whether it will hit Cape Cod is still uncertain, but we have been warned to expect “dangerous surf and rip currents” beginning Sunday. My mother would say it’s time to batten down the hatches.

My sister Moe was born just before Hurricane Edna wreaked its havoc in 1954. She was small, too small to leave the hospital, so they kept her. It was a good thing as we and thousands of others lost electricity. I remember sitting by the picture window watching the trees being blown. The biggest oak tree fell. It covered the road. We went out with my father during the eye of the storm to look at the tree. I remember how still the air was. At the end of the trunk we could see the dangling roots with dirt still clinging. Branches and debris covered the road. I was amazed that such a tree could fall. Forever after that storm, the empty spot near the corner across the street always reminded of what had stood there.

It has started raining again. I can hear it from the window behind me. That is Nala’s window. She loves leaning on the back of the couch to look out the screen. I don’t know what holds her interest. There are some trees, and you can see the side of the house next door, a rental, but no one is there.

I love living in New England. I love all four seasons, or at least parts of all four seasons. My favorite season is fall on Cape Cod. The weather is fine with warm days and cool nights. Only the weekends are busy with tourists. The roads are back to being ours. Oak tree leaves turn color. They turn a brown red, a deep color. Sugar maple trees, far fewer than the oak, are brilliant in the fall. Their leaves turn bright yellow. The low lying cranberry bogs have ripening fruits which turn the bogs into a display of red, a bright red. The harvest starts in mid to late September. I always stop to watch if I happen on a bog being harvested. The fall is long here on the cape. It lets us forget the short spring.

“The way I see it, you should live everyday like its your birthday.”

September 11, 2023

The sky is cloudy so the house is dark. Outside is humid and warm and even a bit foggy. It rained last night. Everything outside is still wet. The house feels closed in so I have turned on the AC. I’m thinking it’s an inside day, maybe an odd chore day, maybe even a nap day.

I am better today!

My house has spiders’ webs. All the spider babies are out and about skillfully making tiny webs from one spot to another. I found several webs connecting knick-knacks on my windowsills. On them I could see the tiny spiders, tiny dark dots on the webs. I just left them.

The other night Henry came in but Nala didn’t. I waited a while then went looking for her. I heard her crying then I found her in the yard sort of pacing quickly back and forth by one tree. She would stop and look up at the tree then pace again. I presumed there was an animal of sorts, but it was out of her range, hence the crying. I flashed my light but saw nothing. It was then she lost interest and beat me back into the house

When I was a kid, I was never fond of Mondays. They and every weekday thereafter were pretty much the same and out of my control. My mother got me up, fed me breakfast, made sure I was neatly dressed, gave me my lunch then sent me off to school. In school, the bell ran my life. It rang to start school, change classes, have lunch and recess, return to class then more lessons until the bell rang to release me and all the other captives. Only the afternoons were mine. My friends and I played outside, weather permitting. We played close to home. We played until the street lights went on or my mother and every other mother yelled out the door for us to come home for supper. Back then, I never really noticed the sameness of my life. I was never bored with the day to day. That’s just the way it was.

Now, I have what I call my dance card. It is my way to keep track of each day because no day is like any other day. This time of year, my card is mostly filled with uke events, a practice and a lesson and any concerts, and doctors’ appointments. I seem to have a stable of doctors, of ologists like my cardiologist. Somedays I have nothing scheduled, but I don’t get bored. That’s just the way it is.

“I enjoy convalescence. It is the part that makes the illness worth while.” 

September 10, 2023

Coffee is taking a break today to give me a break. I am a bit under the weather. I went from bed to couch, wrapped myself in a light blanket and fell back to sleep. The dogs were patient. They joined me instead of insisting on going out.

The couch will be my refuge today.

“Cultivate the habit of early rising. It is unwise to keep the head long on a level with the feet.” 

September 9, 2023

Today is breezy and cloudy but still hot at 82°. I haven’t yet started the AC because the house feels cool enough. My dance card is empty for the weekend. I’m thinking to haul out my fall decorations. We’re coming into pumpkin time.

I remember my first grade classroom. It was up a flight of stairs on the right. Just outside the classroom doors was the cloak room with a double row of hooks on two walls. There were so many coats in the winter that you didn’t need a hook. All you needed to do was put your coat between some coats, and it would stay there. I don’t remember my second grade classroom. I just know it was across the hall from my first grade room. Mrs. Kerrigan was my teacher. She was the iconic teacher. I remember she had gray hair always in a bun, wore flowered dresses and clunky heeled shoes. She had an apartment across the street from the church. My third grade was in the cellar of the rectory. It had tables and chairs and a large clock on one wall. The walls had been white-washed. I sat at the table on the left wall. I also remember all the rest of my classrooms, but the only memorable one was my fourth grade room on the second floor in the old school. From fifth to eight grade, I was in the new school, and the classrooms all looked alike.

When I travel, my favorite time of the day is the morning. I love getting up early and wandering the streets. The morning has its own smells and sounds. Trucks stop to unload, people walk to work and buses are filled. I usually find a hole in the wall where I get coffee, sometimes even a pastry and can sit outside to watch the world unfold. I always feel part of it yet removed.

“Home isn’t a place, it’s a feeling.” 

