The weather is the same as yesterday’s, light rain, white clouds and a temperature in the high 30’s. Over the weekend, we’ll have Sunday rain and a high of 56°. That seems like deck weather, but I’d have to shovel first.

So much has disappeared in my lifetime, and I’d like to resurrect a few. Woolworth’s would be first. It would be just like the one in the square when I was a kid. The floors were wooden and creaked. At the front was the check-out counter and the comic book stand. It spun. Rows of goods extended from the front to the back. I remember the toy section the best. It had jacks, yoyo’s, Fli-back paddles, Chinese finger traps, plastic green soldiers and card games like Old Maid. Nothing was expensive. Old ladies worked the register. They didn’t allow comic book reading. Sometimes I bought one.

I’d bring back the diner. It was one of my father’s stops. Sometimes I went with him, usually on a Saturday morning. I remember the diner in winter. You could feel the hot air as soon as you opened the door. The diner smelled of bacon in the morning and French fries later in the day. We ate in a booth with a tabletop jukebox, one choice for a dime and three choices for a quarter. My father would give me a quarter. When I was older, my friends and I would stop there after drill. I remember brownies with chocolate sauce.

I miss the milkman and the sound of clinking bottles. I miss the trash truck. I miss the guys with their barrels who picked up the trash and emptied in into the back of the truck. I remember their clothes were filthy. One of them would empty the garbage pail. It was in the ground. Its top had a pedal to open it. They’d pull out the pail and empty it into their barrel. I thought that had to be the worst job except for the nightsoil men in Ghana.

I’d bring back corner stores. They were the best stops for small items like bread or milk. They had large glass candy counters filled with penny candy and I remember one of them had a counter with everything Hostess. Corner stores had a feel about them, a personal feel.

I’m done pondering.

“We’re having a heat wave,” okay, a slight heat wave. It is only 33° now but a high of 40°is predicted. Rain is in the forecast. It should beat down more of the snow which is at its ugly stage. The pine trees didn’t fare well. My yards, back and front, are littered with branches and limbs. Some landed on fences. In the back a section of the fence is leaning. I think it can be saved. The front fence needs to be replaced. The snow is holding it up. Clean-up will take a while.

When I was a kid, the streets after being plowed still had a layer of snow. Summer tires were switched to either snow tires or chains. My father had his winter tires put on at the gas station. Because we lived on a hill, it was an early winter chore. Sometimes when the snow was still high on the street, my father went up the next street which by-passed most of the hill. He parked out front at the curb. Cars riding up and down the hill hard-packed the snow and made it perfect for sledding. We flew.

When I was growing up, I gave no real thought to the further beyond a day or two unless I was counting down the days until Christmas or summer vacation. I sometimes made weekend plans like going to the matinee or going bike riding usually by myself but other times with friends. On winter weekends we sometimes ice skated, at the swamp or the field. Once in a while, we’d take the bus to the MDC rink. It was the best rink. It had two round fenced in rinks, and a building where you could sit inside on benches to get warm, and you could even buy food. If I had the money, I’d buy hot chocolate then skate a little more. To get home, we used to have to cross over the busy road at the Middlesex Fells so we could catch the bus back. The bus stopped off the road at the front of the neatest house, a part of the New England Sanitarium and Hospital, where I was born as was Buffy St. Marie. The house had a beautiful rock front. Students nurses lived there. I remember them in uniform getting on the bus. They’d get off in the square.

My dance card has a few entries this week, all uke. I have the usual practice and lesson, and we have one concert. We’re playing Irish, one of my favorite uke music books. It will be good, my getting back into the world.

The early morning was sunny. Now the sun is behind the clouds. They are suspicious clouds, the sort which hides surprises. It is cold, 39°, the high for the day. I’m warm. I’ve already had my first cup of coffee. I read the newspaper. It is an ordinary winter’s day. This morning I checked my mailbox for the first time since last Monday. When I opened it, I had the best surprise. A soft package was stuffed in at the front. It took me a while of tugging and pulling to free it and the pile of mail behind it, including a small box in the way back. As soon as I got inside, I opened the package. My sister and brother-in-law had sent me a Cape Cod Ukulele Club shirt. I was thrilled. Their thoughtfulness gave me the biggest boost, gave me joy. Serendipity! Also, in the mail was my coffee. This month’s coffee, a medium roast, is from Peru, from the San Ignacio region, a mountainous region. I’m excited to try it.

When I was a kid, I drank cocoa every morning. I remember the top of the cocoa in the cup had small bubbles from my mother stirring it into the hot milk. The cocoa was thick and silky, at least that’s how my tongue remembers it. I always yummed after the first sip. I remember the cocoa container had a slot on the top. The slot was for coins. The container became a bank after the cocoa was finished. I remember my money always smelled like cocoa.

