“Being is like pretending.”
I apologize for missing yesterday, but I had an appointment, needed to do a bit of shopping, and when I got home, I finished some stuff around the house, like changing the cat litter. By the time I was done, my leg was pretty painful and I just wanted to take something, lie down with the offensive limb under the covers and have a nap. It helped.
This morning we have snow showers, but they’re not amounting to much, probably just a dusting. It is still cold, but not the single digits it has been. 33° feels like a heatwave. The clouds are a light gray, and from my window that’s what the whole world looks like. It is really quiet. My typing is the only sound in the house, and I hear nothing from outside: not a car and not a dog barking. My list of plans for today is short. I have one chore, watering the plants, and the rest of the day I’ll just relax and read. I could blame my idleness on my leg, but I don’t have to. I can do anything I want.
I forget how old I was when I stopped pretending. Maybe I was a teenager more mindful of boys and clothes and the future. That seems about the right time. I wasn’t a cowgirl any more or a knight or an explorer. I was me.
I have spent a long time learning about me. I came to realize early on that all that pretending was helping me become whatever I wanted. Nobody told a cowgirl she couldn’t ride the range. An explorer is meant to see the world. A knight is honorable and rights wrongs. Who could aspire for more?
I’m still learning.
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January 25, 2011 at 12:43 pm
It as snowed here all day and I guess we´ve gotten around 2-4 inches of that white garbage. But even more fun was the icy drizzle that really made the journey home exiting 🙂 🙂
Working in a factory is an easy way to get insane really, but one way to keep sane is tom pretend a lot 🙂 I have different adventures in my head every day or sometimes the same continuing one for several days 🙂
Have a great day now!
Christer.
January 26, 2011 at 10:18 pm
Christer,
We had almost no snow on the ground yesterday. It is piled at the corners where the plows left it. Winter must hate a snowless lawn as more is coming tomorrow.
January 25, 2011 at 1:19 pm
Good post Kat. We needed you to talk Bushwhacker out of getting us into the “YOU LIE” war. I grew up knowing that sooner of later the call would come from the military even though I was raised military. I think it gets to one when they already lived the life. At lease for 19 years. We are busy buttoning down the hatch here as 70 mph winds are heading out way with a hail storm predicted to be the size of golf balls. Even the seasoned sailors are bringing their sail boats into dry dock. IT’s a mess out there and now I here we have traffic jams everywhere, people leaving town. We will stay. I’m planning on the SOTU message making me feel better.
January 26, 2011 at 10:21 pm
Thanks, Z&Me
It seems to be a mess everywhere. The world is in an upheaval with floods, storms, tsunamis and drought. I’m waiting for the frogs and the locust.
IT made me better, but the President does that-just no follow through.
January 25, 2011 at 7:35 pm
1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gsSmtvzegAQ
2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZbIcfFD30Ms
Cheers
January 26, 2011 at 10:21 pm
Minicapt,
I am more of a traditionalist, but I chuckled at the second one.
January 28, 2011 at 12:44 am
I NEVER stopped pretending. As you say, that is the basis for how to become something different. I pretend every night when I go to sleep. I pretend when I sing a song that someone wrote. I pretend I’m a poet when I write one. I pretend the short fiction pieces are happening to ME. That way, I can flesh them out with much more detail than if they were happening to some distant someone OVER THERE.
May you never stop learning in that vein!
January 28, 2011 at 11:36 am
Rick,
I figure pretending keeps me young and alive. I am whoever I want to be. I thank you for your last line. That’s a great wish.