September 8, 2023

The temperature is already 82°. The three of us, Henry, Nala and I, are happy to be in the cool house. Both dogs are sleeping. They had a hectic morning. They went out quickly, came in for a biscuit, went out again then came in and collapsed on the couch. This is their morning nap time.

I watch YouTube African Walk Videos. Most walks are through markets in Ghana. There is no dialogue except for the sounds of the market, the voices speaking Ga or Twi, the toots of motorcycles and the horns of taxi drivers. The cameraman just walks and never interacts. Along both sides of him, people walk through the market. The women wear tradition cloth or regular dresses or even pants. The men wear shirts, some in Ghanaian patterns. I watch for anything familiar.

The market is divided into sections of similar goods. In the food market section, tomatoes are piled like Jenga blocks. Garden eggs are sold from baskets. Onions, yams and oranges are in piles on the tops of small wooden tables, all of which look alike. The cloth market has folded cloth in tall piles. Picking a cloth in the middle means all of the cloth is taken off the pile then re-piled. Some sandals are in pairs while others are on the floor in a mishmash, jumble of a pile. Enamel pots and pans, toilet paper, plastic containers and whatever you might need is sold in the market. A dirt walkway, wide enough for a moto, a motorcycle, separates two lines of shacks, sort of three sided lean-tos where sellers sit under umbrellas.

I am always amazed by how much Ghanaian women can carry on their heads. I watch for bofrot, my favorite Ghana treat. They are yeasty, sweet deep fried balls of dough and are sold from glass boxes with wooden sides. I have never passed up a bofrot seller.

Watching these videos fills me with an ache, a wish I was there munching on bofrot while shopping in the market. I didn’t know what to expect when I first went to Ghana for Peace Corps training. What I found was a remarkable place with friendly, warm people, a home for those two years and for all the years after.

“What dreadful hot weather we have! It keeps me in a continual state of inelegance.” 

September 7, 2023

The air conditioner is blasting. It is already 81°. Poor Nala was out for only a short time and came back inside panting. Boxers don’t do well in the heat. Come to think of it, neither do I. Today is a lolling in the cool house day. There is no concert, a scheduling issue, the dump can wait another day, and my larder is full enough. The only thing missing is those Snickers!

When I was a kid, my house was always a cave on hot summer days. Because we had no fans, no way to cool the house, all the shades were down to keep the sun at bay. Once in a while we went to the pool, but it was all the way across town so any benefits from swimming were lost on the walk home. I remember shimmering sidewalks.

When I was young, every summer day was a busy day. I spent almost every day at the playground below my street. I played tennis in the morning and played softball against other playgrounds in the afternoon. I pitched and played first base. There was a horseshoe pit. I was prone to leaners. The activity table, a picnic table, was under the only shady area on the field, off to the side. We played checkers there. I also did crafts. I remember painting a wooden tray with a bird standing on a tree branch beside one white flower. I gave the tray to my mother. I did gimp.

When I was older, I stopped going to the playground. I often went to the library so I could spend my afternoons reading in the darkened, cooler house. At night I had drill practice, mostly on Tuesdays but also some Thursdays. We had competitions every weekend, many times even two competitions. On the off drill nights, my high school friends and I would bowl or even go the drive-in. My life was busy.

In Ghana, school holidays were during our summer months, Ghana’s rainy season. Most holidays I traveled. I’d take a bus to Accra unless I was flush with money and could take a plane from Tamale, 100 miles south of my town, to Accra. I’d stay in the big city a few days, eat at restaurants and see a few movies. I’d catch up with friends at the Peace Corps hostel where we all stayed. Usually I’d get a visa and head to Togo, to Lomé, its capital, for ice cream, French food, shopping at the Grand Marché and at stores filled with imports like Mexico food. I was always amazed at what I could buy. I’d bring home a haul of goodies.

I am a sloth now, a proud sloth, superb at my ability to spend an entire day doing almost nothing except turning the pages of a book. How lovely to while away the hours in a book.

“All labor that uplifts humanity has dignity.”

September 4, 2023

Why on Labor Day does no one work? I didn’t understand that when I was a kid. But when I was older, I understood the day is a celebration, a day, “…to honor and recognize the American labor movement and the works and contributions of laborers to the development and achievements of the United States.” A single day, however, seems a trifle, a jot. Every day should be Labor Day.

Today was the end of summer, not by the calendar but by the start of school. All those days of freedom came crashing down. My life became regimented. Every morning my mother would wake us up, give us breakfast, make sure we were neatly dressed in our uniforms, hand us our lunches and send us on the way. The walk was the same every day. I sat at the same desk. I had lessons in the same order every day. The lunch bell time never varied. We’d run home at the end of the school day not wanting to miss any daylight before the streets lamps sent us all home. Bedtime was the same. The only saving grace was the weekend, especially Saturday. That was, like the Ray Bradbury short story, All Summer in a Day.

Today is back to summer. It is 80°, just about the high for the day. Tonight, though, will be in the 60’s, great for sleeping. My dance card for the week has plenty of empty days. Tuesday and Wednesday are my uke days, practice and a lesson, and that’s it for the week, no concerts. I may have to wash that kitchen floor as busy is no longer an excuse. Perhaps my being a sloth will have to suffice.

Don’t forget: no white after Labor Day!! As if…