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 “All Christmas Trees are Perfect” 

December 7, 2024

Again, the morning is in the mid 30’s. The sky is mostly blue. Finally, the wind has disappeared, replaced by an ever so slight breeze. I can see a few brown, curled leaves fluttering at the ends of the smaller branches.

Yesterday was an odd day. First was what my sister calls the Christmas miracle. I went through my checkbook and found a glaring mistake. I didn’t carry a digit. I cheered at the unexpected wealth. Next, I had the intention of relocating my mouse but forgot it when I left for my concert. We’ll go back to that one. The concert went well until I was leaving. I couldn’t find my keys then I saw them on the passenger seat of the locked car. I almost never lock my lock. I did this time. Of course, I did. AAA came. Back to the mouse. I got the trap and was surprised. One mouse was now two mice. During the day, mouse one was joined by mouse two. Mouse count as of yesterday, six. No mice in the trap today.

We had an advent wreath when I was a kid. It was round and had five candles, three purple, one pink and one white. We lit one new candle each Sunday of Advent so the wreath got brighter as we got closer to Christmas. We had a reading before we lit each new candle. I have no memory of the readings or even the religious significance. I was there for the candles. I loved watching them flicker. I’d lick a finger and pass it through the flames. My mother would stop me and then continue reading. She took the fun away.

I always thought we had the most beautiful Christmas tree. The lights were huge. We filled every branch with ornaments. Icicles hung from ends of the branches. There were spots with holes, mostly in the middle, but we never really cared. We’d fill them with Christmas cards and a couple of Coca-Cola paper Santa Clauses. My mother always supervised the decorating. She’d put the best ornaments at the top of the tree. They were big and had glitter on them. I have one. My mother gave us all some of her old ornaments. I always put them on my tree. The big one I put at the top. It is tradition.

“Not believe in Santa Claus! You might as well not believe in fairies!”

December 6, 2024

The morning is cold, 32°. The wind makes it colder. I have to go out for another concert. Yesterday’s went well. We actually got a standing ovation. I think today I’ll bundle up in a few layers. I have my thick, warm sweater, my pseudo winter coat. It keeps away the cold. Lots to do. I have to fill the bird feeders. I still need to decorate the house. I need my tree. My days have just been too busy with a concert ever day, but I have all day tomorrow.

Henry avoids me. I started the eye medication yesterday so now he runs when I walk toward him. Today I bribed him with an extra treat. He is supposed to get medication at least once a day, but the vet preferred twice so that’s what I’m doing.

Daily mouse count: one today making the total five.

I remember when I was three or four and we lived in South Boston. Santa came to our apartment. My mother got us picture ready. I wore a dress and my brother wore his good pants and a shirt with a tie. I was the first to sit on Santa’s lap. I have a picture somewhere in this house of me with Santa that day. We were sitting on the couch. I am staring right at Santa’s face. I look awed, the look of a believer actually meeting Santa Claus. I don’t remember any conversation. I do remember my brother. He refused to go near Santa. He cried. I watched from behind the barely opened bedroom door. My mother thought it would be easier for my brother if I weren’t in the room. Nope. He never did sit on Santa’s lap.

One year we got a telegram from Santa. It was a real telegram delivered right to our door. It was addressed to The Ryan Children. On the top of the paper was Santa in his sleigh with his reindeer flying in front. The message looked as if the words had been cut and pasted. I know exactly what it said as I still have that telegram. Santa reminded us we needed to be good, and that he was looking forward to visiting our house on Christmas Eve. It was so exciting to get that telegram. My parents made Christmas exciting.

”I love the smell of a real Christmas tree – also, my mum’s Christmas pudding with brandy sauce.”

December 5, 2024

The rain started last night and continues today. The weatherman says rain most of the afternoon possibly changing to snow in the late afternoon. It is cold, only 39°. I had a late start as I took Henry to the vet. He has red all around the sockets of his eyes. He had it three years ago, but it went away. This time it hasn’t. Henry isn’t bothered by it, and he lets me clean it so it doesn’t hurt. The vet checked a swab of the redness under the microscope. He thinks it is a seasonal allergy so I have to swab the areas with an ointment twice a day. Henry also got his rabies shot, a heart worm test and his nails trimmed. I’m still taken aback by the bill.

