“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”
Deep grief is quiet. It settles in the heart. It stays there. It softens but never disappears. My circle gets smaller as I grow older. My grandparents left first. My parents and my aunts and uncles left next. No one ever tells you how awful it is to lose your parents. The hole never closes. I have lost dear friends, as close as family friends. Last week I lost the closest, but she had been disappearing. She had Alzheimer’s. Yet, I was surprised when she died. After I heard, I just sat and everything disappeared, all my thoughts, all my feelings. I couldn’t grab hold of anything. Now I can sit with my memories. I laugh a lot.
Yesterday I visited my former neighbors who had moved from next door to a larger house and yard. They came from Brazil years ago. We sat and chatted. We drank mimosas and ate plantain and Brazilian linguica. It was a wonderful afternoon, a perfect time to be with friends.
Labor Day is late this year which is a good thing as it always signals the end of summer. School starts here just after the holiday. The tourists hang round, but fewer are here during the week. The weekends stay busy. The tour buses start. We won’t get the cape back until November.
Today I am seeing a play with a friend, the musical The Girl from North Country. Tomorrow is the last Monday concert of the summer. We always play Irish music last. We dress in green and wear fascinators with shamrocks or leprechauns. It is a lively concert. I’m glad for lively.
The weather has been delightful. Right now it is 77°. I love the view outside my window. I can see the sunshine through the oak leaves on the tree closest to the house. From in-between the top branches I have glimpses of the blue sky. The air is quite still. It is a quiet Sunday.
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August 30, 2026 at 12:43 pm
Sadly, we must attend a funeral of a friend next Saturday. She was one half of a couple we met a few years ago whilst dog walking. We bonded due to the similarity of our dogs, the fact that the husband had been to the same university as me just after I left, and other factors. He is a retired professor. Plus he and my wife and I support the same “soccer” team. Our deceased friend fought against bowel cancer, even visiting the USA for treatment. To no avail. I like the fact we have been asked not to wear funereal outfits, but rather to come dressed to celebrate the positive, happy life she had.
August 30, 2026 at 10:03 pm
Peter,
In the last three years I have lost 5 friends, counting Annie who passed last week. These are friends I have had for decades. Getting older seems not to have any perks. I am also sorry for your loss. I know how you feel!
August 30, 2026 at 12:44 pm
p.s. I hope your set list includes Danny Boy, and Carrickfergus?
August 30, 2026 at 10:09 pm
Sorry, Peter. It doesn’t. I’d list the set except the book is in my car, and I’m settled inside.