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“When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love.”

May 22, 2010

The mornings are lovely this time of year. The sun seems brighter and sharper after the darkness of winter, the air is clear and fragrant and birds are plentiful and loud. I was on the deck while waiting for my coffee. I stood there looking over the yard and watching Gracie. Every day seems just a bit warmer than the day before. I know it’s not always true, but I think it so.

On Saturday mornings, the neighborhood stirs earlier now. Lawn mowers hum and sometimes knock. My neighbors talk to one another, and I can hear them from down the street. Bob’s truck goes by, and I recognize its sound. He’s off to do lawns. My next door neighbor leaves early. Sometimes I hear him talking to one of his workers in Portuguese before they load up the trucks and go. He’s a landscaper who also takes care of my yard. The day starts early when the weather is warm and the grass is growing.

The night are loud. The chorus of peepers from the pond down the end of the street serenade us. If I were a kid again, I’d be there, at that pond, lying on my stomach close to the water to watch the tadpoles transform into frogs.

I have routines. When I first wake up, I figure out the day of the week and whether or not I have any obligations or social events. I stretch a bit then get up, say good morning to Gracie, Fern and Maddie, who are milling around, go downstairs and start the coffee. While I’m waiting for the coffee, I go outside and check out the morning. In a bit, I go back inside, grab a cup of coffee and read the Boston Globe. My second cup accompanies the Cape Cod Times. Gracie naps during my paper time. I write Coffee next then make my bed and get dressed. The rest of the day just happens.

When people ask me what I’m doing during my retirement, I never give them a play by play. I figure they’d be bored with the little pieces of my day. I, however, love all these morning routines. They give each day a bit of symmetry.

“He is happiest, be he king or peasant, who finds peace in his home.”

May 21, 2010

The breeze is cooling this morning, the sort we hope for in the heat of a summer’s day. The air is still clear and the day smells of spring, of flowers and grass. Gracie and I stayed on the deck for a long while, both of us reluctant to come inside. The oriole dropped by for his grape jelly. He announces his arrival with a whistle.

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I stayed outside, filled the last of the flower pots on the deck with zinnias and got the fountain started. I love the sound of the water. Today I’ll plant in the front garden. Later I’ll buy the last of the flowers for the yard.

The leaves have secluded my deck. I feel as if I’m in a tree house high above the ground. No longer do I see the neighbors’ houses. I see only their lights through the trees.

Our stalwart band of trivia experts is dissolved for the summer. Last night was the last Trivia Night at the Squire. Another restaurant, down the road, also has trivia night, and three of us will give it a try. As for the rest of the team: two are on the fence and two are no-gos. It will be lonely without them.

Sometimes I just choose to stay home and spend the day reading or sitting on the deck in the sun. I don’t count success by enterprise but by contentment. Today I will be successful.

“A well-composed book is a magic carpet on which we are wafted to a world that we cannot enter in any other way”

May 20, 2010

When I went to get the papers from the driveway, I had to stand outside for a while. The world this morning is squint your eyes bright, the way it sometimes is after a heavy rain. The sunlight glistens off leaves and glints on car windows. The air smells fresh, like sheets dried outside on the clothesline. Glorious comes to mind.

This morning I had my sixth month dental check-up and cleaning. While I was sitting in the chair, I heard the drill. I winced at the sound of it.

Palm trees always seemed exotic to me when I was a kid. I remember seeing them pictured along the shoreline of some tropical beach in a National Geographic article. Green coconuts were usually clustered in and around the fronds. My first sighting of palm trees was in Ghana. The trees were in a line along the sides of the road. They exceeded all my childhood expectations.

The first big mountains I saw were the Alps. It was summer, and the meadows below the mountains were filled with wildflowers. Snow still capped many of the peaks, but the mountains were mostly lush and green. I knew all about the Alps. I had read Heidi. They looked just as she had described.

On my first trip to London I went to 221 Baker Street. I knew Sherlock Holmes never really lived there, but I still wanted to see it. My only disappointment was there wasn’t fog or the sounds of carriages and horses’ hooves.

Books took me away in time and place, and my mind’s eye imagined what the words described. I had been so many places before I went anywhere.

“How it pours, pours, pours, In a never-ending sheet! How it drives beneath the doors! How it soaks the passer’s feet!”

May 19, 2010

It was a mighty rain storm which started in the afternoon and continued all night into the morning. The oak tree branches swayed left and right blown by the wind. The candles and bird feeders on the lower branches bounced back and forth but none fell. I’ll go out later and empty all the candle holders brimming with rain water, add jelly to the orioles’ feeders and sunflower seeds to the other birds’ feeders. My kitchen floor is dog paw printed, and I have to overcome the urge to clean it as it will just get wet and muddy every time Gracie goes in and out.

I don’t ever see slip on shoe rubbers any more. My father had some. His were black just like everybody else’s were back then. I remember he’d use his thumb like a shoe horn to stretch the rubber to fit around the backs of his shoes. My father also had black galoshes for those days when rubbers weren’t protection enough from the snow. His galoshes went over his shoes and had metal clasps in the front. They were clunky looking and just didn’t fit in with his suit, top coat and fedora.

