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“I don’t know why men like to barbecue so much. Maybe its the only thing they can cook. Or maybe they’re just closet pyromaniacs.”

May 3, 2018

Yesterday was summer. It reached 80˚. I even sat on the deck a while. All those nights in the 30’s disappeared from memory. Today is already warm.

My friends came to dinner last night. They brought a chew bone and a toy for Henry. He wasn’t all that welcoming. He even growled, but that didn’t stop him from eating the bone. Henry is still bit skittish with new people. He allowed patting, but his face gave away his emotions. Henry wasn’t happy.

Dinner was delicious. I enjoy cooking but it has been a while. Luckily, I haven’t lost my touch. My flow chart worked perfectly. I was able to sit with my friends and enjoy some appetizers: shrimp, including barbecue shrimp, and an antipasto plate. For dinner we had mashed potatoes (according to the recipe the best mashed potatoes ever, and they lived up to the hype), glazed baby carrots and marinated lamb chops. Dessert was first a fig filled with chocolate ganache and covered in dark chocolate then coconut ice cream with a sea salt caramel sauce. My friends cleaned up after dinner, the best gift of all.

My father was the official barbecue chef, not unusual as men tend to the fire, a leftover skill I suppose from cavemen. He used a hibachi. He’d sit outside, have a drink or two and keep an eye on the meat. My mother made her potato salad. The meat varied. There was chicken, or sausage, including Chinese sausage, steak tips and once in a while pork chops. When I was a kid, it was always hot dogs and hamburgers.

Before he bought a hibachi, my father had a regular size grill. He’d load it with briquets then use charcoal fluid to help along the briquets. He was a believer in the more fluid the quicker the fire. I can remember hearing a whoosh and then seeing a flame rise into the air from the grill. I remember when the cuff of my father’s pants caught on fire. He got off his chair and stomped around. He also kept a canvas tarp near him to smother the flames which were inevitable. Amazingly, my father always cooked the meat perfectly.

“Something in the air this morning made me feel like flying. . .”

May 1, 2018

Some days are just right. Today is one of them. The sun is bright and warm. All of the rain from yesterday has nearly dried. Nothing is moving: the day is still. Henry woke me at 6 when he went downstairs. That always means he wants out. I went down and opened the door. Henry went out the dog door. I went back upstairs. I looked out the bedroom window and saw him under the pine trees, Gracie’s favorite poo spot. It seems to be his as well. He finished and then ran toward the back door. I saw a flash of white. He runs at breakneck speed. I went back to bed and shortly thereafter he joined me. We both slept for nearly three more hours. My coffee was delicious this morning. It is the same coffee I’ve had the last week, Kona coffee, but today it was perfect. I toasted a breakfast roll then checked out the fridge for jam or jelly. I found an almost empty jar with a fig spread. I put it on one side of the roll. After one bite, I knew why there was so little left. It is delicious. I filled in the crossword and figured out the cryptoquip. I love today so far.

Today is an errand day, but I don’t mind the four stops. They get me out of the house into the sunshine. I tend to get complacent. It is just so easy to stay home relaxed and comfy.

My house is still filled with clumps of white dog hair. It doesn’t matter how much I clean. The clumps return. Mostly they are in this room and down the hall though I did see a few in the dining room. They were moved by the slight breeze when I walk by them. I’m thinking inside tumbleweeds.

Today is May Day. It is a day to dance and eat cake. It is a day of promise. Spring is really here giving us warmer weather and longer days. Today we celebrate flowers coming to life. There used to be traditions. Baskets of flowers were left by front doors. There was dancing around the Maypole. I think it is time to bring back flowers and dancing. Lord knows we need the joy.

“When the time is ripe for certain things, these things appear in different places in the manner of violets coming to light in the early spring.”

April 30, 2018

The clouds are still here, and it may rain later or even sooner as the clouds are getting darker. Every now and then the sun pops out but not for long. It is in the mid-50’s. The rest of the week is supposed to be warmer, even reaching the 60’s by Wednesday. We’re getting closer to deck weather.