Remember I told you I thought I had mice in the cabinet? That has been confirmed. Yesterday, two small ones were in the trap. The peanut butter was gone. Now the mice are gone, let free. This morning I checked and lo and behold I had two more small ones. They are also free. I’ll reset the trap and put it back in the cabinet. I’m keeping a rolling count.

When I was a kid, I loved going down stairs in the morning this time of year. As soon as I got to the bottom stairs, I could smell the Christmas tree, the sweet pine that always triggers memories of Christmas. I used to love to lie under the tree and look up to see the branches and lights. As soon as it got dark in the late afternoon, we raced to be the one to turn on the tree lights. I remember there were plugs all attached to each other in a row and one plug to rule them all, sorry, one to hold all the other plugs. You had to crawl under the tree to plug in the lights. Those were the days of a whole string of lights going dark when one bulb died. I can still see my father testing each bulb. I always wondered if maybe there were two or even three dead bulbs. I never said that out loud. When it happened to me in my own house, I’d have an empty strand and test the bulbs one at a time.

I have a concert this afternoon. I’ve already filled my bag with a Christmas fascinator, jingle bells, squeeze toys and a couple of metal antique noisemakers. I’m ready.

”No one falls harder than an ice skater.”

December 3, 2024

Today is cold, 35°, not so unexpected. It is also mostly cloudy and a bit windy. Even the dogs didn’t stay outside. They are into comfort. Dismal fits today so far but but I’m hoping for a little sun.

When I was a kid, Christmas started early. Uptown was decorated with lights on garlands which stretched from one side of the street to the other. The store windows had greenery and a few wrapped presents, as sort of inspirations I guess. The fire station and the police station, in the same building, were always decorated with lights. A Santa was climbing up a ladder to the chimney. That was my favorite decoration. A nativity was on the lawn of the town hall. The figures were big, and there was real straw. As we got closer to Christmas, a platform was set up in the square in front of The Children’s Corner. Every night, kids sang carols from the platform. Each night it was a different class from a different school. I remember my debut on the platform. I was in the fifth grade. We had the John Hancock book of Christmas carols. I remember how proud I was standing there singing in the middle of the square.

I loved to ice skate. I had choices as to where to skate. Sometimes my mother gave me money for the bus and for the MDC rink. I remember the rink was warm inside and had benches to sit on when putting on and taking off my skates. The rink was round and had sides, all the better to keep me from falling. The town put up a rink on Recreation Park. It too was round with sides. I hung on to those as well. A temporary shack was built with a wood stove and wooden benches. Under the benches is where we all put our shoes. Sometimes you had to hunt for one shoe or the other. I remember walking home on unsteady feet after an afternoon of skating. My favorite place to skate was the swamp. It was across the field, over the dead tree trunk in a clearing in the woods. The swamp’s open space was in the front. I’d sit on the cold ground to put on my skates. I fell sometimes on the ice, no sides, just trees.

I have a decorating project today. I have all red ornaments of different shapes and sizes and a long, thin branch from a pine tree. I’m going to hang the ornaments in different lengths from the branch then hang it in the house.

My dance card has the usual, a uke practice and lesson, and the start of our Christmas concerts, three this week.

”In the winter she curls up around a good book and dreams away the cold.”

December 2, 2024

“One day you’re eating turkey, the next thing you know your lords are a-leaping and your geese are a-laying.”

December 1, 2024

The morning is cold, a crisp cold. The sky is mostly gray with a slight tinge of blue. Today will be in the high 30’s so I’m glad for no wind. I have to go to the dump, the cold, always windy, Russian steppes dump.

When I was a kid, after Thanksgiving, when December rolled around, it was time to start thinking about Christmas. I’d spend hours going through the Sears catalog trying to figure out what I wanted. My choices changed every time I looked. I’d circle the gifts, always on the toy pages. I’d use a pencil and put my initials next to my choice. When I changed my mind, and I always changed my mind this early, I’d erase the circle. I never looked through the clothes pages. Christmas was not for clothes.

I remember the threat of Santa Claus. That threat took the place of, “I’m going to tell your father when he gets home.” My father just yelled. Santa put you on the naughty list and gave you coal. My mother was the best threat giver. She had us all scared that we’d find nothing under the tree. The closer we got to Christmas the better we were. The advantage went to my mother.

I’d watch my father when he’d decorate the bushes outside the house. The light bulbs were colored and large. Nobody used white lights back then, not even in windows. I remember the year of orange bulbs in the front windows, one in each side window and a five bulb candolier in the picture window. The candles were white plastic with fake drippings and were so light they had to be taped to the windowsill or they’d fall to the floor.