I love the taste of cinnamon. When I was a kid, I’d sometimes sprinkle cinnamon sugar on my cereal. For a nickel I could buy the cinnamon flavored Life Saver roll. Every Christmas I got the Life Saver’s book in my stocking. The first roll I’d eat was always the cinnamon followed by the root beer roll. My sister sent me cinnamon lollipops from See’s Candy one year. After the first lick, I was addicted. I bought a couple of boxes more. I got more for Christmas. I bought more. Finally I called a halt. I got a See’s catalogue the other day. I’m afraid to look through it. I have no resistance.

This week I get to join the world. I haven’t left my house since last Sunday though I did have two visitors, my friend Mary Allen and my nephew Tim. Both of them brought light. Tim shoveled me out, cleared the back stairs for Henry and brought hot food and coffee. He took trash. Mary Allen brought me the vegetables for my sausage dinner. She brought already made spaghetti and meatballs and Italian bread. She brought cream. The best thing she bought was what looked like a giant eclair. It had layers from the bottom up: dough, custard, cream and the dough top covered in chocolate. My hands were covered in cream and chocolate. I felt like a little kid, a contented little kid.

I woke earlier than usual. I was shocked to find it only a bit after nine. I can’t remember the last time I had so much morning. so much extra time. I dawdled and had an English muffin and two cups of coffee. The day is pretty and warmish. It might even get to 40°. I have no plans except for a few household chores.

When I was in Ghana, my students wanted to know everything about my home. They would visit after study hours. I’d hear a knock then what sounded like caw, caw. They’d leave their shoes at the front door then come inside. I showed them pictures of my home and family and answered their questions. They wanted to know why I had no children being as old as I was, 22, and why no husband. They wondered how Mary had Jesus but was still a virgin. For that one, I just said it was God’s way. They asked about snow. Their understanding of cold was based on harmattan weather when the nights could get as chilly as the 60’s or 70’s and even colder. My students layered for those cold mornings. I chuckled and enjoyed the cooler morning. I used crushed ice cubes to give them an idea of real cold. I even threw a few snowballs. If they were here for this storm, they would have believed the world was ending.

I still can see in my mind’s eye the house where I grew up. It was on a corner lot so we had a bigger front yard than the other duplexes. Just beyond the steps was a grassy hill. Below the hill was a sidewalk. On it was mailbox and a streetlight pole. Sitting inside by the picture window was my favorite spot when it snowed. I’d watch the snow fall. It was highlighted by the streetlight. The snow would sometimes fall sideways, blown by the wind. There was a fierceness about it. Sometimes large, wet flakes would fall. They took a while to stick to the ground. The smaller flakes fell constantly and quickly covered the ground. I’d keep checking to see how deep the snow was getting. My last check was just before bed. I fell asleep hopeful that the snow was covering everything, that I’d hear the no school fire alarm. Back then, for every kid, snow was a good thing.

On Wednesday around ten the electricity came back on. By then my house was 39°. I was wearing so many layers you’d be hard press to identify the stack of clothes as human. The lights had gone off on Monday, early afternoon. Between then and now was an adventure of sorts but not the sort you’d chose.

I gathered my supplies. That was an easy task as I hadn’t many. I had a Rayovac lantern, a dim flashlight and several candles. It was while I was writing Coffee on Monday that the lights went out, around 1. At first I just sat and read. The wind was raging. I could hear branches making Halloween scary scratching noises on the house, on two sides. The dogs looked up a few times but then ignored the sound. All I could hear was the wind. The house started to get cold. I added a heavy sweater, grabbed more layers, a hat and some mittens in case I needed them. I was warm enough but only for a while.

The dogs wouldn’t go out during the storm. Who could blame them? The house temperature kept falling, but that first day was bearable. I slept through the night covered in blankets. From the next day on the house got colder and so did I. The days were spent reading using a flashlight and trying to turn the pages with my mittens on.

In front, on the side and in backyard of my house are fallen trunks of pine trees. One landed on the fence which is only standing upright as it is being held by the fallen tree. It is the same with the front fence.

Poor Henry didn’t fare well. Part of a fallen tree with all its branches fell cross the back steps. Neither dog would walk underneath the tree to the yard. I then broke as many branches as I could. Nala went under the branches to the yard. Henry did too but had trouble going up the stairs. I called and called and he finally came up. Later both dogs went out again. Nala came inside. Henry would not. He stood at the end of the stairs whining and crying. It went on too long. I decided to save him. I laid down on my back on the deck and tried to go under the branches to Henry. I got stuck in the branches and couldn’t get up the stairs. Finally I freed myself but couldn’t stand up. More of this part of the story in a bit.