Some days I just feel lazy. I used to feel guilty being unproductive, but long ago I learned to revel in the sheer luxury of doing nothing. What are you up to today you ask. Well, I will definitely wash up and brush my teeth, but then I’m done. Oops, I do have to fill the bird feeders, but, after that, I’m really done. I have a book, a few new magazines and a very comfy couch. I also have a whoopie pie from the bakery. Sounds like heaven to me.

In my backyard are several clumps of violets. I planted a couple of the flowers and they spread. I dug the original violets from my mother’s yard. They and lilies of the valley grew along the stone wall in the back behind her house. I also have her lilies growing. They are in a bed next to the driveway. The violets are already blooming, and they always remind me of my mother.

The peepers are back. Last night I heard them from near the small pond at the end of the street. They are a spring sound, a welcome sound.

I have always found it amazing how much louder the world gets in the spring. When I was a kid, walking to school in winter was a chore, a chore done quickly with little conversation. Getting from one warm place to the other, even if one was school, was the only thing on our minds. Nobody yelled in winter. We used all our energies to stay warm. But, with the first hint of spring, the world changed. Off went the heavy coats, and we took our time going to school, chatting and laughing the whole way. Birds greeted us and made the morning beautiful. People lingered and said good morning. After school, we played outside, and kids’ voices could be heard again all over the neighborhood. We had woken up just as the flowers and the birds had; we were just louder.

“Comics are a gateway drug to literacy.”

April 29, 2018

When I woke up, it was a bright, sunny morning. I went outside for the papers, and, on the way back, I checked out the garden as I usually do. A cluster of daffodils has bloomed. They are white and yellow, delicate and beautiful. Since then the sun has  disappeared. The once pretty day has darkened and rain is predicted.

When I was a kid, Sunday in the summer was often beach day. My mother packed the lunch, we jumped in the car, and my dad drove to Gloucester, to Wingaersheek Beach. We went early so he could find a good parking space. Each of us hauled stuff from the car to the beach, to the spot my dad had chosen. The blanket went down. Two corners were weighted, one by the picnic basket and the other by the Tartan thermos. My brother and I rushed to the water followed by my dad. My mother settled on the blanket. My sisters pulled out their pails and shovels. They only strayed from near the blanket to wade in the shallow water close to shore or to walk the beach to find seashells. My mother went with my sisters to keep an eye on them. My mother never swam. She never learned how. My father was the best swimmer I ever saw.

The house is chilly. I lowered my heat setting this week as I was horrified at how often the furnace came on in almost May. But even with my sweatshirt on, I am a bit cold so I’ll give in and turn on the heat to 68˚, my go to temperature.

Old habits do die hard. I still reach for the comics first in the Sunday papers. They were all I read when I was a kid. Those comic strips, though, are mostly gone. I remember The Phantom. He was big and muscular and wore grey. A black mask hid his eyes. Steve Canyon was in the air force. I remember his uniform and his plane. Dondi was a war orphan. Henry was a bald kid. I liked Little Lulu, her red dress and her hair-do. She never changed. Her friend was Tubby, shaped like his name. None of them ever grew older. Kids in comic strips never did. One of my all time favorites was Snuffy Smith, a hillbilly. His wife, Loweezy, wore a red dress and a black kerchief. For sure there were far more comic strips, but these stand out in my memory drawers. I have no idea why.

The sun is back. The day is so much brighter. My heat went on so the house is warm. I just got a fresh cup of coffee. I’m in a paradise of sorts. I keep smiling.

“One of the most important days of my life, was when I learned to ride a bicycle.”

April 28, 2018

The sky is blue and the sun is shining, a pretty day. It was cloudy when I first woke up so I stayed in bed a while, but Henry was impatient so I was forced to get up and let him outside. He is now staying away from me as I took his collar off to add his new name tag and he is not happy. He keeps eyeing the couch but doesn’t get on it, too close to me. I haven’t dared to put on his new halter. He’d run away from home.