I’m amazed at the number of houses already decorated for Christmas. I’ll do mine when we get a warmish day. My neighbor’s house was lit up last night for the first time. He has white light wreaths in every front window. I drive slower this time of year so I can see all the lights, especially the lights shining through windows from the Christmas trees inside.

“Of all the items on the menu, soup is that which exacts the most delicate perfection and the strictest attention.” 

November 30, 2024

It is cold but today is a wonderful day to take a ride. The sun is framed in a deep blue sky. The air is still. I do have a couple of errands to finish if I am so inclined. I do need bread.

The Ryan household is in the middle of a computer crisis. A while back my MacBook Pro stopped charging so I started using my iPad; however it has developed the same issue. I will try to get my PC fixed and hope the iPad keeps on chugging. If I am unlucky, Coffee will be on a forced hiatus.

I think I may be maligning Nala. I know she is guilty of theft but maybe not as much as I suspected. Yesterday I was doing a bit of cleaning. My stuffed toy sloth fell out of a basket to the floor. When I went to pick it up, it had disappeared. Henry had stolen it and carried it into the hall.

I think I am in danger of being drummed out of the sloth family. Yesterday I vacuumed a couple of rooms and watered the plants. Today I needed to find a folder so I attacked the three baskets under the table in the den. I filled two bags with recyclables and another bag with trash. I neatened every basket. I then vacuumed the den and hall. I am exhausted.

My father picked the turkey carcass clean. He was a master at it. He left little on the bone, only a few bits for the broth when the carcass boiled. I think turkey soup was my favorite left over. Warm bread for dunking made the meal almost heavenly.

I don’t remember when we started decorating for Christmas, but it was never early enough for me. We had ceramic Santas, Noel cups and cardboard decorations which were the first to come out of the boxes. The nativity went up without baby Jesus. He didn’t appear until Christmas. The tree was last. My father always picked out our tree even though he wasn’t the best tree picking expert. Cost was part of his decision. The tree always had bare spots. He unraveled the lights, clumped together in a box. He was never patient. I remember the bulbs were big and got hot. Once the lights were on the tree, he was done. That was his contribution. The rest of us carried on. My mother was always the last to finish decorating. She was the icicle lady, one strand at a time.

“I think it’s wrong that only one company makes the game Monopoly.”

November 29, 2024

The morning is a delight, sunny and still. It is in the mid-40’s. The air smells sweet. I had a surprise at the bird feeders. A goldfinch has found the thistle. He joins the chickadees, the nuthatches and the titmice dining off my deck. I have to fill those feeders today. The birds are always hungry.

Yesterday was a great Thanksgiving. I accepted an invitation for a late dinner at my friends’, my former neighbors, house. It was a wonderful evening. We sat around the kitchen table chatting, drinking mimosas and eating all the traditional and a few not so traditional foods as my friends are Brazilian. We bemoaned the election as both friends had voted for Kamala. I saved my own dinner for today. I also cooked the turkey, the big one which could feed a small army. I’ll be eating turkey for days. The dogs got the innards. They were thankful.

When I was a kid, my favorite after Thanksgiving lunch was a toasted sandwich filled with turkey, stuffing and cranberry sauce. Sometimes it was slathered with butter and other times mayonnaise. My favorite supper was turkey covered with gravy on a piece of bread with stuffing on the side. Finally, the remnants of the turkey became turkey salad and turkey soup. I never got bored with turkey.

We were a game family. We played cards and board games usually at the kitchen table. I remember starting with Chutes and Ladders and Candyland. They were easy so we could move our own pieces, As we got older, though, the games got a bit more complicated. I loved Go to the Head of the Class. The pieces were small cardboard heads on stands, and the board looked like a classroom. You moved on desks from the bottom to the top. A question book was divided into difficult categories so my parents got hard questions. I still have our original game and all the pieces. The question book has yellowed.

The all time best game was and is Sorry. We still play it but with more vindictiveness than we ever conjured as kids. Our language tends to be salty. We keep track of wins and losses. We make fun of the loser. The adult game of Sorry is not for the thin skinned or for the tender hearted.

My dance card is empty until next week. I could make a to-do list, but I’m feeling like a sloth and to-do nothing seems the better choice. I have scheduled a nap.