I remember see-through plastic raincoats. Women wore them, and they were once quite stylish and could be accessorized with see-through boots which fit over heels and see-through rain scarves to match. I used to have one of those rain scarves in a plastic case which was closed with a snap and was small enough to be kept in my bag for rain emergencies. The scarf was folded to a tiny size but, when unfolded, expanded to fit over my head. When I wore my scarf, it always had accordion creases from being folded. It was pretty darn ugly.

The only rain gear I have now are a couple of nylon jackets, but I don’t ever wear them. Most times I run from the house to the car to the store to the car to the house.  The  faster I run, the dryer I stay.

“That outdoor grilling is a manly pursuit has long been beyond question. If this wasn’t firmly understood, you’d never get grown men to put on those aprons with pictures of dancing wienies and things on the front…”

May 17, 2010

The house is colder than outside. I went on the deck with my coffee, sat in the sun and got warm. It’s a lovely day, another in a string of lovely days. I’ll be outside enjoying it as I plant some herbs in my deck boxes and in my herb garden. I have basil, oregano, cilantro and rosemary. I also bought some Shasta daisies for the front garden. They are one of the few flowers I can actually identify. It was trip two to the garden center, more will come.

For the second morning in a row, the devil woke me up. The sound of teeth gnawing deck furniture broke through my haze of sleep at about 5:30 this morning. I jumped out of bed, ran to the deck and chased away evil, but I know this Prince of Darkness will be back, still disguised as a gray rodent. I feel a kinship with Elmer Fudd.

My father grilled hot dogs and hamburgers when we were little. My mother made potato salad. When we got older, my father expanded his offerings. Sometimes he’d cook sausages or chicken or marinated steak tips or even a combination of meats. He used charcoal in a hibachi and sat outside with his drink and cigarette while he kept an eye on the meat. My father always cooked the meat exactly right. My mother’s offerings expanded as well, but I knew they’d be potato salad. Somethings ought never to change.

My friends and I had corn on the cob and Tony burgers for supper last night. The burgers are so named by my friend Tony who concocts, cooks and serves them. They are my favorite cheeseburgers. The corn was summer sweet, a sugar and butter corn with bright yellow and creamy white kernels. I was a typewriter, eating row by row, left to right, the same way my father always ate his corn. For dessert, we had a fruit custard. It was the ultimate summer meal.

Happy as a Clam

May 16, 2010

The sun is warm and sits in a deep blue sky. The shade is a bit chilly.

As I was crossing the bridge over the river this morning on my way to breakfast, I saw quahoggers, the first I’ve seen this season. The tide was low, and they were bunched close to shore with their baskets floating beside them on small inflated rings. Most of them were bent to the water, the best raking position. I thought how good a baked stuffed quahog tastes.

A long time back, my friends and I used to meet every Sunday morning. We’d go clamming or quahogging together, and we knew the best spots. For clams, we’d head to the flats where the sand was still rippled from the tide. We’d walk and look for the tell tale clams holes, then get down on our knees to dig. A rake needed to be used carefully so as not to break the clam’s shell. I remember getting squirted by the clams and laughing.

Other times we’d go to our secret cove to dig for quahogs. I’d wear waders and walk and feel with my feet for the quahog then I’d reach down to rake it and put it in my basket. I always got wet, and my waders were heavy with water.

With our bounty, we’d head to our friends’ house for the day. We’d sit on their patio overlooking the marsh, drink coffee, talk and read The New York Times, each of us grabbing our favorite sections. Sunday dinner was always what we’d all brought. Some had vegetables from their gardens, we had the seafood, and our friend Harry always had something for the barbecue, sometimes meat and sometimes fish. We’d all help make dinner then sit outside in the early afternoon and eat together. They were the best of Sundays.

“You cannot forget if you would those golden kisses all over the cheeks of the meadow, queerly called dandelions.”

May 15, 2010

While my coffee was brewing, I sat out on the deck with my new camera in hand hoping to take pictures of all the birds dropping by my feeders for breakfast. Not a bird stopped. Three Baltimore orioles chasing each other flew over the yard, a goldfinch was on a branch hidden by leaves and a nuthatch flew over my head. I took a picture of Gracie.

When I came back inside, I scratched my head and found a tick. I flushed it away, but I’m still grossed out, and my entire body itches. I check Gracie all the time for ticks. I wonder if I can train her to check me.

The sun was here then it left. Now it’s back. I think it will be a peek-a-boo day. I’m going for a ride later. It’s been a long time since Gracie and I meandered. The Cape is spring beautiful. The leaves are out, the lilacs are in bloom and the flowers are growing tall. I don’t want to miss any of it.

I love the faces in pansies. Some smile. Others look pensive. The ones in the pail on my front steps remind me of a garden club tea where all the women are wearing brightly colored hats.

The irises in my garden have buds. Every day I check to see how big they’ve gotten. So far they are all still green, not a touch of color peeks through.

My sisters used to bring my mother dandelion bouquets. She’d put them in a jelly glass in the middle of the table. For a little kid, dandelions were the best of flowers. I remember blowing their seeds into the air and watching the wind take and strew them like little parachutes. Sometimes we’d sit and make necklaces and crowns of dandelions, and I remember holding a dandelion under my friend’s chin to see if she liked butter. I think she did.