I only thing on my dance card today is the bird feeders. They need to be filled. I bought a bag of sunflower seeds the other day so I’m all set.

When I was a kid, a day like today meant exploring on my bike. I knew all the best places  in my town. The dairy farm was a bit far from my house but well worth the pedaling. The cows were usually in the pasture. They were black and white. Much later I found out they were Holsteins. This time of year there was mud all over the ground outside the barn. It was churned and filled with hoof prints. The cows wandered through.

Sometimes I’d go to the zoo. It was small and filled with cages and fenced in hills for the deer. The draw was the elephant. I even got to feed it inside its enclosure. I had befriended one of the zoo workers, and I got to feed the animals. I’d open the backs of the cages and put their food inside. I always felt special feeding the animals.

I used go to the golf course to find errant golf balls. A few were across the street from the course but most were in the trees and the water. I liked the way golf balls bounced, and I liked the sound they made when I bounced them on the road.

Sometimes I’d bring my lunch, usually a sandwich, mostly a bologna sandwich, and Oreo cookies for dessert. I’d stop at the town hall and sit on the benches. I’d watch people walking uptown to shop. I always hoped for a fire alarm so I could watch the engines barrel down the street with lights blinking and siren blowing. I never thought about there actually being a fire. I just wanted the drama.

I’d get home in the late afternoon. My mother would ask where I’d been. I always answered just around.

“On Sunday mornings, as the dawn burned into day, swarms of gulls descended on the uncollected trash, hovering and dropping in the cold clear light.”

April 27, 2018

Today isn’t pretty. It’s cloudy, and rain is expected in the afternoon, but for some unknown reason I like today. I slept late then read the papers. My Kona coffee was delicious. When Henry went out, I stood on the deck a while and watched him. The air was warm. It was filled with birds sounds. The mourning doves were the loudest. At the feeders, the bright yellow goldfinches flew in and out as did the chickadees. A gray spawn of Satan jumped from branch to branch. Henry went inside without me. I followed him. It was time to feed him and Maddie. When that was done, I asked Alexa (the x doesn’t work either-I copied and pasted) to play traditional folk. As I read my e-mail, Peter, Paul and Mary was her first choice. That was perfect.

Today is dump day. Henry doesn’t yet know the joy of a dump run, one of Gracie’s favorite trips. When she’d see trash go outside, she could barely contain herself. Henry sits on the couch and watches. I need to get him car happy before we do rides together.

My father loved his dump. It was a different time back then, no recycling. The dump was just huge piles of trash you drove around while looking for a spot to empty your barrels. Seagulls flew in circles around the piles and squawked and wailed. Others walked all over the trash looking for food. My dad always dumped his trash on the weekend. If I were home from school, he’d invite me to go with him. If I had a friend with me for the weekend, I was second fiddle, and my friend got the invite. My father thought the invite was special, a sharing of one of his favorite places.

Having a puppy is a whole difference experience. Henry doesn’t walk. He runs and sounds like a thundering herd. He jumps on the couch. He bolts up the outside backstairs so fast he skips steps. He is a vacuum when he eats. I doubt he even chews. My whole bed shakes when he does his running leap from the hall to get on the bed. His tail whips back and forth when he is happy. Henry is the first dog I’ve ever had with a long tail. I got face whacked the other day. I learned a lesson.

“Color will put a smile on anyone’s face.”

April 26, 2018

My keyboard has a bad key. I cannot type an H. I have to copy and paste one from a sheet where I have small and capitalized h’s. It is driving me crazy. I looked up solutions but none worked. My friend minicapt was always my MAC guy. He’d give me the solutions which usually solved the problems. Now I’ll have to take this to the Apple store. I would have a dog named Henry.