My family and my friends were worried. I was alone with two dogs, a cat and no heat. The texts went back and forth between my family and friends. They sent a police officer to do a wellness check. I passed. My nephew in North Carolina called my nephew here, and he came. He checked in with me to see what I needed. Tim brought a pizza, hot coffee, Reese’s and a new flashlight and batteries. He cleared the front and back steps of snow. He left and said he’s be back the next day to shovel out my car. This is when the worst of Henry’s nightmare started. He wouldn’t come up the steps, too many branches in the way. He stood at the bottom crying and trying to go up the stairs. I got crazy that poor Henry wouldn’t climb the stairs. I did the slide on my back down the stairs and got caught again. This time was worse. I couldn’t get unstuck, too many branches grabbing at me. I was the character in the horror movie destined to die, killed by tree branches. Finally I got upright. I was soaked. Henry was still at the foot of the stairs. That went on for 40 minutes. I called my nephew, and he came and cleared the tree. Henry came inside but was nervous and jumpy all night. Yesterday he was back to normal.

My family and friends were lifesavers. They tried to keep track of me. My dear, good friend brought me food yesterday. The surprise was a pastry so good my fingers got covered in chocolate and cream. She brought dinner and cream for my coffee. My family and friends kept in touch with each hoping one of them would hear from me. Once I had electricity back, I called them all. I am ever so thankful.

Now what did I learn? First, I’ll not be sliding on my back down the stairs again. I’ll have more light, more lanterns. I’ll have more than crackers and peanut butter in my cupboard. I’ll fill a closet with blankets. I’ll have more chocolate. that last one is critically important.

This is the Coffee I was writing on Monday when the electricity decided to hibernate. It gives you an idea of the storm. I will write another later today.

The end of the world is nigh. The snow continues. The weatherman calls it a bombogenesis. The snow is so wet and heavy branches are strewn about on the deck and around the yard. The dogs couldn’t get down to the backyard. A giant piece of the trunk of the pine tree by the back steps has broken off from the top of the tree and is covering the steps to the backyard. I tried to remove as much of the tree from the deck as possible, but the trunk is too heavy. I went to a backup plan I didn’t know I had and let the dogs out front without a leash. The snow is so high they had to jump to move. They stayed in front, but I lost them a bit so I don’t know if they peed or not. Henry came to the door first then a bit later Nala wanted in.

The wind is loud. It roars. The branches creak and click. Some brush the house. The pine trees especially can’t abide both the wind and the heavy snow. Their branches break and fall. The larger ones crash. The dogs sit up with ears perked, but it gets quiet quickly, and the dogs go back to sleep.

Last night was the worst. The nor’easter raged and the wind blew the snow sideways. The electricity went off four or five times for a minute or two. Each time it did, Henry shook. The sudden darkness scared him. He came to me so I hugged him through the fear. When the electricity went off, so did the cable. It disconnected from my network. I had to find the network and put in my password every time, twice. The cable box read boot. I left the TV on last night, and, by morning, it had righted itself.

When I went to bed, the dogs were right beside each other on my side of the bed. I left them there and slept on the other side. I didn’t read as I was afraid the light over my bed would suddenly darken and scare Henry again. When I woke up, he was stretched right beside me, something he never did until last night. This morning the light has been flickering, and every time it does, Henry growls. I’ve just turned off the light.

As long as we have heat and electricity we’ll be fine. The larder is filled. The pets have plenty of food though Jack will suffer. His treats weren’t delivered. As for me, I still don’t have any Snickers.

Oops, the lights just went off!

A nor’easter is on its way. The weather service has issued a blizzard warning starting at 4 pm today and extending into Tuesday morning. The latest prediction is 12-18 inches of wet snow accompanied by heavy winds. Most of the schools are already announcing their closings. The animals, Henry, Nala and Jack, and I will hunker down. The dogs do go out, but I swear they do their business on the run. I have everything I need; however, I did eat the Snickers. I’m thinking I’ll make some brownies.

My dogs don’t drool. They bubble. Nala’s bubble is always bigger than Henry’s. When I sit on the couch and eat something, each dog stands on one side of me, sort of cornering me. I do share but in their bowls. This morning they each got a piece of my toast. I think they were also hoping for coffee, but I didn’t share.

When I was a kid, we didn’t know it would be a snow day until the morning when the fire alarm rang out from the station. No school was a special alarm, its own alarm. We’d still be in our pajamas hoping. We’d listen to the alarm and count. We’d cheer. I think my mother grimaced.

Sunday was always a quiet day. We went to mass. Some times we’d ride with my dad, the usher, but mostly we walked. My father often brought home donuts. He was a plain donut man. He’d slather his donut with butter. Dinner was the special meal of the week. Every other day we had supper. On Sunday we had a roast, mostly chicken or beef. We always had mashed potatoes and some veggies. Corn was a favorite, kernel corn.