“How sweet I roamed from field to field, and tasted all the summer’s pride.”

May 14, 2010

Today is cloudy and damp and dark. The sky is whitish gray. It’s a drab day.

When I was a kid, everything was a toy. A flat rock was skimmed across the surface of the pond in a contest of sorts. Four was usually the winner. Big rocks were balancing boards, and we’d stand with our feet spaced and our arms straight out as we tilted faster and faster. Jumping from one huge rock to the other was a game at the beach leading to the end of the jetty where the ocean crashed.

Sticks came in all useful shapes and sizes. Some were swords, and we’d be Robin Hood and the Sheriff or any good guy and bad guy. We’d make swords sounds when the blades crashed against each other. A broken sword was total defeat. Other times, sticks were bats hitting at rocks while one of us called balls and strikes. Another stick was good at the swamp for dragging stuff out of the water. It had to be short, thick and strong. The one to use walking in the woods had to be tall and straight.

Bugs were the best fun. Catching grasshoppers from the field below my house was where I’d spend many summer hours. It was a wild field and only got rain water so its tall grass turned brown early, by mid-summer. The grass was alive with grasshoppers. I’d run, scaring them to jump, cup my hands and try to catch one in the air. When I did, I’d hold it in my hands and peek through to watch. Later, I’d let it go. Grasshoppers always left suspicious brown spots on my hands. Fireflies were a summer wonder. Their lights blinked all across the field. I’d use a jar with air holes poked in the top and trap one then I’d watch it through the sides of the jar as it miraculously lit a small piece of the darkness. I’d keep it only a while then I’d let my firefly go. I’d follow it with my eyes until I’d lost it in the field of fireflies.

“May is a pious fraud of the almanac.”

May 13, 2010

From the window near my desk, I get a view of the bird feeders closest to this end of the deck. This morning I saw the first Baltimore oriole of the season. Because I knew the oriole feeders needed jelly, I sprinted to the deck with spoon and jar and filled the two feeders. Later, I’ll go buy a few oranges. I hope the bird is enticed to return.

It’s a sunny day and warmer than it has been all week. According to the paper, we should have weather in the 60’s through the week-end, but I’m skeptical. Spring on Cape Cod is capricious.

Dogs roamed when I was a kid. My dog, Duke, knew his way home from anywhere in town. He even knew his way home from the next town. My aunt lived four or five blocks away, and Duke used to visit, meet up with his son Sam, my aunt’s dog, and the two would roam the town together. Sam was much bigger than his father, and he smiled a huge grin. Duke was somber. They were the gentlest of dogs though they looked fierce as boxers do. I remember a phone call from a frantic woman trapped in her house by Duke and Sam. Her dog was in heat, and the two boxers were sitting in front of her house, waiting and hoping. The woman was afraid to leave. My dad brought both dogs home. They went back the next day.

When I was in the fourth grade, the school had double sessions. We alternated. As fate would have it, I got the morning session in the cold, dark winter and the afternoon session in the spring. I remember warm afternoons when my teacher would open the tall, wooden windows which framed the classroom on two sides. I sat at a desk in the back of the room and could feel the sun’s warmth as it streamed through the window behind me. I could hear voices from the schoolyard where kids were playing. Arithmetic lost its allure. I longed to be outside in the sun, but I had a bit of a wait. The end of the school year and freedom were a long month away.

“Man is rated the highest animal, at least among all animals who returned the questionnaire.”

May 12, 2010

Some events catapult other events and a chain reaction ensues. For example, I took the blanket off my bed in the heat of an early spring. Shortly thereafter the temperature plummeted. I don’t take the whole blame, but I have do admit come culpability.

The weather isn’t predicted to get much better in the next few days. This morning  is cloudy and breezy and chilly. After my shower earlier, I got into comfy clothes, inside the house where nobody can see them clothes, and I intend to stay in them all day. I also intend to stay home where it’s warm and cozy. My plan is to loll about and do absolutely nothing constructive. Some days just lend themselves to sloth.

When I go to bed, the natural order is in place. Gracie is at the foot of my bed, where every self-respecting dog since Viking times has put its head, and Fern, the cat, is snuggled beside me sharing bodily warmth. At some during the night, an upheaval occurs. Gracie and Fern move. Gracie sprawls across the bed. I, in the arms of Morpheus, react unconsciously. My body shifts to sleep at an angle and my legs bend at the knees, all for Gracie’s comfort. Fern too changes position and moves to my hip, something I can’t abide when drowsy or awake, but Fern is cagey and knows I am asleep and totally unaware of her movements. This morning when I woke up, my legs were cramped, my back hurt and my hip ached. The solution seems easy, shut the door and exclude the two of them, but it isn’t easy at all. Gracie would scratch and whine at the door keeping me awake and making me feel increasingly guilty. After all, she has slept on my bed the whole of her life. Fern too isn’t above scratching the door, and, besides, she needs access to her food and litter box which are hidden in the eaves of my room. Anyone with a pet understands. We have been perfectly trained.