It poured yesterday. The rain was so heavy it drowned out every sound except the pounding on the roof. It reminded me of rain falling on the tin roof of my house in Ghana. I loved it.

Today is cloudy and damp, but it feels warm. Nothing is stirring, not a branch, not a leaf. The trees in the backyard are still winter bare. They are framed by the cloudy sky and look like silhouettes.

My front garden has hyacinths blooming. They are pink, blue and purple. On the forsythia the yellow buds are almost flowers. I am hungry for their color.

My dog has mastered the dog door, coming and going. The remaining problem is he hasn’t yet figured out he can go whenever he wants. Henry goes up and down the hall a few times which prompts my asking if he needs out. That’s like giving permission so out he goes.

My larder is still full including my freezer, but the food just hasn’t tickled my taste buds. Last night I drove to Dennisport and bought Thai food. The coconut shrimp was my favorite. I also bought chicken satay, scallion pancakes and a noodle dish with vegetables. I have enough for my supper tonight. My taste buds are happy.

I am watching The Day Time Ended. A family is living in the desert in a solar house. An alien construction appears and disappears. Green lights shine in a couple of rooms. A tiny green alien appears to the grandmother and the granddaughter. Lights fly toward the house from the sky. Aliens fight each other outside the house and try to get inside to kill the family. A UFO saves the family by transporting them to the future. They are still in the desert. They leave the safety of their house and begin riding horses across the desert. They see their missing son-in-law, daughter and granddaughter and a domed city. They are saved. I lasted through this entire movie. There must be some sort of a award.

The clouds are nearly gone. I can see the sun and a blue sky. Maybe it will be good day after all.

“Travel and change of place impart new vigor to the mind.”

April 24, 2018

Today is warmer than the last few days. The air smells of spring. The breeze is so slight it barely moves the end branches of trees. When Henry is out, I stand on the deck in the sun and watch him. He runs all over the back of the yard with wild puppy abandonment. He frolics.

One of my last trips to Europe was to Iceland with my mother and sister. We arrived in the darkness of an Icelandic winter morning. While we waited for our rooms to be ready, we sat in the lobby. My mother kept looking out the windows. At around nine she turned and asked me if it ever gets light. She also watched the bus stop across the street. There was a small glass enclosure around three sides. The people waiting for the bus were huddled. They looked frozen. Later we decided to go to town. I told my mother we’d take the bus. She looked horrified and asked if we had to go across the street. We did. My mother froze. We walked all around Reykjavik and did a bit of shopping. My mother despite her frozen state actually found an Irish pub. She was delighted to warm up with an Irish coffee, a couple of Irish coffees.

My mother and I went to Italy together. We stayed in a small hotel in Rome. During the day we wandered the city. My mother was a great traveling companion. At dinner one night I ordered bruschetta. She had never heard of it. She loved it and ordered it just about every night after that. We’d get back to the hotel and sit and have a drink before going to our room. Each night my mother ordered cognac. I had never seen her drink anything but whiskey and coke, a sort of weird cousin to a Cuba libre. When I mentioned that, she said this is a vacation. Anything goes.

When my mother visited me, I’d give her a cup of coffee and a biscotti at breakfast. She never drank coffee or tea. The coffee was for dunking purposes only. She did love biscotti.

My parents and I traveled together many times. I’d plan where we were going. I think my favorite trip with them was to Vienna and Budapest. My favorite day of that trip was Easter Sunday. We heard the Vienna Boys Choir at mass and saw the Lipizzans in the early afternoon. We stopped for a Sacher torte. Later we sat in a park, drank wonderful iced coffee and listened to Mozart, Schubert and Strauss being played by a small orchestra. My father loved the whipped cream on the coffee and smacked his lips every time he tasted it. That night we ate dinner in our hotel, the Palais Schwarzenberg, the most expensive hotel I’ve ever stayed in. The dinner menu had no prices. A man in a weskit worked the elevator, an old fashion one with a gate. The dinner started with a gift from the chef, quail eggs. The meal was sumptuous. My dad paid. I said let’s got to the lounge by the bar, and I’ll treat for after dinner drinks. We ordered Irish coffees. The bill was close to 60.00 for the three drinks. My dad thought that was funny. I wondered about the cost of dinner. He wouldn’t tell me.