Before I left for Ghana and the Peace Corps, my mother asked what I’d like her to make for my last dinner home. I didn’t need to take any time, roast beef, gravy, mashed potatoes and LeSueur peas from the can. It was a quiet dinner with small talk filling the spaces. It was quiet enough to hear the clinks of forks on plates. I was excited and nervous. They were worried. I left the next day. My father drove my mother and me to Logan Airport. It was nearly two hours away. We didn’t talk a lot, didn’t want to trigger the emotions we were barely holding back. I remember saying goodbye at the gate. We hugged. When I turned for my last look, my mother gave me a tiny wave. That is what I most remember.

Weather is coming. Starting tomorrow night a nor’easter is expected, a classic nor’easter. The forecast calls for heavy, wet snow and strong winds. Here on the cape we could get 8 to 12 inches of wet snow. I shutter at the thought. We still have snow on lawns and such from the last storm. It has been too cold for the snow to melt, but I do sense the coming of spring in the air, not from climate but from tradition. The Red Sox are on TV today.

When I was a kid, snow always brought anticipation. Would we get a day off from school? Would there be enough snow for sledding? We never gave thought about the mechanics of snow. That had nothing to do with us. That was my father’s job. He shoveled the front steps and walkway, the back steps and around the car to get it out. The plows came often. Giant snow piles were left on the sides of the roads. I remember the streets always had a snow layer, even after the plow.

My street was great for going, not coming. It was a hill. I’d ride my bike down the hill with my hair flying. I’d crouch from the wind, not knowing I was practicing aerodynamics. I just had to be watchful for cars on the street at the end of the hill. Pedaling up the hill was never easy. I often stood up on the pedals hoping for extra power. Many times I didn’t make it all the way.

Sledding was wonderful on the hill. I’d pull my sled a short way from my house to the top, get it poised in just the right spot then jump on the sled stomach first, legs in the air. I’d fly. My hands steered using the metal piece at the front of the sled. We whizzed down the hill but still wary of the cars on the street at the end. Going back up the hill meant using the sled rope to pull the sled all the way back to the top. I remember the rope would get clumps of snow stuck to it as did my mittens. They’d feel so heavy on my hands. We’d sled all day. When I was finished, I’d push my sled upright into the snow, leave it there in the backyard, slide down the snow covered steps to the cellar where I’d shed my winter clothes and hang them up to dry. I’d put on warm, dry clothes. When I went upstairs, my ,mother sometimes made us hot chocolate. I remember holding the cup with both hands so they’d get warm.

I have to go out today. I have an errand and a bit of shopping. I’m thinking storm goodies, maybe even some pizza.

The morning is beautiful. The sky is cloudless, the air still and the sun is glint your eyes bright, but it is, after all, winter. The temperature is 38° but, in the scheme of things, it is warm or at least warmer than it has been. Snow is still covering lawns. It is crunchy snow, noisy snow. It sort of squeaks when you walk on it.

I really enjoyed my breakfast this morning. My coffee is from Nicaragua. I savored every sip. I had an English muffin. On it, I had a bit of butter and then a slathering of fig jam. Sadly, it was the last of my fig jam. I ate it slowly. The dogs did not even get a taste. I know you’ll find this unbelievable, but Nala stole something this morning. I know because I heard the noise of something falling on the kitchen floor. I ran to check. Nala grabbed whatever was on the floor and ran out the dog door. I didn’t have shoes on so I couldn’t follow. I did watch her run to the yard, drop something to the ground then look at me standing at the door. I think it was a look of defiance, an I won you lost sort of look.

My dance card is top heavy with uke events. Already I have had my lesson, practice and two concerts, one on Sunday and one yesterday. I have another concert today and one tomorrow. It is still Motown. I feel as if I am a throwback to the Supremes. I wish I had a sparkly long dress and the right moves.

The town where I grew up had a slew of drug stores, three in the square and two more off the square. My favorite was the Middlesex Drug Store. It was the biggest and the fanciest drug store in town. It sat in the middle of the square. The soda fountain had a marble top and stools which spun. A Coke A Cola was made at the fountain. I remember watching the soda jerk filling the glass with syrup and carbonated water. I always got a splash of vanilla. I tried cherry once but decided to stay with vanilla. I used to do some Christmas shopping at that drug store. I think it was always where I bought my father’s white handkerchiefs and perfume for my mother in a fancy bottle with a tassel around the cover.

The animals are all asleep. Henry is on his side of the couch, and Nala is right behind me with her head resting on my back. Jack is upstairs. He likes to sleep in front of the vent. I have no illusions about my spot in the hierarchy of the house. I am on the bottom. Both Nala and Henry take turns on the top. I never win.