The thankful heart will find, in every hour, some heavenly blessings”

November 28, 2024

Today is a melange of posts from Coffee’s past Thanksgivings. Some posts you might remember, but they are so a part of my Thanksgiving memories they need to be here. I remember and miss dearly my mother and father. These memories keep them close.

Happy Thanksgiving!

I wish you all a day filled with family and good friends. As you sit around the table enjoying a good meal and each other, think of all your gifts and blessings and give thanks.

On Thanksgiving morning when I was a kid, we’d all be sitting still in our pajamas in front of the TV watching the parade. We’d be noshing, as my mother would have said, on tangerines, mixed nuts in the shell and M&M’s, plain M&M’s. I liked the Brazil nuts but not the almonds. The aroma of the turkey would have already filled the house. My mother woke in the early morning to stuff it and put it in the oven. Every year it was a huge turkey, good for days of leftovers. My mother filled it with sage stuffing, still my favorite. While we watched the parade, my mother stayed in the kitchen peeling vegetables. Potatoes were always first, and there were plenty. My father’s asparagus, canned asparagus, was put in a small pan on the back burner. My mother peeled the small pearl onions for creamed onions, one of my favorite vegetables. Niblet corn and sometimes carrots filled out the menu. All four burners had pots filled with vegetables. I especially remember one pot because I think my mother had it forever. The pot had a dent and a black spot on the side which never disappeared. It usually held the potatoes. I remember the heat and steam when my mother opened the over to baste the turkey with butter and steal a bit of the crusty stuffing, hers by right of being the cook.

Befitting the occasion, we sat in the dining room. The table always looked lovely covered in a holiday tablecloth and set with special dishes. I can see my father at the head of the table. He loved gravy and mashed potatoes. He loved the canned cranberry sauce. He loved asparagus right out of the can. My favorites were creamed onions and a special squash dish, a recipe from my aunt. The table groaned with dishes. Passing those filled dishes around the table took some maneuvering with the table so tightly packed with food.

My father ate quickly so he could get back to his football games. The rest of us sat at the table to finish eating. Soon enough, the table emptied, and my mother and I tag-teamed for the cleanup. I cleared the table, and she loaded the dishwasher, and we both cleaned the kitchen. After everything was cleared, we brought out the pies. The always pies were apple and lemon meringue. Sometimes they’d be blueberry, pumpkin or sweet potato. My father went right for a huge slice of apple pie with cheddar. I had lemon meringue.

I am grateful today for so many things but especially for these memories filled with family. I love my family and my friends who have become family. I hold my Coffee family close. We have never met but that’s no never mind. You don’t need to be related or even have met to be family. I am so thankful for the life I have been lucky enough to live. Today I’ll miss family and friends. It will be a quiet Thanksgiving but still a celebration. I’ll wear my turkey earrings, sumptuously dine and maybe even get dressed.

”Pie makes everybody happy.”

November 26, 2024

The morning is cloudy and chilly. The air has the feel of late fall. Yesterday’s wind is gone. It will rain today.

I have only two uke events this week, practice tonight and a concert tomorrow. We are starting to practice Christmas music. December is heavy with concerts.

Last night I watched a Christmas Carol film I hadn’t ever seen. It starred Fredric March as Scrooge and Basil Rathbone as Marley. I did some hunting and found it had been a television episode in 1954 of a program called A Shower of Stars. It was under an hour. The story had music, wandering Carolers, a duet with Scrooge and Belle and Tiny Tim singing by the Christmas tree in the Cratchit house. To accommodate this music the ghosts had far shorter visits, especially the ghost of Christmas yet to come who brought Scrooge to Tiny Tim’s grave. The stone only read Tiny Tim. Despite the shortened length, I enjoyed my first Christmas Carol of the season.

My grandmother had a couple of brothers. I met them both, Uncle Otto and Uncle Henry. Sue was Uncle Henry’s wife. Every time I saw her, she was wearing one of those big round hats women in the 1950’a wore. She never really talked to me or anyone. She just sat on the couch and smoked. My father used to visit Uncle Henry. He’d bring him cigars and magazines. Everyone thought Uncle Henry was poor, but he left Sue a lot of money when he died. My father took me on one visit. Uncle Henry gave me a book of Christmas stories. I still have it.

Thanksgiving smells of pies baking and of turkey slowly roasting in the oven. When my mother would open the oven door to baste the turkey, the aroma would fill the house. That made the wait until dinner almost unbearable.