I am blessed to have these wonderful memories of me and my parents traveling together. It was always fun.

“I must have flowers, always, and always.”

April 23, 2018

Today we still have sun and blue sky and that pesky breeze which gives a chill to the air. We got to 55˚ yesterday. Last night was cold. I have bird feeders to fill, and that’s it for chores. I have no errands. I see a quiet day with my book.

When I was a kid, the fathers did all the lawn and garden work except for Mrs. Burns who lived on top of the hill behind my house. She took care of her lawn, and it was the best lawn in the neighborhood. The backs of the houses had no divisions between the yards but you knew where her yard started and ended because of the thick, green lawn. If anyone walked on her lawn, she shouted from the kitchen window none too gently. I remember watching her mow. She went back and forth overlapping each row.

My father always planted pansies and marigolds in the small garden in the front of our house. They were the only flowers I knew by name. My father mowed the lawn with his push mower. All his life he used that bush mower. He was always proud of his lawns. He didn’t let anyone else mow. He had a system. After my parents had bought a house, my father planted in the window boxes out front, and my mother had a flower garden in the back below the kitchen windows. She had a statue of St. Francis in her garden. My mother had all sorts of flowers planted and the garden was beautiful. We did have to fence it as my dog Maggie always checked out the garden and stepped on my mother’s flowers. After I bought my house, my parents came down for the weekend, and my father planted flowers in my garden, and he mowed the lawn in front and the tall grass in the back. The flowers still grow every spring.

I have a list of flowers to buy this year. They are different than any already in my garden. I also have a list for the window boxes on the back deck rails. Those plants repel mosquitos.

I am impatient for warmer weather so I can shop at the garden store. I love wandering the rows of flowers and herbs. I take my list and check off my floral finds. I also pick up some not on the list because of their beauty or their colors. I just want flowers.

“The environment is where we all meet; where we all have a mutual interest; it is the one thing all of us share.”

April 22, 2018

I love this morning. The sun is so very bright and the skies is a cloudless dark blue. The breeze is slight. It is 51˚ right now and won’t get much higher, but I’m okay with that. It is just spring on Cape Cod.

Today is Earth Day. I missed the first one in 1970. I was in Ghana for my second year. Living there was a disconnect from what was happening here at home. I did get the NY Times Week in Review from Peace Corps Ghana, and every three or four months I’d get the Sunday Times, several at once. That subscription had been a gift. But what was going on at home seemed remote despite the papers. There I was living in Bolga, shopping on market days, trying to sleep in the heat, taking cold showers as there was no hot water and teaching for the first time. My life was complex in a whole different way than I knew before Ghana.

The Ghanaians used everything. Nothing was wasted. Tires became the soles of sandals. Newspapers were wrapped around rice and meat bought from the market. Cans were multi-purposed. Anything which could be recycled was. Earth Day was every day in Ghana. It was their way of life.

When I came home, it took a long while to feel comfortable. In Ghana, I had vowed I would live a simpler life at home. That lasted for a while then I got caught up with living here. It took until I had my own home before I began to recycle. It had nothing to do with Earth Day. It was what I had learned in Ghana. I saved cans and bottles and newspaper and magazines. I thought about how the Ghanaians would have loved all of those. They would have thought my bags were treasure troves.

We are going in the wrong direction. The Obama policies to curb climate change and limit pollution have been reversed by Trump, with help from his administration and the Republicans in Congress. Our Earth wasn’t even considered. Profits and politics were. If it had Obama’s name attached in any way, it was gone, erased regardless of the environmental impact. After all, there is no global warming, no climate change. Just ask Pruitt.